Author's Note- Ok, you might have noticed that I changed the first two chapters a little bit. I had to include a few things. You might notice the song lyrics that will be peppered into this story. I will eventually post a song list. The song from Ch. 1 is 'Fade Away' by 12 Stones, and the song in this chapter is 'The End is Near' by The Confession. Don't forget to review please! Let me know what you think, what you want to happen, what you guess might happen, how I'm doing so far! There's no such thing as a bad review! Thanks. -Reese
Disclaimer- I do not own any of the original characters. They belong to Stephenie Meyer.
Chapter 3 – Into the Depths
I must've turned as white as my friends when he said that. Rose looked at me and rolled her eyes.
"Oh come on you big pussy. Let's go." Rose never was one to mess around. She'd look at an obstacle and go straight for the jugular. If only.
"Do I have to?" I whined.
"YES!" Rose and Alice said simultaneously. They dragged me up and fussed about my hair and my streaky mascara, then pulled me downstairs. The three of us were halfway down the staircase when the front door opened, and Jake walked in. We all froze when he turned to look at us. He just stared at me with a mixed look of pain and hatred. It killed me.
"Jake, I-" I what? What could I say to make this better? Jake must've thought the same because he turned around and walked out the door. Without thinking I hurried down the stairs and ran out the door after him. I chased him into the forest and managed to catch up to him in a clearing. I grabbed him and spun him around. "Damn it Jacob!"
"What do you want, Clearwater?" he snarled. Clearwater? He couldn't even say my name. What the fuck Leah…
"Jake I'm sorry. I am. You just took me by surprise."
"So you cuss me out and belittle me? Nice try, Clearwater. Now fuck off." Jake hissed and turned around. I stood there, floored for a few seconds while the first tear streaked. No, I wouldn't let him see me cry. I wouldn't give him the satisfaction. I quickly wiped it away.
"Jacob, I swear to you. You have to believe me."
Nothing.
"Jacob… Please…"
Still nothing.
"I'm sorry." I whispered.
"Back off Clearwater. That's an order." How clever my Alpha could be. Ordering me around because he knows he can. Asshole.
"Jake, you have to believe me, I didn't mean it."
Again, nothing.
"Jacob, can you at least look at me?"
Nope. I guess he can't.
"Jake, please… Jake I swear-"
"You swear what? That you never hurt me? That you never meant to hurt me?" This is when I flinched from the anger. "Goddamn it Leah! I'm not Sam; I'll never lay a hand on you. No matter how much you deserve it."
Here comes the pain that went along with those words. "Fine, Jake. You'll get what you want. I'll leave you alone. I won't ever hurt you again." Tears fell and I left.
And now I lay crying in my bed. How pathetic am I?
Mind's been slippin' I lost my sanity in turn I'm losin' time
I hate this place but I'd hate to lie to him but I think the end is near
I heard 'em say that the lord is comin' soon well I hope he comes for me
It's getting late and I'd hate to die... I'll stay the night...
And I lie to revive all the things dead inside
Down down into the depths we go fate twists her fucking knife
And it shows no signs of life, a glimpse of you and I'm alright
Down down into the depths we go... dying each day like it's my last
I heard 'em say all the time you piss away
Is equal to the time you'll stay
Fate twists her fucking knife
The flood it came disguised as the words we sang
And drowned away all the pain...
Down down into the depths we go fate twists her fucking knife
Down down into my heart will show that fate won't win tonight
I guess I fell asleep, because when I awoke, Seth's tall dark figure loomed over my bed in the darkened room.
"Seth?"
"Leah…" His voice was strained, like there was pain and anguish in it.
"Seth what's wrong?" I asked as I reached up and turned on my lamp on the nightstand. When the light hit him, all I saw was blood. "OH MY GOD! SETH! What happened???" I asked frantically as I shot up to see closer. He sighed and sat next to me on the bed. I wasn't prepared for what he said next.
"I attacked Jake."
"YOU DID WHAT! SETH! How could you be so STUPID!" I yelled at him.
"He made you cry. That's enough reason to kill him." He growled. I was not used to my baby brother growling. My voice softened.
"Sam made me cry every day not too long ago." I reminded him.
"Yeah, why do you think it was so easy for me to follow Jake out? I hate Sam with every cell in my body." Never in a million years did I think he was capable such a thing. This took me by surprise.
"Seth. What did you to yourself?" I whispered. To this, he snickered.
"You think this is bad? You should see what I did to Jake. Dr. Cullen said he'll be out of it for a week. Plus the broken bones and deep tissue damage, he'll be lucky to walk again. Then again, he is our Alpha. He might be ok." At this last part he said with that growl, like he was pissed that he didn't finish the job properly and would have to try again. I was shocked. My baby brother almost killed our Alpha for me, because I was sad. I really should be upset about this, but all I could manage was a weak teary smile as I threw my arms around the kid. He winced. "Sis, careful. Jake threw my shoulder out. Ow."
I pulled back and laughed. "Come on, let me clean you up."
An hour later, after I cleaned him up, I made us dinner. Seth and I always had a craving for Italian food, so I whipped up some homemade lasagna from scratch. Seth walked in as I put the pan in the oven.
"Yum! Lasagna? On a Wednesday? Sweet!" The kid was clearly ecstatic.
"Yep. My special sauce included." I smiled at him.
"Leah you're awesome. Seriously. Best sister I could ever ask for." He wrapped his arms around my waist in a hug while I started washing the pots from the sauce and the meat. "Want me to help with the dishes?" He asked as he laid his head on my shoulder. I swatted him away with a dish towel.
"Nahh get outta here kid. Go watch some TV." I shooed him out of the kitchen. He laughed.
"You know, if the guys knew what a good homemaker you were, they'd be fighting to be first in line for your heart." We both laughed. I heard him turn the TV on. I sighed internally. What was I gonna do with the kid? Actually I really shouldn't call him a kid. After the whole big Volturi shit we went through earlier this year, the pack got tighter and stronger. The five of us in Jake's pack could easily annihilate Sam's pack of 12, or whatever it was up to by now. There was no doubt that we were more feared and more respected by everyone in La Push. Elders included. Seth went through this growth spurt and now stood second tallest to Jacob. He just turned 17 last month. I guess my baby brother wasn't so much a baby anymore. Oh well. At least he hasn't imprinted, I thought to myself. Seth and I were the only members of both packs that hadn't. And I never would. I was just a genetic dead end. I sighed once more. I hate thinking this way. Especially when I can hear Seth's booming laughter from the living room. He must be watching Dane Cook again. He only laughed like that when he watched stand-up comedy. I finished drying the dishes and put them away. I looked at the timer on the oven. 14 minutes 'til the lasagna was done. Just enough time to take a shower.
"Hey Seth?" I called to him as I walked up the stairs.
"Yeah, Lees?"
"I'm jumping in the shower. Keep an eye on the lasagna for me. If the timer beeps, use the oven mitts to take it out."
"OK, sis." He said before the booming laughter erupted once again. I went into the bathroom and turned the shower on as hot as possible. I removed my clothes and threw them into the hamper I kept behind the door. We wolves have to do laundry quite frequently. I stepped to the sink to look at my reflection. My ebony hair was twisted into a bun, and I reached up and yanked the elastic out of place. I watched as my long hair fell to cascade down my back and to the top of my ass. Normally a wolf's hair in human form reflects their coat length as a wolf, but once again, I was the exception to every known pack rule.
I reached up to run a hand through my hair and I felt the knots from my last run. When I ran away from Jacob. No. Stop that. I looked up to the mirror as the solitary tear fell. My reflection had hollowed cheekbones and sunken eyes. I quickly stepped into the hot steam box and let the water pelt my skin. I leaned my face into the spray and let the pressure force back the tears that hung dangerously to my lashes. I didn't want to be the weak creature I had seen just seconds before.
After my shower, I quickly got dressed and headed downstairs. When I walked into the kitchen, Seth was setting the table. He had grabbed the frozen garlic bread from the freezer and baked it. There was also a bottle of Pinot Noir and a wine glass at my seat. My heart melted.
"Seth…" I said softly.
"Oh hey Leah. I hope you don't mind, I finished dinner. I figured you were a little stressed out today." He looked at me hopefully. "I just wanted to do something nice."
Without saying anything, I walked over and threw my arms around his waist and hugged him. He wrapped his arms around my smaller frame and sighed. "Lees…" He trailed off as I pulled back and leaned up to kiss his cheek. His eyes widened a bit in surprise.
"Thanks, Seth." I smiled as a walked over and sat down, leaving him standing there a bit confused. "You gonna sit down so we can eat now, kid? I'm growing grays over here." I said in typical Leah fashion. Seth grinned, glad that throughout all the shit that had happened today, I was still his smart-ass sister who loved him unconditionally.
"Bitch." He chuckled as he sat down.
"You love me."
"Sometimes."
We laughed, but I'm just glad we have each other.
