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He looked at me with his bright blue eyes and smiled. I couldn't help but return it. Having Derek here is both a gift and a curse. Resisting Derek is nearly impossible but, I have to. Derek is part of the past and I'm moving on with my life. Derek is ok with being friends and now, so am I. I really wasn't at first but for the four days he's been here I've felt alive inside. I have not felt like this since when I was an intern and he was trying desperately to get me to go on a date with him. Having Derek back in life as a friend is a good thing.

"how was your liver transplant Dr. Grey?" he questions truly interested in how it went. I take my surgical mask and throw it to the ground. Tears of defeat begin to sting my eyes and he notices immediately. How do I tell his parents? He was only 12 years old and now, he's dead. Going in for a relatively simple procedure for me but the donated liver just didn't take and as hard as I tried and tried he just couldn't be saved.

"no." he says lightly. I nod feeling the lump in my throat growing by the minute and my ability to breathe deteriorating. "Mer, I' so sorry but just know these things happen. It's horrible but they happen." He says compassionately. With that he takes me into his arms while I cry. Sobs attack my whole body. We stand there for a while and he's just stroking my hair and whispering to me soothingly. Finally I break contact and we stare at each other for a long moment.

"how do I tell his parents?" I question.

"that's the hardest part, even I ask myself that question." He says rubbing my arm. He wipes away the remaining tears with his finger lightly.

"thanks Der" I say a smile starting to spread on my lips.

Telling Robbie's parents was by far the hardest thing I have ever had to do. There screams and cries could be heard all through the hospital I could say was I'm sorry. I'm sorry, it's really not enough. Containing my own tears was the hardest part. Going out with Neila tonight is exactly what I need. I slip into a low cut grey long sleeve shirt and a pair of incredibly tight jeans. My hair is long, sleek and straight. My eyes currently match the grey of my shirt. Slipping into my blue coat I go to meet Neila.

"bad day?" she states.

"you have no idea." I respond.

We get into my blue SUV and we head off towards the nearest bar. Neila is currently single which means she will most definitely be getting some action tonight. Guys loved her because she was exotic and gorgeous. She had a slight fling with Eli before I arrived believe it or not. We sit there discussing everything that's gone on in our day. Both of us chugging tequila. A few hours later we're a little too drunk. Feeling my mood getting lighter and lighter I begin to laugh and have fun. We joke and smile and laugh and just keep drinking.

A few more hours later and I can feel myself getting and drunker and drunker but I don't care I need this right now and I haven't been able to do this in the longest time. The feeling of freedom and not caring feels amazing. And of course the song Bohemian Rhapsody starts playing and instantly Neila beings to sing along, she is very fun when she's drunk. She pulls me up and I find myself singing along too, loud I don't even know when and how it happened.

"Mamma just killed a man put a gun against his head pulled my trigger now he's DEAD!" we both chant in sync. Getting more into we start to add dance moves as well. Embarresingly enough this song is one of my favorites to jam out to. When the rock and roll verse comes on the whole bar begins to stare because in that instance we got up onto the table and started jamming out and dancing like fools on top of the table.

"Oh Babayyyyy!" we sing out loud again soon the whole bar begins to join and guys start to grind on us. We really are the life of the party. I let out another carefree laugh and continue to drink my tequila! Thud! Suddenly pain begins to radiate through my head as I hit the floor. Neila bends down to make sure I'm alright.

"I'm fin-ne" I slur with my head throbbing. Ugh of course I had to be the idiot to fall of the bar table and bump my head. The bartender looks at me with concern in his eyes.

"I called you girls a cab I think it's time for you to go home." He says and with that we thank him and take the cab.

Stepping into my apartment I instantly being to feel the nausea overtake me. I make a run for the bathroom as quickly as I can and my stomach contents empty into the toilet. Eli is there holding back my hair while I barf.

"Jesus Mer your wasted!" he exclaims with some anger in his voice.

He carries me into bed and I fall asleep. The morning is not treating me well I can feel my head throbbing and EIi still at my side.

"Mer, you were so drunk last night it was disgusting." He says quietly.

"I know." I apologize "My patient Robbie dyed and I was just a little upset and I'm sorry." I say ashamed.

"I know, losing a patient is hard babe but you can't just go get wasted everytime something bad happens you're not that girl anymore Mer! He exclaims the agitation becoming evident in his voice. With that he kisses me softly on the lips and pulls me into him. Taking in his scent I smile and he laughs quietly.

"you know I must say your very entertaining when your drunk" though he says flashing a bigger smile.

"what did I do" embarrassment ripping through me.

"you were very into the idea of us getting married naked" he says with a slightly dirty tone to his voice.

"was I now?" I say "And people think being drunk impairs your judgment, I think that's the best idea I've had in a while" I tease naughtily.

'I can help but agree he says slipping down my panties.

Three orgasms later and my satisfaction is felt. Heading to work for a brand new day where I can save lives. Thanks to Der I know now all I can do is move on the next patient and try like hell to save them. Derek is a big help to have around because without him I honestly don't know how I would have been able to tell that poor boy's family. Maybe things aren't as bad as they seem. But who was I kidding this is me we're talking about so in a matter of time things will get worse.

R&R please! And just putting this out there GA season premiere is next week I'm so excited (:!