I had stayed with Ava that night and we had fun, we practised my power some more then sat and watched movies and talked until we fell asleep. When we woke up we went out into the desert and she showed me how to create the field around my body that will protect me if ever needed.
That day at work had been hard, people were talking about the prom how much fun they had, what everyone was wearing, how it was a once in a life time event. It was never ending but I got through it fine. I spent the night with my parents we had super then watched a movie together as a family, it was good we needed some time together, I needed time with them after everything that is changing.
Its been a week since prom and the fuss had died down a lot people were getting back on with their lives and I was grateful. I was thinking last night that maybe I had been to hard on Maria and Alex it wasn't their fault that all this drama was happening around me, they didn't understand about my gifts and Ava, but Alex knew about future Max and he still didn't understand, maybe if I just told Maria she would be there for me and help me with every thing that's is happening, she would like Ava but am not sure if she would be able to keep a secret from Michael.
And I am sure as hell not putting Ava in danger from them, she is my best friend.
It wasn't until I just said that how much I have drifted away from Maria, she has been my bets friend most of my life and yet I don't see her that way, Ava is my friend, she has been there when I needed her, helped me when I needed it, she was the one who came to me when I was so upset and sat with me whilst I cried.
Maybe I was wrong maybe I didn't need them, they sure as hell didn't seem to need me did they ?.
After I was showered and dressed went down stairs to grab some food before heading out to meet Ava, but as I got down the stairs I didn't expect to see the Sheriff standing at the door, looking like someone had ran over his dog
"Jim are you ok ? Do you need a glass of water ?" I asked as I walked closer to him, his gaze met mine and it was killing me he was so sad and there was nothing but pure pain on his face
"what's wrong ?" I asked a little more worry in my voice
"There's been an accident" his voice broke and he looked like he was about to collapse
"Alex is dead" he whispered and I felt myself falling, my knees hit the floor hard as the tears started, I was gasping for air that would come fast enough
He was dead, and the last thing I told him was that I wasn't his friend that he was a spy. Oh my god he must have hated me, one of my closest friends died thinking I hated him, he will never know just how much I loved him even if I didn't like him very much that day.
I couldn't breath, I felt like a piece of me had died and I was going to feel like this forever, I felt Jim's hand on my shoulder as he past me something about telling the other's who were in the crash-down, I herd him tell them and Maria scream and start to cry, I herd Isabel break down along with Tess.
"does Liz know ?" Maria gasped
"I just told her, she broke down out the back" he whispered and I heard her heels coming towards me, I couldn't see her right now, I didn't want to see anyone, so I did what I could, I ran. I didn't stop until I was in the middle of the desert, where my knees gave out and again I was on the floor sobbing my heart out, my body was burning and the more I breath the more it hurt, I finally gave in and let it out, my scream was filled with nothing but pain, my skin glowing green with sparks flying off me from every direction, my shield had come out and anything around me that was breakable exploded.
I let it all out, everything that I was keeping bottled up
Finding out about Max's past and his destiny
Leaving him in the pod chamber
Coming home after summer to find nothing changed
Future Max coming and telling me what I fear
Seeing Max's face when he saw me and Kyle together
having my last and first wedding dance with Future Max
Seeing Tess and Max together
Maria stop talking to me
Michael, Tess, Michael and Isabel ignoring me
Finding out about my powers
Them using Alex against me
Missing Prom because of them
Now this, Alex was dead and he died hating me and thinking I hated him. I didn't think I would ever stop crying but I did and I felt like a mess. I started walking I didn't know where I was going and I didn't really care. I climbed up a ridge and sat watching the sun moving across the sky, my life was royally fucked up I felt completely alone and I couldn't stand the feeling of it, I lay back and let the sun warm my cold skin, it wasn't long before my mind shut off and I fell asleep.
The cold breeze ran across my skin cooling me, it was a relief like none other. The room was lit by the moon light, and a few candles hanging from the walls the soft golden glow flicking. I looked down at myself and saw the most beautiful red dress hanging from my body. A strapless corset top that flowed to the floor, hanging around my bare feet, it had small rose diamonds stitched to the waits and bust. It was breath taking, I walked around the room a little and found the wall length mirror I new hung here. My dark hair hung around my waist in loose curls, my lips a deep red, and my eyes a light golden shade to them, making my brown eyes stand out more. I small smile graced my lips when I looked at myself, I looked like princess
"I'd say more like a queen" his voice whispered from the window, I turned to face him.
His hair was messy but looked good on him, his eyes watching me, his lips in a slanted grin that just looked beautiful on his face. He was wearing black formal trousers with a deep red belt, he was shirtless and I had to stop myself from moaning, he was well formed and to hell if it wasn't a turn on
"like what you are seeing my love ?" he smiled
"very" I whispered not trusting my voice to speak louder then a whisper
"I am glad I please you my love" he walked towards me and placed a soft kiss on my lips
"you look beautiful, my queen"
"I am not your queen" I muttered and stepped back a little
"but you will be" he replied, he looked a little hurt that I had moved away from him
"are you real or my imagination ?" I whispered as I walked towards the window, looking out onto the land before us
A beautiful sky above us, The moon sending a silver glow across it, stars shining through the night,, the green hills in the background creating a beautiful horizon, then their was the lake the spread out in front of this house, thick blue waters, that didn't quite seem like water, but was still as beautiful.
"I am as real as you" he whispered from beside me, I turned to look at him and he was watching me
"then how are you in my dreams ?"
"it is the only time I can reach you, as I am on Antar" he replied as if it was the most obvious thing in the world
"how do you know about me ?"
"the day Zan healed you, there was one of my men in your restaurant he saw and reported to me, since then I have been watching, I must say I fell in love with you from then on, you are everything I could want in my queen"
"but you don't love me Kavar, you will only use me like Valandra" there was a lump in my throat as I spoke her name
"you are nothing like her, I will die for you, I will give up everything for you to simply love me"
"I can not believe you Kavar" I whispered broken, he stood behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist one hand rested where my heart is, his lips ran across my back and up my neck "trust your heart my love" he whispered
"what would you do for me Kavar ?" I moaned
"anything"
"what would you give up for me Kavar ?"
"everything"
"would you hurt me Kavar ?"
"never"
"do you love me Kavar ?"
"always"
I turned and his lips met mine in a battle for control, his hands on my waist as he pushed me against the wall, my leg hitched around his waist, I was moaning and gasping for breath as his lips attacked my throat and chest
"I love you my queen" he moaned as I ran my hands through his hair
"I lo.."
I woke up gasping for breath, my skin had turned cold and the night sky was above me, how long had I been asleep. I looked around and the desert was pitch black, I was to dazed to move so I lay back down to catch my breath, what the hell was I about to say, I was about to tell Kavar, the Alien king of Antar, a bad person, the same man who killed the royal four and over took their world, the same Kavar that wants them died, that I loved him.
He said that this was real, it was the only time he could come to me so does that mean that I have no control over what happens there, that he could have been creating that scene for me, making me think I was saying that when really he just wants me to give into him so he can use me. Yes that's what he was doing, but oh his hands, his lips running down my throat, kissing me with nothing but passion, I want him, I want him to …
"Stop" I snapped to myself, what the hell am I thinking
Then I remembered exactly why I was here what I had ran away from and the tears started again. Alex. He was gone and wasn't coming back ever, I had missed my chance to sort thing s out and tell him I loved him like a brother, because that's what he was, we had been friends for years and he was like family to me, now he was dead.
I pulled my phone out my pocket and gasped 32 missed calls, 15 texts and 1 voice mail. I scanned through the missed called 18 from Ava, 4 from Maria, 10 from my parents. Then I read the texts
Liz I know things are difficult between us but please answer me
Maria
Liz stop being a child and answer your phone
Maria
Do you know how worried your parents are answer the phone
Maria
Fine be like that
Maria
Lizzie please answer your phone, were worried about you
Dad x
Please hunni just ring or txt, we wont to make sure your ok
Mom x
Liz sweety are you ok ?
Ava x
Liz please just txt, let me know nothing bad has happened to you
Ava x
Liz I am very worried now, I felt you using your gift, are you in danger
Ava x
Elizabeth Parker, you reply to me right now or I'm coming looking for you
Ava x
Fine, I will find you Liz and I'm going to zap your butt to Antar and back
Ava x
Ok I've been all over town, almost got caught by Michael, so not fun
Ava x
Ok I get the point you will come home when your ready
Ava x
If you get in Trouble use your gifts, use the shield
Ava x
I love you Liz, be careful and I'm sorry about your friend
Ava x
The voice message was from Ava telling me that if I didn't ring her she was going to kill me then get Max to bring back just so she could kill me again, I was laughing as I listened to it that girl really cheered me up when I needed it the most.
I dialled her number and waited, she answered on the 5th ring
"Liz, where the hell are you ? Do you know how worried I have been ? I am going to kill you girl"
"calm down Ava, I didn't mean to make you worry I ran out to the desert to be alone and fell asleep"
"you fell asleep, so your ok ?"
"yeah I'm fine just a little creped out"
"Kavar ?" she already knew it was him but was checking anyway
"he said he's real and loves me, he said he will do anything and give up everything if I love him back"
"what's his game ?" she snapped
"I don't know, but he said he was real it wasn't my imagination, and that he has been watching me since the day Zan healed me"
"you mean Max" she corrected me
"yes sorry" I didn't understand why I was apologising but I felt I needed to
"are you going home ?"
"no"
"why ?
"I cant be there right now"
"so come here"
"I cant I'm lost" I laughed, I heard her sigh and mutter something under her breath like 'dear god help me'
"I heard that bitch" I growled making her laugh
"ok, sit and focus on you shield, expand it but not at full power and I will be able to find you"
"ok, see you soon" I hung up and did as she asked
now should probably be the time I ring my parents to let them know I'm ok, this was going to be horrible, they are going to be so worried
"hello"
"mom, its me"
"Liz, what the hell are you playing at do you know how worried I've been ?" ok she was beyond angry, I should have known this
"I'm so sorry I went to Ava's, I just needed a friend we talked and then we fell asleep, I have just woken up, I am so sorry mom I didn't mean to make you worry"
"well I am still upset that you have made us worry all day but as long as your safe that's all that matters" she was still angry but she was trying to calm down
"mom, I think I just want to stay at Ava's tonight, I don't think I can be around the Crash-down, I just can't even think straight" I sighed and tried to stop the tears that were starting again
"that's ok, but please phone me in the morning and let me know when your coming home"
"I will, I love you mom"
"I love you to Lizzie" she hung up and I sat waiting for Ava to find me, it wasn't long before I saw her flash light coming around the corner, then I heard her
"Liz your so glad I love you or I would leave you up there" she growled as she climbed up to meet me, once she saw me and my tear streaked face she pulled me into a hug
"its ok" she whispered
"its not ok, Ava he died thinking I hated him, I didn't I loved him" I sobbed
"I'm sure he knew that, one little fight couldn't change that" she smiled
She looked around and gasped, my head snapped up looking for danger but I could see any
"its so beautiful up here" she gushed, and I guess I had been to absorbed in my thoughts to truly look around me, it really was beautiful from my spot you could see across the desert, it looked beautiful in the day but in the night it was magical
"so what happened with Kavar ?" she muttered
"a lot like the last time but different, I was in a beautiful red dress and he was shirtless" I trailed of into my thoughts remembering his amazing god-like body, and handsome looks
"Liz" Ava yelled and waved her hand in front of me
"what" I snapped out of my day dreams and laughed "sorry"
"yes yes we all know Kavar was a sexy god" she pretended to gag
"anyway, he told me I looked like a queen, that I was his queen when I said I wasn't he said I will be" I got a cold shiver up my spin when I told her that
"then I asked about him being real, he said he was, how he was in my dream, he said it was the only way to talk to me since he is on Antar, I asked how he knew about me, he said there was one of his men in the crash down the day Max heeled me and he has been watching me since, and had fallen in love with me, I said he was just using me like Valandra and he got angry said I was nothing like her, he would die for me, I asked what he would give up for me and he said everything, then some other stuff happened" I whispered the last bit trying to avoid saying it
"what something else happened ?"
"we got hot and heavy" I zoned off a little "very hot" again she snapped me out of it
"is that all that has you creped out ?" I was ashamed to tell her but I tell Ava everything, I shock my head and took a deep breath
"just before the dream ended and I woke up he told me he loved me"
"that's it ?" she asked confused but she hadn't given me time to finish
"I was about to tell him I loved him back" I looked away from her so I couldn't see the shock and disappointment on her face
"do you ?" she whispered
"no, I mean I don't think so" I looked at her and smiled "he was probably just messing with my dreams right ? He was trying to get me to join with him" I asked hoping she would tell me I was right
"yeah I guess your right, he is a tricky man" she laughed but I could see the doubt in her eyes
"Ava what really happened the night you all died ?" she turned to me shocked
"I think we should go back to mine for this story, its going to need coffee and food" she muttered and stood up holding her hand out to me, I took it and we headed back.
