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Fear Doesn't Rule You

A/N: This story is written as a collaboration by both Xo BellaItalia oX and MichelleRae. We hope that you enjoy the story and look forward to reading your reviews.

Chapter 3
(Isabella's POV)

It was like time stopped. We just stared at each other, me with a "You can't be serious" look, him, looking at me with concern and wariness.

"What do you mean he's dead?" I asked slowly, trying not to freak out and lose it.

He looked away, staring at the wall. It was like he was having an internal debate. He had all kind of emotions playing on his face.

"Exactly that; he's dead, as in no longer around," He answered, finally looking back at me.

"How?" I immediately asked, not sure I wanted to know.

He looked at me a moment, searching my eyes. I don't know what he found there.

He sighed and looked away.

"I did it Bella." He answered.

I started hyperventilating. Jasper had killed Edward. He was here in this room. Would he kill me to? He had red eyes now, so why the hell not. But then why would he save me?

I was brought out of my internal freak fest by a hand on my shoulder. I looked up and seen Jasper looking at me with worry and hesitance.

"Let me explain before you go freakin' out on me Darlin'." He told me.

I just nodded, not sure of what would come out of my mouth just yet.

"It started the night of your 18th birthday party. Remember how I lunged at you?"

I looked at him like he was crazy. "Of course I remember, kind of hard to forget that." I said sarcastically.

He rolled his eyes and continued.

"I wasn't trying to lunge for you. I was trying to lunge for Edward. He was going to kill you himself. He was getting tired of playing a martyr by trying to keep you alive. When he read in my mind that I knew what he was going to do, he pushed you into the glass table. He didn't like the fact that I figured him out." He paused, gauging my reaction.

"So, what he told me a few days later really was true." I whispered more to myself then him.

"What did he say to you?"

"He said that he didn't want me and that I was just a distraction. That your kind was easily distracted."

He laughed ruefully. "He wanted you alright, just not the way you think."

I laid down on the pillow and stared at the ceiling. I didn't know what to feel. The person I thought was the love of my life was dead, deader than a vampire can be anyways. I needed to hear the rest.

"There's more, isn't there?"

I saw him nod out the corner of my eye. I motioned for him to continue.

He took a deep un-needed breath.

"Later that night after he had taken you home, he said we needed to leave. I confronted him. He denied it in front of everyone. His emotions were nothing but rage. Rage at me for stopping him from getting what he wanted, your blood. I asked Alice," He said her name with disgust. "How she didn't see it coming. She just said it was a last minute decision. Her emotions said otherwise. She felt nothing but guilt. But not guilt for lying, it was guilt for not helping Edward get what he wanted."

That hurt. Knowing my so called best friend and "sister" wanted to help me be killed.

"Did any of you Cullen's ever be honest with me? If all you wanted to do was kill me why didn't you? Why didn't any of you! Why didn't you just let James kill me and have it done with! Why play with my fucking emotions and heart?"

I was yelling at this point. I felt Jasper trying to send me calm but it wasn't working. I began sobbing uncontrollably. I was hurt and pissed off. I was hurt because I thought Edward loved me and that Alice was my best friend. I was pissed off because they both lied to me. I wasn't really pissed that Jasper killed him. Yet anyways, he still hasn't told me why.

I was still curled in a ball crying. Jasper put his arm around me.

"Yes Bella, we were honest. Edward and Alice just weren't. Hell, even Rosalie was pissed at them and she hated you."

I snorted. "So not making me feel any better, Jasper." I said hoarsely.

He chuckled. "Shall I continue?" He asked.

"Just get to the reason you killed him and how Alice plays into all this."

He nodded.

"When we left Forks, we moved to Alaska to be with the Denali's. The whole time, Edward and Alice were always off together. At first I just thought they would hunt. That wasn't the case. She was helping him keep tabs on you. He came back here often. He was going to try to kill you. You were always with Jacob Black though. That's something else that pissed him off. He didn't want you 'that' way but he didn't want anyone else to have you either. He was livid. According to Alice, he got close to having you a few times, but Jacob always showed up."

I stopped him. "Wait, if he was coming back, did he know about Victoria?"

"I don't think he did. He only wanted James dead because he wanted what was his. I'm pretty sure it would have been the same with Victoria to."

I nodded and told him to continue. I was trying my damnedest to keep my emotions under control.

"Long story short, I kill Edward because he was obsessed with wanting your blood to the point he started killing girls that looked like you. Alice helped him. Though, I didn't kill her. Carlisle wouldn't let me." He said, growling at the end.

"Why? She was going against what he believed in."

"I wondered the same thing. He said her gift was too important for the coven to lose. He won't allow her to talk about visions unless it's dangers to the coven." He answered.

"Did she know about Victoria?" I whispered.

He looked away. "Yes, and so did Carlisle. I was the only one willing to come back. They didn't think we needed to back then. So we didn't."

I swallowed back a sob. "That doesn't explain your eyes though."

"I was wondering when you'd ask about that." He paused. "I slipped a month after your party, a few days before I killed Edward. That and killing Edward put the proverbialnail in the coffin for me. Carlisle asked me to leave for a while. I just didn't go back to animal blood, I like human blood better. I'm in more control if I drink from humans. I only kill those who deserve it though. And before you ask, it doesn't bother me to be around you."

I nodded. "I don't agree with it, but it's your choice." I told him.

He nodded.

"When was the last time you talked to any of them?" I asked, not really wanting to know. I'm just a sucker for hurting.

"Emmett calls and checks in from time to time." He answered.

My heart sped up and Emmett's name. Didn't he want to come and help? Did he care about me at all?

"He didn't want to help with Victoria?"

"You know Emmett, he follows Rosalie. He wanted to but she's got her claws so far in him that when she says 'jump' he says 'how high'."

I snickered because it was true.

It was about this time my bladder decided to make itself known. I tried to move my leg but it was too painful. I winced and Jasper caught my pain.

"What's wrong?" He asked.

"The human needs a bathroom break." I told him.

He laughed.

"I'll carry you but I'm not helping with anything else." He said with amusement while picking me up and taking me to the bathroom.

"I'm pretty sure I can do the rest, doc." I told him. He raised an eyebrow at the nickname, I just shrugged.

"Well, you did patch me up." I told him.

"I'm no Carlisle." He replied. He sat me down on the toilet and turned to leave. "Let me know when you're finished." He said and walked out.

I was still just wearing a t-shirt so I just had to pull my underwear down. Which was hard to do with one working arm; but, I did it.

After I was done I very carefully pulled my underwear up and called him back in.

"You alright?" He asked.

"Other than the obvious, I'm just peachy."

He just rolled his eyes and shook his head.

He carried me back into the bedroom and laid me on the bed, covering me back up.

"Now, what's your story for the last 6 years?" He asked.

"I went to college and got my PhD in Psychology and after that Victoria made herself known." I told him.

He looked at me. "You have to be able to tell me more than that." He said.

"What do you want me to tell you? Do you want me to tell you how she killed my dad on the side of a road? Do you want me to talk about how she went to Jacksonville and kill my mom and Phil? Do you want me to talk about how I've been running from her the past 2 years? I'm sorry if I don't want to talk about it when I'm practically living it!"

A/N: So, what did you all think? What do you think Jasper's reaction will be when he hears of Bella's past? This story is a collaboration between me (Xo BellaItalia oX) and MichelleRae! Review!

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