chapter 3 why can't I go

The day that Lucius got his Hogwarts letter, Angel looked at the owl pleadingly with a look of disappointment on her little face. She had known that one day Lucius would have to go to school, but she didn't like the idea of being alone. When they went into Diagon Alley to shop for Lucius's school things, she was whisked away into the girls section of the robes shop to buy some new robes.

"Mummy, why can't I have nice school robes like Lucius?" she asked as she looked over at her brother who was being fitted with his new school robes.

"Angel, you're not old enough to go to Hogwarts. I promise that when you are of age, you will get to wear a school uniform as well." soothed Elaina as she carried an arm full of pastel colored robes up to the counter to pay for them.

"What about a wand, can I have one yet?" asked Angel as she watched her father lead Lucius into the wand shop.

"Not yet sweetness, but if you like I'll buy you a special quill and whatever parchment that you want so that you can write letters to your brother while he's as school, and an ice-cream. Would you like that?" asked Elaina attempting to get her daughter to cheer up.

"Really? Could I have a blight blue colored quill, and some color changing ink?" asked Angel with a large smile on her face.

"Sure you can, we'll even get you special parchment and envelopes to use if you'd like." suggested Elaina as she pointed to a nice set of powder blue quills, with pastel colored rainbow colored parchment and matching envelopes.

A few days later the entire family went to the station to see Lucius off to his first year of school. Angel gasped at the scarlet steam engine and Lucius smiled at her as he knelt to hug her good bye. "I'll write to you and tell you everything about Hogwarts."

"Do you promise Luce?" she asked as she through her arms around his neck.

"I promise, I'll see you when school lets out for Christmas break." he said as their father helped him load his trunk onto the train.

As the train pulled out of the station Angel ran alongside calling her good-byes to her big brother until she couldn't keep up anymore and her brother was carried away from her. She turned back to find that her father had left and that her mother was waiting for her while dabbing at her eyes with a silk handkerchief. "Mummy I'm sad, I'll be lonely without Lucius." she sniffled as she joined her mother and took her hand.

"Don't worry, only five more years and you'll be going to Hogwarts too."

Now that Lucius was at school, Abraxas relinquished the teaching of Angel to her mother. He had only put up with the child to see Lucius smile. Sure the fact that the girl could stand up against the cruciartis curse was admirable, but still a girl could never hold a candle to a Malfoy boy. Elaina was disappointed that her husband was once again ignoring his daughter as if she were worthless, so she made it her mission to make sure that Angel was always happy.

The Christmas season was now growing ever closer and Angel spent her spare time drawing lots of pictures for her brother. With Dobby's help she managed to hang her art all over the walls for her brother's room as a surprise for when he got home. The night that Lucius was to come home she decided to wait for him and ended up falling asleep in his room with a box of chocolate frogs to welcome him home. Since the weather had turned very cold, Abraxas went and picked Lucius up alone.

When Lucius got home he ran up to his rooms to change out of his Slytherin robes, and entered his room to find his sister fast asleep on his bed. He smiled and knelt down so that the first thing that she would see when she opened her eyes was his silver eyes looking at her. "Aannngeel, waaake up." he whispered in a soft voice as he tickled her little nose with the end of one of his quills.

"Mmmm." she grumbled in protest.

"If you don't wake up the tickle monster is going to get you." he said silkily as he prepared to tickle her.

"Mmmhumm, tickle monsters aren't real." she mumbled groggily.

"Oh, yes they are." he laughed as he leapt up and started to tickle her vigorously. Peels of giggles and uncontrollable laughter was heard from the downstairs entry hall.

Abraxas looked up the mane stairway and shook his head in disgust. "Leave them be, Abraxas. They're siblings and they've missed each other." chided Elaina as she sensed his anger rising.

"He's my only heir, and it's time that he grew up and started acting like the man that he's going to be some day." he protested as he stomped into the downstairs study.

"Heir or not, he's only a boy, and he still remembers how to love and show love to someone else, unlike his father."

"What is that supposed to mean." snapped Abraxas angrily.

"You know exactly what it means. I don't think that I need to explain it to you." spat Elaina coldly.

"We're not starting this debate again." he argued.

"You started it, I'm finishing It." yelled Elaina angrily.

Upstairs in Lucius's bedroom the laughter stopped and Angel got strangely quiet while her brother changed into his everyday robes. Lucius exited his bathroom and noticed that his sister was sitting on his trunk with silent tears rolling down her cheeks. "Angel, it's okay." he soothed as he shut the door in an attempt to silence his parents screaming.

"No Luce, it's not okay. As long as I exist, it will never be simply okay. Daddy hates me. At first I wasn't sure, but now I know he hates me. I heard him telling mother that he wished that I was never born and that if not for you and her, he would have killed me." she sobbed as she lounged into her brother's open arms.

"Angel, it's going to be okay. I promise as long as I live, I won't let father hurt you. I love you, Mum loves you. If our father doesn't love you for the sweet and smart girl that you are, then that's his loss. I promise that I'll always protect you, and I'll never let him or anyone else hurt you or Mum." said Lucius attempting to calm his sister's sobs.

"I wish that I was old enough to go to Hogwarts with you now. I'm so lonely here with you gone. Mummy and Daddy argue almost every day. It makes me sad." sniffed Angel as her brother held her.

"Try not to think about it too much. The time will fly by and before you know it you'll be at Hogwarts too, and you'll make loads of new friends. Come on, I'm hungry, dinner should be ready by now." smiled Lucius as he presented his sister with his hand to lead her down to dinner.