Hey everyone! Happy St. Patrick's Day! I'm pretty surprised I'm updating so soon! After all, I just got a two month old puppy yesterday…

So where was I….

JAKE POV (mixing it up!)

I offered to go into the bed of the Amity truck, instead of Jeanette for one reason. Both of her dad's hated my guts. Her Uncle Uriah, I think likes me, but he's really protective of Amber. I think that's the deal with Will too. But Four hates me most of all. He can't even look me in the eye. It's because of my dad, I know, but I wish he wouldn't judge me because of my dad's actions.

So, I got in the bed of the truck because I saw Will in the car. I didn't think anyone was in the bed, at the time.

I jumped over the side and sat down at the rear, facing the sunset. I only had about thirty seconds of peace before I hear rustling behind me. Crap. Someone, a guy, comes to sit next to me. I try to stay cool, and pretend I don't notice, so I just keep watching the sunset. "What the hell was that?"

Uriah. Could have been worse, I have to keep reminding myself, could've been Four. "What the hell was what?" I'm looking at him now. He narrows his eyes at me.

"Don't pretend you don't know." I sigh and look back towards the sunset. But the sun is just about gone now; stars are coming out to play with the moon.

"What happened is not my story to tell." Which is true, he should be asking Amber, not me. In the silence it is only now I realize how slow we are going. Maybe like what, fifteen miles per hour? I focus on the dirt pathway we ride on. We're in between some pear trees, but I don't see very many pears. Maybe they aren't in season. I shrug it off.

"But you seem to have a big part in this 'story'." I freeze. I think my heart stops for a few seconds. It's Four.

I take a few seconds to regain my thoughts, "You're right, I do."

The car comes to a sudden stop and I fall back a bit, Uriah does too. I still haven't seen Four yet, just heard his voice. I think that maybe there was like a squirrel or something like crossing the road, and that's why we stopped moving.

But the car didn't start going again.

"Jake! Jake! Help!" Jeanette opens up the car door and calls my name. I hop out, followed by Uriah, and a reluctant Tobias.

I rush over to the driver's side, nobody even has to tell me something's wrong with Amber. I open the door with slightly shaky hands, to find her sitting in the seat, hands on the wheel, eyes straight ahead, unmoving. She's just having another flashback, but I guess they don't know that.

Amber told me once, why she gets these. Flashbacks, I mean. The memories she receives from the flashbacks usually are of times that she tries to forget. These ones are triggered by words, or seeing people. When she sees them or hears the word, Amber is instantly reminded of the last time they saw that person, or something terrible that the word relates to. The flashbacks have a lot to do with her powers. Amber uses them sometimes, to ease the pain of harsh memories. They don't go away, things never really do, and they're just pushed elsewhere in her mind.

When Amber uses her powers to do this, the memories are pushed away a little bit, the pain dulled. It's kind of like doing drugs, I guess. I don't like it when she does this, but I don't like to see her in pain either. She usually does this behind my back, but I can tell when she does. The power eats her alive.

The downside the to this, is when she is reminded, it's difficult for her to dull the pain again using her 'magical drugs'. So when she does get these flashbacks, you have to give her space. Which is going to be hard for her family.

"What's wrong with her?" Christina snaps at me. She hates me too, probably. I guess I'm not a likeable person.

"She's just having another flashback." I shrug. "Amber will be okay." I'm used to her flashbacks, they happen a lot now.

I turn around to face her family, who all haves angry looks on their faces, except Tris, who's head is buried into Tobias's shirt, and Char, who's smiling at me real big. "What?" I know exactly what. They want me to explain, apologize for running away with their daughter, something along those lines.

"Is she going to be okay?" Will says through gritted teeth. He looks really shaken up.

"Why wouldn't she be? These happen all the time." I say coolly.

Uriah sighs. "All the time? Like how often? Is she going to die? Could it kill her?" I've never seen Christina so frazzled. I barely even see her, but when I do she's calm and nice, a bit blunt though.

"Yeah, all the time. It's been typical since Jeanine um…." I trail off and look at the sky. "We should stay here tonight. The guards change positions at 5:30 AM. If we get there while their changing, it'll be easy to pass the fence." I put my hands in my pockets.

I recognize surprise on Will and Tobias's face. "Since Jeanine what?" Christina whispers harshly.

"She..she..you know you should really be asking Amber these questions, not me." The sun is gone now, we only have the moonlight to guide us.

"Well, Amber's unconscious right now so you're the next best thing." I gulp.

"Um...Jeanine electrocuted Amber, and she used so much voltage that it should of killed Amber, but she used her powers to resist it, and um, well, Jeanine kept using more, and more, until eventually Amber blacked out. Ever since then she's been really traumatized and has had a lot of flashbacks. Things she, you know, tried to forget. They've been coming back to her, and it's, I mean, she's…well…." I stop mid-sentence. I should say more, but I think I've already said too much.

Christina's face looks beaten and tired, "She..she what?" I can barely hear her she said it so quietly. Will goes over to her and wraps his arm around Christiana.

"What was the last thing somebody said to her, and who said it?" I'm starting to get curious about why she had a flashback this time. There was so many reasons, her parent's kicking her out and not calling her their daughter. Amber's blowout fight with Jeanette a couple of months ago- they got over it, but I know it still haunts Amber. Was it when Four hit her? When Will was so mad at her, he didn't talk to Amber for a whole week?

I heard a sniffle. "It was me. I talked to her last. All I said was her name." The words belonged to Tris.

AMBER POV (she's in the flashback)

I walked to Tris's and Four's apartment, number 1348. I just saw Four in the cafeteria with Uriah and my dad, and I overheard Four say she was still here. Good. I only want to talk to Tris right now.

Before I knock, I have a moment of doubt in myself. Tris has been there for me as long as I could remember. She would come to my school plays and graduations. Tris would take care of me when my parents were away, and I remember the time I was in this apartment, drinking hot chocolate, as I smelled the mac-n-cheese Tris was making. My mom and dad went on a vacation, so I was with her. Tris was helping me study my math homework that night. I was struggling so much in my math class that year. We stayed up late talking about how pi times the diameter equals circumference. I actually got an A+ on my test the next day. I ran home to show Tris. She was so proud of me.

But this is something I need to talk about with her, even if it ruins our relationship.

So I knock, one, two, three times.

Tris comes to the door in skinny jeans a black tank top. "Oh hey, Amber! I was just heading to go get some food, have you eaten lunch yet?" I shake my head. "Well, let's go! Come on!" She tries to walk past me, but I stop her.

"I really need to talk to your Tris." I say sternly.

"Can we talk about during lunch?" She bites her lip. Does she know what I'm going to say?

I clear my throat, "I really would prefer to talk to you in private. It's um important." I give her a half smile.

She puts her hand on my shoulder. "Are you having boy trouble?" I push her arm off and laugh.

"No! I am not!" I laugh again, so does she.

"Okay, okay, come on in." She smiles and takes me into her apartment. I really wish I wasn't about to break her beautiful smile.

Tris lazily sits down on the couch, "So, what's up?" I sit on the chair across from her, all muscles tense.

"I…um….I wanted to know why you gave me to Christina in the first place." My gaze is on the floor. I don't want to see her expression. I don't want to see if she is hurt.

"What do you mean?" She is faking being confused. Tris knows exactly what I am talking about. Part of me is frustrated with her, and the other wishes she wasn't faking being confused.

I look up at her now, "I mean, Tris, or should I say, mom." I spit out 'mom' like it's a piece of trash. "Why did you not want me? Was I not good enough for you?" My voice sounds cold now, like a snake. I'm looking straight into her eyes, waiting for a reaction.

Tris looks like she is about to cry. "I…I…. oh Amber, I should've told you." She looks at me with pity now.

"I'm not a kicked puppy!" I scream and stand up. "Do you not think I would figure it out that I look nothing like Christina and Will, and look like you and Four?" Which is not entirely true. I don't look exactly like them. I have red hair. But I have Four's face and blue eyes. I have Tris's figure and nose. The similarities are obvious.

Tris is really crying now, "Amber, I'm so sorry. I….I…I…." She puts her head in her hands and starts to sob. I don't really know what to do, do I pat her back, tell her it's okay? I came here to confront her, and I think that's what I need to do.

"Tris. Stop crying. I need answers. I-" I was going to finish with 'I don't want to have to read your mind.' But she doesn't know what I can do, and I can't risk it.

Tris sniffles and looks to me, "Why do you need to know? It doesn't affect our relationship, or the one you have with your parents. It doesn't matter." I sigh, frustrated.

"It does matter! It does affect our relationship! It does!" I am screaming at Tris now. I am furious.

Tris gets up, "I'm not going to tell you Amber. This is something you discuss with your parents."

I get so mad at her; I slap her across the face. "You are one of my parents!"

Tris puts her hand on her cheek and looks up at me. "You shouldn't have done that, Amber." Filled with anger, Tris lunges on top of me.

We roll on the ground, knocking over her furniture, ruining her house, breaking things. We're tugging each other's hair, punching, kicking, slapping, screaming. I am trying my hardest to have my powers not come over me. I want to do something without them for once.

I finally get the upper hand in our little scrimmage. I'm on top of Tris, punching her in the nose when the door opens.

"Tris are-" Four stops dead in his tracks. He shouts at me, but I can't really hear what he says. Tris must have punched me in the ear harder than I thought. Four shoves me off of Tris, and pushes me up against the wall. He slaps me, and screams some more.

He screams things like, "What are you doing? Who do you think you are? I will kill you if you hurt Tris again!" Tears are running down my face. I slink down to the floor. The sides of my vision are turning black, but through the tears, I see Will and Christina coming into the room.

Tris is starting to stand, her hand on her forehead, she's kind of wobbling around too. When Christiana sees me, her face turns pale. Tris tries to stop her from coming in, saying I'm 'mental' or something. But Will pushes Tris out of the way.

Christina kneels by my side, "Oh honey, who did this to you?" Tears are streaming down her tan face.

I sigh, "It's my fault, Christina. I did it. I slapped Tris first." My eyes shut for a bit longer then a second.

I see her lips move, but I don't hear her.

"What? I can't hear you." I can feel myself drifting off into sleep.

Her lips move more now, more frantically. Will comes to me too, he was shouting at Four, I think. Everything is starting to blur a bit.

Before my eyes shut I say, "I'm sorry."

TIME LAPSE!

My eyes open, and I'm in my bed. My head is throbbing like crazy. Christina is next to me she whispers, "Hey honey. How are you doing?"

"Why are you so...quiet?" the room is spinning a little bit.

"I'm not. I'm not. I'm actually shouting right now, hon." She is crying again.

"No. You're whispering. I can barely..…barely hear you." I move my head a little on the pillow only to discover that movement makes my head throb more.

Christina is crying even more now and calls for Will. When he comes, she says to him, "The doctor was right. Her ears are…messed up." She sniffles. Will nods and rubs Christina's back.

Will kneels next to the bed and says, "You okay?"

"I don't know. Is Tris okay?" I remember what happened.

Will looks angry at me. I guess he should be, after what I did. "Yeah she's fine." He grits his teeth and leaves.

Christina looks at me, "We're disappointed in you, Amber. You shouldn't of asked about that to Tris. It's a sensitive subject for her. For all of us." She gives a half smile and puts her hand on my arm.

"Well how was I supposed to know?" I saw anger rising in me. "I'm sorry….how long have I been out?"

Christina bites her lip. "About….about five days."

I gasp. Not because that's a while to be unconscious, but because Jeanine will furious with me. "That long?" Christina nods. "Can you tell me now? Why Tris gave me to you."

Christina looks to the door, but I'm too tired to see what she's looking at. "You were not supposed to be born." Her words spill out and burn like fire. "You were an accident."

"A mistake." I sigh.

Christina chews the inside of her mouth and continues, "Four was abused when he was young by his father. He didn't want to be like his dad. Four was scared." I gasp. The great Dauntless prodigy, Four, was scared? Of me? Christina laughs a little. "Yes I know. Hard to believe." She glances back to the door. "But true. Tris didn't think she was ready to be a parent either. So, they knew they weren't going to keep you. They didn't kill you while Tris was pregnant with you; they thought that would be wrong." I nod and she continues, "When Tris told me she was going to put you up for adoption, I told her Will and I would take you. Raise you. Tris and Four were overjoyed that they still could be a part of your life and watch you grow up. We knew you find out eventually, and we planned to tell you. You just found out before we were ready." She looks at the door once more, and this time I look too. Tris, Four, and Will were all there. Tris runs out of the doorway when she sees me looking at them, Four goes after her.

"Thank you. For telling me. I know this is hard for you."

Christina smiles at me gratefully. "Don't think you're off the hook, missy. We'll talk about punishment later. But for now, I want to know one thing. How did you find out?"

I shut my eyes, and before I drift off to sleep again, I say, "Like you said, Chris. I plan to tell you. But I plan to tell you when I'm ready. You may find out before hand, and if you do then okay."

The world goes dark.

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