Okay, I was officaly dried out of tears I couldn't possibly cry any harder

Then I did yesturday. Well Today was a new day, But im not sure if I can face John Today

What if I do see him? Can I handle it? I really don't think so..I can't handle another breakdown

Okay, Hold on! Who the hell is in bed with me?! OH MY GOD

JEFF? How did this happen?! I mean..I got a drink...Or 2 or 3

Jesus! Jeff and I slept together? Well, I can't complain.. He was the only one who listened to me last night

After Kelly left, And he is sooo adorable when he's asleep.

How could everything be happening so quickly? I mean despite my anger...I still Love John

But, Jeff... I've been friends with him for a while and the girls always joked that Jeff and I would be the perfect

Couple... But I never really thought about Jeff like that

Jeff was my best friend.. I mean I was on the Hardy Show every week watching Jeff and Matt do randomness

Did I mention how cute he looks when he's asleep. But... John.. Those eyes... That smile

Oh god here come the tears again... How can you feel so much anger yet so much hate towards one person?

Oh Great I slept in a John Cena T-shirt... How Could this happen?

Mickie, That sick twisted Bitch ruined my life... Now everytime I close my eyes I see John and her together

And now everytime I look at Jeff... My heart melts. Hes so sweet... Could it be possible? Could I really

be falling in love with Jeff Hardy?

I think I am