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Wade's P.O.V
I closed my eyes as I entered the room I would currently be staying at until I could find a house. I threw my bags on the ground and moved towards the bedroom, all I wanted to do right now was sleep, and never wake up. I had come back for Mickie, and she didn't want me back, although I couldn't blame her, I did hurt her by leaving and telling her that I wanted nothing more to do with her.
I then pulled out my wallet from my pocket and pulled out a photo that was folded and I always kept it with me, wherever I went. As I opened the photo, I couldn't help but let a small smile grace my lips as I remembered that time. Mickie and I were so happy that day, on our three month anniversary, it was the best day I have ever had in my life. Those were the days when I was truly happy, when I didn't care about anything else, not even my wife at the time, but Mickie. She was my whole life, its like she was my lifeline, and when I left, I lost her, I lost everything, or rather it had felt like I had.
I kept thinking about the encounter I had with her just 2 hours ago. She had told me that I left her with a big responsibility, and I didn't know what she had meant by that, but it was slowly driving me insane. The fact that I no longer have her, that I can no longer be with her, hurts so much more than anyone will ever realize. Maybe, just maybe if I hadn't left, things would be ok, I would be happy once again, just like I was just a little over two years ago.
Flashback
"Mickie, im being serious" I laughed, running towards her and eloping her in my arms. As much as she tried to run away, I wouldn't let her. "No where to run now is there baby girl?"
She then turned to face me, with the biggest smile on her face, she reached up and placed her lips over mine, her whole body slowly starting to melt into mine as I rested one hand on her lower back, and the other on the back of her head. I smiled into the kiss as I felt her hands move around my neck, pulling me in impossibly closer. I then kissed my way from her lips to her neck. I kissed her neck a few times before resting there, pulling her in for a hug and never wanting to let her go. I felt her arms move from around my neck to my torso and she then rested her head on my chest.
"I love you so much Wade, more than you will ever know"
And in that moment, I forgot about everything, my life away from America, my wife. I forgot about everything and everyone, apart from Mickie James.
"I love you Mickie. So much, more than life itself"
My hands moved to my lips as I remembered what kissing her had felt like, as I remembered loving her more than life, to which I still do.
I will never understand why I had the opportunity to fall for her, and in all honestly, life probably would have been a lot more simple if I had not fallen for her, but I cant imagine not meeting her because if I were to be totally honest, my life would suck right now. I would be with someone who I didn't love, rather than returning to someone I love. But get this, I am definitely not going to be leaving again, I am staying, and one way or another I am going to be with Mickie. I cant picture my life without her. What makes it even worse is this, knowing she was in the same small town as me and that I was not able to see her, that I had to move on from her, something that my heart just could not do.
One way or another, I have to show Mickie Laree James how I feel about her. I have to show her just how much I love her.
But how can i do that when she told me to move on, after she practically said that she didn't want to be with me. I have no link with her whatsoever…
Mickie's P.O.V
I told had convinced myself all these years that telling Wade wouldn't be the right thing, as I was scared he would just leave and abandon me again aswell as SJ, and I cant have my baby boy treated like that. As much as Justin has been there, and he loves SJ like he is his own son, Justin knows that he could never be a replacement of SJ's dad, no matter how much he or SJ wanted it, hell, even I wanted it for a while. Justin would make the perfect father figure for my son. He is always around, he knows how to treat ladies with respect and his love for my son is undying.
But no matter how much I would love to have Justin, my best friend as the son of my baby, Wade is. Wade will always be the father and that I know for sure. I don't know why I never rang him up and told him, maybe it was the fact that I was scared, and also the fact that Wade had told me he wanted nothing to do with me from that moment on.
My mind drifted to just a few hours earlier when I saw Wade, to be honest, I couldn't help but feel a sense of warmness in my heart when he turned around. I knew I had missed him, I just never thought I would see him again. But that warmness that was in my heart was quickly over powered by the anger I felt towards him. The anger I had from him leaving me, and the anger I had from being so unconditionally in love with him, but he had just left me.
He still looked the same, his hair was shorter though, but other than that he was still the man I fell in love with two years ago, and he is still the man I love to date. When I told him to let me move on, I meant it. As much as I love him, I cant risk the pain of loosing him once again, also, I cant let my son get hurt because of it. I have always wanted my child to grow up with a father and mother that live in the same house. I have always, always wanted that for my child or children. But the fact is, soon after Wade had left me alone, I found out I was pregnant with his child. It was then that I knew my decision of having a child in a stable environment, and environment where my child had a mother and father in the same room would be thrown out the window, and I would just have to cope, and I have. I have managed. With the help of Justin and a couple of friends such as Heath Slater, Randy Orton, John Cena, Natalya Neidhart, Melina Perez and Beth Phoenix. They have been my rocks since Wade had left me.
But now that he is back, I only think it is fair not only to him, but especially to my son Stu Jnr. James, SJ, that Wade knows he has a child.
"Mama… dadda made me sandwich" SJ beamed as he ran towards me and jumped on my leg. I wrapped my arms around me son and cuddled close to him.
"Baby, Mama needs to tell you something soon" I said to him. Justin then came and sat beside me and he looked at me.
"What mama?" SJ smiled and he kissed me nose, causing me to giggle.
"I will tell you soon ok" I placed a kiss on his forehead before motioning towards the direction of his room "Go in your room and play with your toys and I will be in there soon"
"Ok mama" He laughed, jumping off my knee "I wuv you" and with that, he took off in the direction of his room. It wasn't long before I heard laughing and the sound of lullaby music going off, indicating that he was playing with the toy Randy had got him for Christmas.
"So… what are you going to tell him?" Justin asked, looking up at me before smiling.
"Im going to tell him about Wade…" I then paused "Acctually, I am going to invite Wade over, I hope you don't mind"
"Hey, this is your house, you can do whatever you want" Justin said, a little too devensivly for my liking "I just live here and help look after SJ"
"Justin, whats wrong? I asked.
"Nothing" he muttered "Look I have to go. I have to go and meet-"
"No you don't. Lastnight you told me you had nothing planned, don't lie to me Paul Lloyd jnr!" I whispered harshly, using his birth name. One which he didn't really like me saying.
"Fine, you wanna know whats wrong?" He whispered back "I treated SJ like a son, and I know we have always told him that I wasn't his dad, but he always wanted me to be! I have got so accustomed to having him call me Dadda and I like it, no wait Mickie, I love it. Then Wade comes back, don't get me wrong.. Wade is one of my closest friends, but he comes back, after treating you so wrong and not being there for you or SJ for a long time! And you are going to take SJ away from me?"
"Who said anything about taking SJ away from you Justin? Cause I sure as hell didn't! Wade is SJ's father, and you have known that all along. IM sorry that SJ calls you dad, and that you feel as if you are using him, but Wade, he deserves to know. He deserves to know that he has a son." I said "SJ deserves to meet his real dad! He deserves that Justin! And there is no way im letting you take that away from him"
"How do you know he wont up and leave again Mickie?" Justin said, or mach rather yelled this time. "Ha?"
"Because!" I yelled back "Wade, I know for a fact, would never leave SJ!"
"Screw this Mickie! I have always been there for you and SJ and now its getting shoved right back in my face?" Justin nearly yelled "I have loved that kid like a son, and I admit he does deserve to know who his real father is Mickie… but I don't know if I can sit around and watch as SJ slips away from me Mickie"
I could see a tear run down Justins cheek, and it was then I realized just how much he cared for SJ and I. I used my hand to wipe away his tear and I pulled him in for a hug.
"Justin, you are my best friend, and I want to thank you so much for being there, and being a father figure to SJ, I couldn't have asked for someone better to help me through all this. You are an amazing guy Justin. don't think that you will loose SJ because you wont, you will always play a big part in his life, whether it be him calling you Uncle Justin or whatever. I know for a fact that you will always be in his life"
I pulled away and saw Justin smile a bit "Sorry I acted like a jerk. I just cant bare the thought of loosing him Micks"
"I know" I smiled "I mean it. Thankyou for everything"
"You should probably call Wade if you want to tell him. I will just be in there with SJ while you do" and with that, Justin left me to make the call.
Wade's P.O.V
I picked up my phone and placed it to my ear "Hello?"
I heard nothing but breathing on the other end "Who is this?" I was having a crappy day and I wasn't going to be harassed by some prank call.
Just as I was about to hang up, I heard that familiar voice echo through the phone.
"Wade?"
"Mickie?" I was completely in shock, why is she ringing me? I thought she wanted me to let her move on.
"Yeah…" She paused before speaking "I need you to come over.. I still live in the same house"
"Why?" I asked… when she didn't answer, I repeated myself "Why?"
"Please, just come.." She pleaded over the phone "Please. I have to tell you something.""What is it Mickie?" I asked, desperately wanting to know.
"Please just come, and then I will tell you" she then paused "Bye Wade" and she hung up.
As soon as the phone call was over, I ran towards the door and ran down the flight of stairs. I then ran to the parking lot and jumped in my car and headed for the address where I had last seen her before this day.
It only took me fifteen minutes to get there, but it felt like an eternity. I was eager to know what Mickie wanted to tell me. If she wanted to give us another go, then I was willing to do whatever it took.. But if its something else, im not sure how I will react.
I made my way up to the door and knocked a couple of times. I stood outside of her door for a minute before I saw it open. I then took in the apperance of Mickie James. She was wearing the same thing she had on today at our spot. I let out a sigh as I saw her try and pull off the most realistic smile she could.
"I-Im glad you came" she said before letting me into the house. It was then I heard tiny footsteps running towards me and Mickie. I turned my head to the side only to be met with a boy who looked about two years old running towards Mickie, then Justin came running behind trying to catch him.
"SJ come here!" He yelled before noticing I was there "Wade, HI"
I walked over to Justin and hugged him, he hugged me back "Hi Justin"
"Dadda.. Mamma.. Who is this man?" the little boy asked, and by the sounds of it, I think his name is SJ. He was clinging onto Justins jeans. He looked odly familiar, I just couldn't put my finger on it, then it hit me. He called Justin dad. That's when I shook my head and looked at Justin.
"How could you?"
"What are you talking about man?" He asked, picking up the boy
"How could you do this?" He looked confused. My anger was about to take over, and I think he sensed it, he quickly ran off into the room. Im guessing he didn't want his child to see anything get broken or anyone mad.
"Wade, what the hell?" Mickie asked.
"SO what? You wanted me to come here, just so you could rub it in my face that you have a kid with Gabriel?" I snerred at her "How could you be with him?"
"FIrst off! Im not with Justin, he is my best friend, and he was there for me when YOU.." she pointed and poked her finger into my chest "left me"
That stung, but it was the truth, and I knew it. But I still couldn't help but feel angry at the fact that she had a baby boy with Justin Gabriel, one of my best friends for crying out loud.
"And SECOND! Justin is not the father to SJ!" she then sighed and looked down.
"Then why the hell does your son call Justin dadda?" I half yelled, scared of what the answer was going to be.
"Because you weren't there!" she finally snapped.
"What?" I was now more confused than I had ever been.
"SJ stands for Stu Jnr!" she said, almost in a whisper "SJ is your son Wade!"
So there is the next chapter and I hope you enjoyed it. (:
Well, just so you are not confused Stu Barrett is Wade's real name, and Paul Lloyd jnr is Justins. In this story, that will be there name on there birth certificates and all, but other than that they are either always called Wade and Justin. (I hope that made sense)
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