He was there for me. That butler I cared for. He was there for me when my nightmares became reality… Oh how I wish I never had those nightmares. I wish I could have done something. Anything. But it's hard to control your dreams… And it's hard to control what's real, and what's not. But Sebastian…he could do anything. Except learn not to love me back…
That night Ciel slept horribly. First, he couldn't fall asleep at all. It took half of the night to even stop thinking about Sebastian and fall asleep. But when he did fall asleep, he had a nightmare. In his nightmare he was surrounded by a fog. Screams were coming from every direction and it brought pain to his ears. Ciel searched around with wide, frightened eyes and ran through the fog; hoping to find a way out. But he just encountered more and more of the thick fog. It was like running through something that would never end. And that's exactly what he was running through. An endless fog. One filled with mysteries and horrifying things. He kept running as fast as he could, but he came to no end. The echoing screams became louder and he tripped; falling onto his knees. Sectioning both of his hands on each of his ears, he covered them and squeezed his eyes shut. No matter how much he muted the screams, he continued to hear them. He wanted it to stop. Finally the screams dyed out and there was a complete silence. His eyes opened slowly and realized someone was standing in front of him. It was a tall man wearing black trousers. He also wore a black tailcoat and Ciel realized it was the butler. His gloved hand reached down to Ciel; offering to help him up. Taking it, Ciel smiled; knowing he was safe from whatever was to happen. As soon as Ciel got to his feet, Sebastian wrapped his arms around him; holding him tightly. This shocked Ciel, considering that the butler never did this. As his butler held him, he spotted something at the corner of his eye. Something sharp was flying towards them! Before he could warn Sebastian of the object heading towards them, he widened his eyes as he watched the object slice through the side of Sebastian's stomach. Blood splattered all over Ciel and he felt the butlers grip around Ciel loosen as he fell to his knees. Ciel's eyes widened in horror and gazed into the butler's eyes. He opened his mouth as if he was saying something, but Ciel couldn't hear. It was silent. Everything. The blood leaked around his boots and Ciel covered his mouth to keep him from puking. Not wanting to see anymore, he forced himself to wake up. And instantly he sat up in his bed with wide eyes full of fear; shouting.
"Sebastian!"
And in an instant, Sebastian came barging through the door; his red eyes looking in Ciel's direction. Ciel must have looked dreadful because Sebastian rushed to his side and knelt by his bed; his eyes full of concern.
"Bocchan; what's the matter?"
"I-it's nothing to be worried about," mumbled Ciel as he rubbed his right eye. "I-I just had a silly nightmare."
I see…what was it about, if I may ask?"
Lowering his gaze, Ciel replied, "Nothing important. Nightmares are silly…"
"Try not to be so gloomy," murmured Sebastian as he stood up with the candle light in his left hand. "Nightmares are mere illusions of someone's fears."
Knowing the butler was right; Ciel nodded and sighed as he glanced out the window. Sunrise was coming and the sky was beautiful at this time in the morning. But for some reason, Ciel knew things were about to change. Sebastian walked to the door and put out the candle light.
"Allow me to bring you some warm milk, my Lord." Sebastian walked out of the room.
Ciel stared at the closed door blankly. When Sebastian came to Ciel's room in such a hurry, it was as if he were actually worried. Why? And why did his butler have traces of concern in his eyes? Was he really that worried for something silly? Ciel felt strange every time he saw Sebastian. What was going on between the two? Finally Sebastian returned with a warm cup of milk in his hands. He put it on the table next to Ciel's bed and bowed.
"Do get back to sleep," he said as he walked to the door with his back to Ciel. "I shall wake you at ten."
Before Sebastian could leave, Ciel widened his eyes and shook his head. "D-don't leave!"
Looking surprised, Sebastian turned back around to Ciel. It was a mistake to tell him that. But Ciel didn't want him to leave his sight. What if that was to happen to Sebastian? His nightmare had brought him to tears almost because the thought of losing his butler scared him.
"I-I order you…to stay by my side until I sleep… From then on, I still order you to stay by my side…" he said as he looked into his butler's eyes.
There was a few seconds of silence before Sebastian smiled and bowed. "Yes, my Lord."
He stood by his Master's bed. But that wasn't what Ciel wanted. He wanted Sebastian in the bed with him where he could relax more. But that would be going too far, wouldn't it? As he laid down, he looked up into his butler's eyes. They were red, but looked somewhat different. Not concerned, but somewhat emotional. Why did his butler have such saddened yet mysterious eyes? As Ciel closed his eyes, he found it easier falling asleep with his butler beside him. And this time there was not a single nightmare, but dreams for once in his life.
The sun shined brightly through the window in his study. Ciel yawned and rubbed his eyes. It was already one 'o' clock and he began to get bored. How dreadful it was to work on his studies. It was definitely boring. All the paperwork in front of him. Sebastian was supposed to tutor him today as well. How fun that was going to be. Sebastian finally walked in the room with his teaching stick and in his tutoring outfit. He always had to "fit the part" not to mention, "look the part". But as Ciel gazed at his butler, he found him somewhat attractive. Never before did he enjoy seeing his butler looking the part. As Sebastian adjusted his spectacles, he hand Ciel paperwork.
"Today, since Madam Bright is unavailable, I shall teach you your studies."
"What a bore!" complained Ciel; still gazing at his butler.
"Do you find it more interesting to stare at me, bocchan?" asked Sebastian, smirking.
Immediately turning red, Ciel sat up straight and shook his head. "No. I just wondered why you were wearing such a boring outfit."
"Oh, really?" Sebastian pointed to the paperwork using the stick. "Do begin your work. Afterwards, I shall teach you your history lesson."
Ciel finished his paperwork quickly just to get it over with. And now Sebastian was teaching him his history lesson. He was pointing the teaching staff at the map on he hung up on the wall. His red eyes glared through his spectacles as he glanced at Ciel then back at the map explaining. But Ciel wasn't listening. Instead he was thinking about Sebastian and how attractive he was dressed as a tutor. Sebastian suddenly hit the teaching staff on Ciel's study desk and gazed down at him.
"Are you paying any attention to my lesson?"
"O-of course!" snapped Ciel.
"Really now?" teased Sebastian, "I could have sworn you were looking at my body rather than the map and my lesson."
Ciel blushed a bright red and looked away. He was looking at the body. And he didn't want to be bored any longer. "This is just so boring, Sebastian. I want to do something fun."
"What would you consider fun, my Lord?" asked Sebastian. "Did you have anything in mind?"
Ciel looked up at Sebastian. He did have an idea in mind suddenly. And unlike before, he wanted it. He was willing to do it this time. But would Sebastian want this?
