OK I'm slowly getting better. I hope you guys like this chapter a little more than than the last two I personally thought they were crap. I'm not finished with this one But I will be soon. I don't really know what to say so just enjoy!


~Facade~

I jolt up.

I look over at the red lights on my alarm clock, the numbers are blurry but I can tell they say 5:50. Why of course I could wake up 10 minutes before my alarm goes off. Did I expect anything different? I spend the extra ten minutes thinking about how my day is going to go. Not that it matters really.I finally get the strength to drag myself out of bed and go to the bathroom. Thank goodness it's close to my room. I turn on the water and hop in the shower. Ugh I hate Mondays. But maybe today can be a good day. I tell myself. As if. I reply back.

I sigh and continue my daily routine of getting ready for school.

. . . .

I finally make my way out of my house and proceed to walk to my bus stop with a confidence that I only dream I could ever have. I walk past the lower class men and the younger children in the middle school. All the while avoiding eye contact. I've got my ear buds in, and I have my music turned all the way up. I'm listening to a total guilty pleasure song, Hollaback Girl by Gwen Stephani. Embarrassing I know but I can't help it, it's so catchy.

"Few times I've been 'round that track..."

I reach my stop and wait with the other students. I still avoid any eye contact. All I can think about is how happy I am that I have my ipod, it keeps me from having to deal with the awkward silence that comes with waiting. I like to call it "my portable therapy". After a few minutes my bus arrives. Once I get on I lookfor the nearest empty seat, lucky me that seat always happens to be the first one in the front. So with as much grace as a clumsy person like myself can produce, I plop into my seat. I make sure to put my book bag next to me, to be sure that no one would sit next to me. Not that they would want to anyway. I fidget a little to get comfortable then I stare intently out the window. Yeah it's just another way that I avoid eye contact. I finally realize that I've had Hollackback Girl on repeat. I quickly fumble around in my pocket to get my ipod. Once I finally find it, I decide to switch to something just a bit more subtle.

Your not fooling anyone.

I decide on Mr. Brightside by The Killers

They all know your fake.

I sit back in my seat and wait for the bus to arrive at the school.

. . . .

The bus pulls int the parking lot. I "gracefully" get out of my seat, grab my bag and get off the bus. I stumble once I get off but I catch my myself and keep walking. "Sora! Hey Sora!" I take my one of my ear buds out and turn to see Xion running towards me. Time to start acting. She catches up to me and gives me a tight squeeze. Even though it's I just saw her Friday she always acts as if it's been months since we've seen each other last.

"How was your weekend?" she cheerily asks.

Terrible. I slap on a grin and say"Great! How about yours" She pauses and puts a finger on her chin as if it were really difficult to recall what she did.

"Well I hung out with my friends Namine and Riku and-" I completely zone out. I bite my lip and get the image of those bright sea-green eyes. Then suddenly I snap back to the present and catch the last few words of Xion's story.

"-then it got cool outside and we had to get out of the pool, but we still had fun!" I manage to get out a half laugh type thing. "You should have come" she pouts. I give her my best "puuuuhlease" look. Xion doesn't get it. She doesn't understand that that I wouldn't have fun and that no one would want to hang out with me anyway. So I just start walking away. She almost has to run to catch up with me. "Is everything OK?" she asks.

Define ok.

"Yeah I'm fine, just a little tired" the old "I'm just tired" excuse, it always works.

"Oh, OK" and she continues to blab on about her awesome weekend.

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