Chapter 3
Chloe stared at the T.V shocked by the report. What the news lady had said just kept playing in her mind. A Luthorcorp Jet had blown up after everyone had been boarded on. Lex Luthor and his two partners were proclaimed dead. Chloe felt her heart sink even though they had fought and had broken up she still loved Lex. Chloe felt the tears coming to her eyes and she stared at John who was sitting on her right and at Sam who was sitting on her left. She let her tears fall down not caring about what either one of them thought she needed to grieve. She wished with all of her heart that the news reporters had gotten the wrong story that Lex's plane hadn't blown up but everyone knew who Lex was this was true and now she would have to deal with it on top of everything else. She felt a hand rubbing her back making gentle circles on it she thought it was Sam but it wasn't, John was the one who was showing her sympathy when he usually left the emotional stuff to Sam.
"Chloe I know it's hard but you have to work through this." John told her soothingly.
"Did you know? Did you know that this was going to happen?" Chloe asked him knowing that John was Lex's number one confident.
John stared at her with sad eyes he knew he couldn't tell her that he had known he knew the letter that Lex had given him would explain everything to Chloe so he pulled it out and handed it to her. "Lex wanted you to have this." Chloe took the letter from him and stared at the writing on the envelope it was Lex's alright and it said My Chloe on it. Chloe opened the envelope and read the writing.
Dear Chloe,
I told John to give you this letter after it happened. You have to understand Chloe that there was no way this could be changed. I broke it off with you so the pain might be less, I'm sorry I hurt you that was never my intention. I never meant for you to feel like I was keeping you on the island for my benefit. I wanted to keep you safe I have always wanted to keep you safe. I will always love you Chloe and I hope that you will always find a place in your heart to keep me. I'm sorry that things ended this way, I'm sorry I can't be there to comfort you. Just know that I did this for us, my father was after you that is way you had to change your identity and why I had to break up with you. My father also wanted to kill me and he has to think he has succeeded in killing us both off. What I need for you now is to make sure that my dad is locked up for the rest of his life. I know that you will find some way to get him behind bars I only wish I could be there with you to help guide you. Once you put my father behind bars you are free to live your life however you please, this is just my last request which I hope you will fulfill. Lionel has hurt you just as much as he has hurt me and he needs to pay for it. He is the reason I am dead remember that Chloe, when you feel like blaming someone blame him, I know that you want to blame me too and you can do whatever you have to do to let yourself grieve know whatever you say about me I will forgive you for it. I know that you won't want to move on very fast but when you decide you are ready, pick someone who makes you happy, someone who notices all of your talents and doesn't ignore them, set your standards high Chloe. I know you don't want to think of being with anyone else right now but I want you to be with someone who will love you completely for everything you are and for everything you can be. I love you Chloe more than I have ever been in love with anyone before, I didn't want to break your heart, I didn't want to die but I had to I gave up my life so you could keep yours. Take me with you where ever you go tell me about your troubles if you need someone to listen. I will be there sweetheart, whenever you need me I will be there next to you lifting you up. I hope that you will continue to grow to be a strong independent woman; you can show everyone what you can do. Please don't forget us and what we had I never will, you were my number one priority I wasn't about to let my father hurt you I know I said this before but I am going to say it again bring him down Chloe make him end his life in prison because of what he has done to us. There is a picture of us in this envelope; it is my favorite one I hope you will cherish it as much as I have. Now it is with deep sorrow I say goodbye to you my love, you don't know how much it pains me to leave you, just remember I did it for us.
Love Always
Your Lover,
Lex
Tears had been shed as Chloe read the letter he did this for her. He traded his life for hers. How could she have of yelled at him how could their last moment together been so full of hate. She hated her self now, she was selfish and had thought that he was only leaving her to ease his own mind. But he had loved her he had truly loved her and she had always known that. She had loved him to. 'Don't worry Lex your father will get justice for what he has done to you, to us.' Chloe thought. No matter what she had to do she would make sure Lionel got locked up forever. He had killed his own son and he thought that he had killed her. Wouldn't it be a surprise to him if she showed up at his trial and presented all of the proof she needed to put him in jail. She just had to gather it all up and then she knew that he would be locked up forever. Chloe then removed the photo Lex had said he had sent. It was of them and she knew why it was her favorite it was because he loved the dress he had bought for her, he had told her that she looked the best in that dress than in anything else. Tears flooded down Chloe's cheeks she would cherish this picture, she would cherish everything Lex had done for her. Chloe felt her stomach rising and she knew what was going to come next so she ran into the bathroom throwing the picture and the letter down on the coffee table. John watched her go and he knew that she shouldn't be feeling this sick. What if something else was wrong with Chloe? He considered the possibilities and decided to ask her one question that might explain why she had to throw up so much. John went over and stood in the doorway to the bathroom and saw Chloe sitting on the floor looking extremely pale. He decided it was now or never so he asked his question.
"Are you late this month?" He asked her in a soothing tone.
Chloe stared up at him bewildered. "What?" she questioned
"Are you late?" He asked again hoping she would get the hint he didn't want to have to spell it out for her.
Chloe eyes suddenly looked shocked like she had come to a realization about something. She stared at John with scared eyes. "Oh God." Was all that she could think of to say.
"You are late?" he questioned again he needed an answer.
"Yes I am." Tears were threatening to fall again this couldn't be happening she couldn't be pregnant with a child whose father had just died. She needed Lex she needed him to wrap his arms around her and whisper soothing things in her ear. Instead it was John who had his arms wrapped around her but he didn't say anything he just held her.
"I will get Sam to get a test. If you are you need to take better care of yourself, Lex would want you and the baby to be safe." John told her knowing that all of this information was a lot for Chloe to handle. So he slipped out of the bathroom and was back in an instant. He stared at Chloe and took her in his arms. "I promised Lex I would keep you safe and that is just what I am going to do."
Chloe liked the feel of John's warm body and it was comforting but she wanted Lex's warm body embracing her. She wanted to hear his voice feel his touch. Chloe sobbed harder trying to control herself wasn't working right now and she just needed to let it all out. "I never got to tell him goodbye." Chloe blurted out it was the only thing that was running through her mind.
"I know you didn't. He wanted it that way, he couldn't stand to see you upset he didn't want that to be his last memory or yours." John didn't know why he felt so compelled to Chloe know he had always found her annoying and why to troublesome but now he felt as if that part of her was gone and a new part of her was showing.
"But he let our last memory be of us fighting with each other I would have of rather told him goodbye and told him that I love him." Chloe sobbed into John's chest.
"He knows that you love him Chloe. He did this all for you, he explained that didn't he?" John asked her making sure she knew why Lex had been so harsh to her before he had died.
"Yes he explained everything. Why didn't you do anything to stop it? I mean you knew about it why didn't you make him stop? Why did you let him die?" Chloe asked staring into John's eyes. Chloe knew that Lex had never said to blame John but she had to he could have of kept Lex alive. Lex could be here now holding her loving her.
"It was what he wanted Chloe; he needed to do this to save you." John told her he knew that she was going to blame him for it especially since Chloe knew that he had been the last person to really talk to Lex.
"You still should've stopped him. What if I am pregnant I can't do this without him I can't be a mom without him. I don't know how." Chloe kept sobbing 'Why did you have to leave me like this Lex? I need you can't you see that?'
"He didn't know and we still don't know if you are pregnant." John said soothingly
"Well you are going to find out." Sam said as he came over to them and handed Chloe the pregnancy test. They closed the door and waited for Chloe to be done. Chloe came out a minute later and stared at both of them.
"It says to wait four minutes and if a pink dot shows up it means I am pregnant and if there is a blue dot it means I'm not." Chloe said solemnly she had stopped crying even though she wanted to cry more.
So they all bunched around the test and waited for what seemed like forever and finally a pink dot showed up on the test and Chloe's heart sank. She knew she should be happy to have a piece of Lex left but she needed him to help her take care of their new baby. She had no clue how to be a mother she needed him to tell her she could do it. John noticed the sad look on Chloe's face and he knew why she was sad. He touched her cheek gently trying to make her understand that everything was going to be okay.
"Sam go call the doctor and set up an appointment for Chloe we have to do everything to keep them both safe." John said barking orders again it was time to get back to his job and to keep his promise to Lex. Nothing was going to happen to Chloe and he would make sure of it.
Sam went into the kitchen and picked up the phone and dialed the number for he doctor. "Hello Dr. Baker I would like to make an appointment for Carley Davis she is pregnant and we need to make sure everything is going okay." Sam talked for a few more minutes and then he hung up he told Chloe that she had appointment set for next Thursday.
John stared at Chloe. "Do you want us to stay with you tonight or do you want to be alone?" John asked her knowing she would probably want to be alone to think about everything.
"You guys can go I think I just need some time to myself." Chloe told them. "Thanks for being here though."
"It's no problem Chloe. Sam will be by to check on you in the morning." John told her.
"You aren't coming in the morning?" Chloe asked John with surprise in her voice.
"No I will be making sure you are alright but I think it is best if I just let you be right now." John told her he was having feelings for the girl and he knew he shouldn't this had been Lex's love he couldn't fall in love with her.
Chloe stared at them both as they left. Then she went into the bathroom again and started the shower making sure it was nice and hot. She withdrew her clothes and stepped in and she just cried she sat down and cried her hands subconsciously running over her stomach. Chloe screamed at the top of her lung at that moment she just had to she didn't know why she had screamed at Lex "Why did you leave me here with out you why?!" Chloe felt guilty at that moment she knew why it was to protect her and by protecting her he had protected their unborn child. 'You would've made a great dad Lex.' Chloe thought. She then got out of the shower and ran into her new bedroom and put a nightgown on. She went out into the living room where she had left Lex's letter and the picture he had given her. She took them both into the bedroom and put the picture and the letter on the nightstand next to the bed. She laid down on the bed and closed her eyes remembering Lex remembering how happy she made him. How she made him laugh so hard that he would cry. She smiled at the thought no one else had ever made him laugh so hard at least that was what he told her. Before she knew it her eyes were closed and she had fallen asleep dreams of Lex and her filled her mind and in the middle of the night she woke up crying remembering that Lex was gone in her dream she had been there she had been running trying to stop Lex from going onto the plane but she was to late he watched the plane burst into flames. Chloe ran her hands over her stomach. 'I'm not going to let anything happen to you.' Chloe thought she needed to keep the baby safe she knew that having a piece of Lex with her would take some of the pain go away.
