Chapter 3

Shuuhei's P.O.V

Where am I? I think to myself as I try to get familiar with my surroundings. It appears to be some sort of dirt road surrounded by fields of grass which feels familiar. I am surrounded by darkness with the exception of the street light at the end of the road. I have definitely been here before. The rain has soaked through all of my clothes leaving me with a constant chill. I feel out of breath like I have been running for hours. I collapse onto my knees and cannot find the strength to stand. It feels like all of my strength has left my body and all I can do is crawl.

I have the feeling of being chased in the back of my mind which is driving me to go forward. As soon as I start to move forward there is an intense pain in my ribs. I move my hand to where the pain is coming from and when I pull my hand back I notice it is covered in blood. Panic starts to take over my body at the sight of my blood. I look down to see a stab wound in the side of my body. I hear footsteps at the end of the road which suddenly stop. I turn around to find out who the footsteps belong to and that's when my body is taken over by fear. The feeling of dread spreads across my body at the realisation of where I am.

"Stop running Shuuhei, it is only going to make things worse." the man says with a cold and cruel voice. I try to yell but no noise comes out of my mouth. I feel paralysed by fear. Why is this happening!? I try to move forward but I end up collapsing into a puddle which begins to mix with the blood that is coming from my wound. I don't want to die like this. I pull my arm out in front of me to try and grab something to pull me forward but to no success.

The footsteps begin again and I find myself finding it hard to breath. I look to the other end of the road. It is so close but so far. My vision begins to blur and I am starting to feel lightheaded. I can hear the footsteps getting even closer now. Why is he doing this!? I give up and completely and collapse in the puddle. There is no way out of this. The footsteps stop and there is silence which causes the dread in my body to intensify. A hand tightly grips my arm and roughly rolls me over onto my back causing my wound intense pain. I don't even know if I let out a cry of pain or not, I am barely conscious. The rain is pouring down on my face and stinging my wound but at this moment I don't really care. I look up at him with fear at what is about to happen.

"Why?" I say in a barely audible tone. His mouth stretches into a long, cruel, sadistic grin which is all I can see. The man's hood is covering the rest of his face.

"Why?" he says, letting out a small chuckle. "Well Shuuhei, you just so happened to be at the wrong place at the wrong time and I am running low on human lab rats." He pulls out a knife from his pocket and looks at it with a certain kind of curiosity. "I know this is cliché and all but do you have any last words before lights out?" I lay there staring up at him while he plays with the knife in his hands. He lifts the blade up and is about to strike me with it.

"Go to hell!" I yell as I watch the blade come down on me.

"KENSEI!" I scream as I wake up with a jolt to my body and cold sweat pouring off me. My head feels like it is on fire and I am struggling to breath. Where the hell am I? I look around the room I am in and it appears to be another hospital room which I am thankful for. It means I am safe and that was just the same recurring nightmare about my past. It always feels so real like I am reliving it again. But I am not. I am in a hospital room… again. I have honestly had enough of hospitals for a life time. I rub the back of my head and I can feel several lumps that are there. I pull my hand away due to the pain that touching them causes.

"Why the fuck am I in a hospital?" I say to myself. I try to remember what got me here but nothing comes to mind. Did I… try to kill myself again? That wouldn't surprise me.

"Oh you're up." Says Isshin as he walks through the door. "How is your head?"

"Hurts."

"Well that is to be expected. You are lucky the glass didn't cut any deeper or you would have been in real trouble."

"What glass?"

"Well I guess you don't remember, which is normal. What is the last thing you remember?" Isshin says as he pulls up a chair next to my hospital bed.

"The last thing I can remember was painting." I try to think back but my mind is all foggy. I was in art therapy with Ichigo and something about Kensei. Kensei… "That is all I can remember. What happened to me?"

"You were attacked by another patient in the bathroom. You are lucky that Gin was there to step in or you might have been in a much worse condition." Bathroom… Gin… I can't fucking remember! I know it is all there but it just won't come to me. I can feel it trying to come back to me but it is just not happening at this point.

"Who attacked me? I can't remember anything." I say as I close my eyes and try my hardest to remember.

"It was a patient by the name of Kensei. I have been informed that he has had anger issues in the past so this comes as no surprise."

"Kensei, attacked me?" I knew he didn't like but to go and attack me is something different altogether.

"Yes he did. He admitted to it and the right protocols have been put in place for his punishment. I am not quite sure what those are but I am sure they will be effective. Now try and get some rest. You will be staying here for a couple more days while you recover and then you will be transferred back to the psychiatric hospital." Isshin gets up and gives me a smile before walking towards the exit of the room.

"Wait!" I basically yell. Isshin turns around and raises an eyebrow. "Um… will I get my memory back?"

"It all depends. There is a high possibility that it will come back but it will take a little while for it to do so. Do not worry, you are safe now." I nod in agreement and he turns around and walks out the door, leaving me alone with my thoughts. Why would Kensei do this? It doesn't make sense. Maybe I attacked him first or something. Maybe I should ask Gin about what happened since he was the one that saved me… that doesn't seem right. I can't remember who Gin is but something is telling me that I do not want to. I fucking hate my life.

Kensei's P.O.V

"So Kensei. Why did you attack Shuuhei?" Kaname asks from across the table. Kaname Tousen is one of the Guards that has the highest authority around here and for a blind man he sure can see right through you. He is just as corrupt as the other guards around here. He follows his own fucked up sense of justice that comes across as sadistic torture. They are all fucking scum. I look around the dark room avoiding his dead gaze and grunt at him.

"Go fuck yourself you blind cunt." A guard walks towards me but Kaname puts his hand in front, stopping him from advancing.

"You are only making this harder on yourself, Kensei. That boy is in a serious condition and could die due to your actions."

"Why the fuck should I care?" I say as I lean back in my seat. "He means nothing to me anyway."

Hopefully Shuuhei doesn't say anything about Gin assaulting him or he could land himself in a shit ton of trouble. That is why I took the blame for his assault. These guards, especially Gin, would torture the poor guy into silence. It's what these people do. Oh how I wish I could have ripped Gin's fucking head off for what he did. Pure scum.

I have to act like I know nothing about Shuuhei or about the number that is on his face or else they could make his life a living hell. I'll admit, when I first ran into him I was taken by surprise. I thought it was another one of the guards cruel tricks directed at me but I soon realised that it wasn't a joke. Shuuhei needs to stay as far away from me as he possibly can. Being associated with me we only bring him pain and I don't need that shit. I just need to see if he is okay and then he can fuck off and do whatever he wants. I shouldn't be worried about some angsty punk. I've got bigger things to worry about.

"That is a real shame, Kensei. You are just lucky that Gin was there to save the poor boy before you did any more damage."

"That's a fucking lie and you know it!" I roar as I get to my feet. "Gin is a fucking demented sadist!"

Kaname stands up and a guard hands him his baton. Kaname rolls it through his hands before lifting it up and striking me on the side of my head causing me to lose balance and fall to the ground with a grunt of pain. I look up at Kaname and my vision blurs. For a blind man he sure is accurate. I put my hand to the side of my head and I can already feel it swelling.

"Know your place, Kensei." Kaname says as he turns to walk out of the room. "Take him to Padded Cell D." The guards nod in confirmation and walk over and lift me to my feet. I would try to attack but I can't even see straight. The guards walk me over to the door and Kaname stops them for a second. He leans in close to my ear so only I can hear him speak. "I hope saving the boy from Gin was worth it."

"You fucking demented fuck!" I scream as the guards take me away as I try to spit on him. "You are fucking trash!" A guard pulls out a Taser and the last thing I remember seeing is Gin with bandages all over him appearing beside Kaname with a sick grin on his face.

Fucking bastard.

Shuuhei's P.O.V

Three Days Later

"Welcome Back." Yoruichi says as she guides me towards my room. "You didn't miss out on anything so don't worry. Now that I think about it, it's mostly a boring shit show around here so it really doesn't matter how long you were gone for." Yoruichi lets out a laugh and I give her a small smile. "Well, I'll let you settle in again and be on my way. You know where to find me if you need anything."
Yoruichi walks off down the hall and I place myself down on my bed. My memory of the events that led me to the hospital still haven't come back. I can remember biting someone so that must have been Kensei… It doesn't feel like it was Kensei though. Something seems off about this whole mess. I think I should go find Kensei and get some answers or maybe that would be a bad idea. Either way I want to know.

"Holy shit you're alive!" Grimmjow yells and jumps onto the bed next to me and puts his arm around my shoulders. "I thought you died or some shit. I heard you really gave it to Kensei. Man, I wish I could have seen that!"

"Oi, would you give him some space. He just got back and I am sure he doesn't want to deal with your annoying ass." Ichigo says as he walks into the room.

"Oh fuck off or I'll get Shuuhei onto ya. He'll give ya a left, right, goodnight." Grimmjow says with a sinister laugh causing Ichigo to roll his eyes.

"SHUUHEI YOU ARE ALIVE!" Nel screams as she launches herself onto me causing me to yelp out in pain and shock. "I was so, so, so, so worried about you! I thought I was never going to see you again! Well I would see you in the afterlife but that is not the point! I don't want to see you in the afterlife, I want to see you in person which is what I am doing right now and I am just really, really gla-"

"Okay that is enough Neliel." Lisa says while pulling Nel off of me. "The guy just got out of hospital and he doesn't need you putting him back there."

"But I missed him!" Nel says with a pout. "I don't want him to go away again!"

"You have only known him for like a day, Nel." Riruka says from the doorway. "Settle down."

"You were worried as shit about him too Riruka." Grimmjow says with a life. "Don't act like you weren't."

"Go to hell, Grimmjow!" Riruka says while going red in the face. "You are so full of shit!" Grimmjow just laughs it off and gives her a wave of dismissal.

I just sit there not knowing what to say. Why would these people even care about me? It just makes no sense. I barely know them and I am sure they have enough going on in their lives to not bother worrying about someone they just met in a Psych Ward. It makes feel something but I cannot place what that feeling is. This is crazy, right? Right?

"How are you feeling?" Ichigo asks. "You had me worried there for sec. I shouldn't have let you walk out of the art room. I could have prevented this."

"It's not your fault, Ichigo." I say with a small smile while looking at the ground. I still find it hard to look people in the eyes. "Even if you did try to stop me, I wouldn't have listened."

"Yeah but still, I could have at least tried."

"Oi, you heard him." Grimmjow says with a smirk. "Get that pity dick outta ya mouth."

"Don't be a dick, Grimmjow." Riruka says as she walks over and hits Grimmjow in the head.

"But I thought you wanted my dick?" Grimmjow says as he grabs at his crotch.

"You vile pig!" Riruka shouts as she hits him again causing him to laugh even harder. "Anyway… how are you feeling now, Shuuhei?"

"Thanks guys for all of your concern but I am really fine. There is no need to be worrying over me." I say as I fiddle with my thumbs.

"Of course we are going to worry about you!" Nel yells like I said something offensive. "Don't be so ridiculous! That's what friends do, silly. We are friends aren't we?"

"Umm…" I sit there and stare at her for bit, not knowing what to say. Do they really consider me a friend? I hardly even know them and they are treating me so nice. No one has ever treated me this way before and I don't know how to react to it. They are actually nice people and I have been treating them like pests. I can feel slight guilt welling up inside me at the thought. These people are like no other people I have ever met. I should treat these people better than I have been treating them. I look at the ground and smile. "I guess we are friends."

"Well there you have it, buddy." Grimmjow says as he laughs and rubs my shoulder. Grimmjow still kind of scares me though. "I still cannot believe Kensei would actually do something like this though." My face heats up at the mention of Kensei. Please change the conversation!

"Yeah, I know." Riruka says as she crosses her arms. "I know he is one angry bitch but I didn't think he would go out of his way to beat the absolute shit outta someone."

"He is just a big bully!" Nell squeals. "I'll get him for what he did!"

"Whoa, calm down there, Nel." Lisa says, walking over to her and putting her hand on her shoulder. "The last thing we need is more violence." Lisa mumbles something to herself as she turns back to where she was. I think she said something about innocence?

"Damn. I wouldn't mind a good bashing." Grimmjow says. "I haven't been in a fight for a while and I miss it." Grimmjow lets out a cackle that sends shivers down my spine. Oh god he is scary.

"Okay that's enough everyone." Ichigo says as he gets up from leaning on the wall. "Shuuhei literally just got out of hospital so let's let him rest, okay?" Everyone nods and heads towards the door. Thank you Ichigo!

"I'll see you later." Grimmjow purrs into my ear as he gets up and walks out causing me to go red in the face. If I die I bet it will be because of him.

"Bye Shuuhei!" Nel screams as she jumps onto the back of Ichigo and piggybacks out of my room causing me to let out a little laugh. All of them walk out the room and I am just left sitting there with a million thoughts going through my head. There is a knock and I look up to see Lisa standing in the doorway with a concerned look on her face.

"Uhh yes?" I say, unsure of what she wants.

"Could I talk to you for a minute?" She asks with a troubled look which makes me feel a little uneasy.

"Umm… sure?" Lisa walks over to me and doesn't say anything for a minute with a look of deep thought on her face.

"I know you probably do not want to talk about the incident with Kensei but I need some answers." She says as she leans on my side table. My stomach turns at her words. What does she need answers for?

"I might not be much help with that. I can't remember much of it, just tiny bits and pieces that don't make sense." Lisa puts her hand to her chin with a look of concentration on her face.

"I see… Could you tell me all the things you remember?"

"Why do you want to know?"

"Listen…" Lisa gets up and stares right at me with furrowed eyebrows causing me to look away from her gaze. "I know Kensei quite well and I do not think he would have attacked you. I know he has his anger issues but there is no way he would attack you due to the fact that you are…" She pauses for a second and I look up at her to see that she seems unsure if she should continue or not. "There must be something more to the story. None of it adds up, so that is why I need to know what happened."

"Wait, what were you going to say about me?" I feel uneasy and shift around in the spot I am sitting in. What was she going to say? Also… "Why wouldn't Kensei attack me?"

"It's not for me to say." Lisa goes back to leaning on the side table and crosses her arms. "Just tell me what you remember." What is she hiding? Maybe if I tell her what I remember than she will tell me what she was going to say.

"Ummm, I don't remember much. I was in art therpy with Ichigo and Kensei was also there and-"

"Yes, I know this part. Ichigo filled me in on that. Then Kensei left and you followed. Correct?"

"Uh, yes. That is what happened. I went searching for Kensei because I think I wanted to know what his problem was with me and then I finally found him and we had an argument I think. I can't remember what we argued about though. I remember being angry and I walked off but that's about all." Lisa just sits there for a moment thinking. "I am trying my best to remember but it is just not coming back. Maybe if I see Kensei it will help with my memory. I heard that helps with memory loss."

"That isn't going to happen for a while. Kensei is locked up in the padded rooms and who knows how long he will be in there."

"Wait did you say padded rooms?" Something in my mind is trying to make its way to the surface. "Someone said something to me about the padded rooms. Maybe it was the guard that found me?"

"And that is important, how?" Lisa asks with an eyebrow raised and an annoyed look on her face.

"I don't know but my mind is telling me that it is. Who was the guard that found me again?"

"That was Gin. I fucking hate that son of bitch." My stomach drops at the mention of Gin and I feel like I need to throw up. "What's wrong?"

"I don't know. Something doesn't seem right about Gin saving me I think."

"Yeah, that is the bit of the story I find hard to believe."

"Do you know where he is? Maybe if I see him it could trigger a memory or something."

"It's worth a shot. He is normally stationed at the front of the bosses' office." Lisa says as she makes her way to the door with some urgency. "Come on, follow me."

The walk to the office was silent except for the occasional mumble from Lisa when figuring out what direction to go. I feel conflicted about Lisa. On one hand she seems sensible, level headed and straight to the point but on the other hand she is intimidating and there must be a reason for her to have landed in this joint.

"We are almost there." Lisa says while turning a corner. "We will look from afar. There is no way I want to be up close with that piece of trash." I cannot remember Gin at all but something tells me that I agree with her.

"What has he done to make him so bad?" I ask out of curiosity. "Are there more guards I should keep an eye out for or is he the only asshole in this joint?" Lisa stops walking and looks at me with concern.

"You should keep an eye out for all of them. They are all corrupted scum. Some of them are worse than others. Especially Gin and Kaname. Stay away from them at all costs. There are a couple of guards that seem like they are alright but I wouldn't trust them either. Stick with our group and you should be safe, okay?" All I can think is… WHAT. THE. FUCK. What kind of place is this?! So much for just keeping my head down… Wait a minute. Maybe she is just joking around in some twisted way… or maybe she is telling the truth. But Gin can't be that bad if he saved me right? I don't feel right even thinking that so maybe it is true. I just want my fucking memory back.

"Um yeah okay, I will." I say and Lisa turns back and starts walking again. I look out the windows and into the main garden and there is some sort of yoga class going on. I focus on that so my stomach will stop doing somersaults and to stop me feeling nauseous. They all seem so peaceful down there. I'd rather be doing stupid yoga than doing what we are doing right now. "Maybe this isn't going to work." I say, pulling my attention back to Lisa.

"Well it is worth a shot." Lisa says while still walking and paying attention to which way to go. "Kensei isn't a bad guy and I want that to be clarified to me and the others."

"You care a lot about Kensei, don't you?" I say with a slight smile. Lisa stops walking and turns around, giving me an intense stare. I put my hands up defensively. "I'm shutting up now."

"We should be able to see the office from that window down the hall." Lisa turns around once again and continues to walk.

"I don't think it's going to work." I mumble to myself. I just want to head back to my room and sleep. Maybe it is a good thing I don't have my memory of the incident. Honestly what good would having my memory back do? It probably was Kensei who attacked me… That thought just doesn't seem right to me. Kensei doesn't seem like the kind of guy to do that to me. Or maybe he is. It's not like I know him or anything.

"Shuuhei, get over here!" Lisa says in a harsh whisper. She is standing at the end of the hallway beside one of the giant windows in this place. "He is right there!" I walk up to her and give her a concerned look and my stomach drops.

"Well here goes nothing." I say as I look out the window. At first I don't see anything but my eyes lock onto movement through the opposite window and there he is. Gin. The silvered haired man with disarming eyes. He has bandages all over his body. I feel myself go numb as the memories of the incident come flooding back. I let out a gasp as I lose my footing and fall on my hands and knees with fear rising up within me.

"Shit, Shuuhei. Are you alright?" Lisa asks as she crouches down next to me. I shake my head as lump begins to form in my throat. I remember everything.

"He tried… he tried to-" I am cut off as I vomit on the ground infront of me. I start to hyperventilate as other memories come back to my head. Memories of the past. It's all too much. Kensei saved me from Gin. Kensei save me. Kensei…

"He tried to what?!" Lisa says with concern evident in her voice.

"Get me the fuck out of here!"


A/N So that is chapter 3. I hope you guys enjoyed it. I would like to thank everyone for their support because it really means a lot to me :) If you have any questions about this story or any comments you can PM me or even leave a review :) Once again thank you guys!