Hello Readers. I would love to know what you think of my first F.F.
Jbug
CHAPTER TWO
SWEET EVENING BREEZE
He was waiting for me, like he had expected me to arrive at that exact moment.
As I pulled the rental car up to my father's house I saw him.
He was leaning casually against a red Ford pick-up obscured by the shadows from the moss covered maples that lined the street from my high school dreams. I hadn't even noticed the truck parked right in front of my fathers house my eyes had been so full of tears. I had just parked across the street and not given it a second thought.
Yet there he was as big as day wearing faded jeans and a black t-shirt
My Jacob
As I opened the car door and stood I took him in
He was leaning casually against the truck with arms crossed in front and his left foot behind resting on the tire rim. My favourite grin was plastered on his lovely face.
Jake had come yet again to rescue me from my pain.
As I staggered towards him tears streaming down my face I realized that he had cut his long hair off and replaced it with eyes of sadness.
We held each other for a very long time right there in my fathers driveway and as I cried Jacob hugged me tighter into his chest until I no longer felt like I would break into pieces.
I breathed him in, filling my lungs with his very smell and willing strength from it.
As Jacob kissed my hair I thought
Somewhere Charlie is smiling.
"How long have you been here" I asked as I finally pulled away
"A while" he paused
"I didn't want you to be alone when you first arrived at the house"
"Well thank you" "I was just about at my breaking point" I wiped the remainder of my tears from my cheeks onto my shirt sleeve and sighed
"It would seem that you had already reached it" he laughed
For a moment we just stared at each other. Jacob was definetly older looking.
I could see Billy in him now yet he still looked just like the Jacob I remembered only a very handsome middle aged version of himself. The short hair suited him and he had finally stopped growing somewhere around 6'3
I surmised that he was assessing me in very much the same way.
"I was glad for the excuse to get out of La Push" he finally said turning and grabbing my bag before heading towards the house
"the kids have been climbing the walls these last few days what with all this rain and Billy has had a bad cold for most of the winter so I've been looking in on him" "the garage has been slammed for a month now with all the off road enthusiests getting ready for the rally this weekend and Leah's been pulling double shifts over at the clinic"
I could tell he was nervous and slightly uncomfortable talking about his life….
Talking about his wife.
"Are you o.k" He questioned suddenly turning to look at me again
"How does it feel to be back?"
"Sorry that's a stupid thing to ask of course your not o.k. but well damn Bella it's really good to see you again, you haven't changed a bit well mabe a few lines here and there, but on you they look good, you could use a good meal though , maybe cut down on that running, hey did you did you hear about Embry and Quill? Man that was hilarious"
Jacob continued to ramble on and on about everything and nothing and it was working he was making me feel better. Helping me to forget why I was here and the reason that I had left. Maybe now I could get through these next few days. With his help of course. My own personal ray of sunshine.
Neither of us it seemed wanted to go inside the house and so instead we had settled on the front steps. A few beams of sun had actually poked through the clouds at one point as we talked the afternoon away I realized how much I missed Jacob and his easy manner, I'd never found another person I could talk to like him. I also honestly questioned my life in Nevada, my lack of friends and my exquisite loneliness.
A chill had come into the air and I noticed the sun setting orange behind the trees when we finally made a move.
"I guess we had better get you inside your skin looks like a plucked chicken" Jake laughed as he stood up "not used to this cold and damp anymore are you?"
Do you know what Charlie used to call you? Jacob asked smiling
"Sun Seeker"
He started this after about your 6th move in as many years He told me you were trying to escape the rain.
"Can't imagine why" Jacob said sarcastically
I refused to acknowledge the real reason I had moved so many times and how on a cloudy rainy day no matter where I was the depression that would always hit me would incapacitate me for days and the hole in my heart would almost drive me insane.
It was easier to live when the sun was shining every day.
The truth was I unreasonable believed that if I lived somewhere without any rain there would never be a chance of running into Him or any member of His family.
They would never be able to go outside during the day.
Of course I still searched everyday, every face…
Hoping and hating myself for doing it
I knew though that He would never let me see Him again in this life.
After all He was easily distracted
"I guess I just haven't found my place on this earth yet" I tried to answer.
Jake had managed to find the key and get the door open so we finally moved inside. He went in ahead of me and turned the lights on. Then put my duffle bag in the living room and checked to make sure the heat was on. I guess he was trying to make it comfortable but that was impossible.
'Do you need anything Bella?"
"We could go get some groceries or well you're always welcome to stay with us in La Push if you'd rather not be alone here tonight"
"The kids would love to meet you and"
'No" I stopped him "That's alright I'll be fine here I'll probably just go to bed, I'm really tired out"
"Sure sure just thought I'd ask"
We were standing in the kitchen now the cupboards are still yellow I thought crazily and suddenly I became conscious of the fact that I wasn't ready to be alone here.
'Do you want a beer or something before you get going? "I'm sure Charlie has a stash around here somewhere". "Or I we could order a pizza"
I was searching for a reason for him not to go but couldn't help myself.
"No that's alright I've really got to shove off I'm late as it is, Jake hesitated
"I could pick you up tomorrow morning and we could all go to the service together"
"No you come with your family I've got the rental and that way I can leave when I want"
"Are you sure you'll be o.k tonight" Jake questioned
He had noticed the slight bitterness in my voice but I wasn't about to ride around with Jacob's wife and kids. I did still have an ounce of respect.
"I'll be fine I'm going straight to bed"
"And Jake thanks for being here today"I smiled
"sure sure" he mubbled as we moved outside into the dark
He gave me one more hug and whispered in my ear
"It'll be o.k Bella "then he released me
I watched him walk away, my best friend
He gave the truck horn one quick honk, waved his arm out the winow and was gone.
I felt the tears start to flow again as I turned and went inside my fathers house.
