A/N- I do not own Harry Potter
Also, I ask that you forgive my usage of American English, I'm an American whose never been to England or known anyone from England. So aside from Bloody (which I am told and have seen used as a cuss word) and Arse (See note for Bloody) I really don't know what the differences between American English and English English are.
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Chapter 2- Special Assignment and Understandings
The first thing Harry realized the next morning was that something, or someone was laying on him, head resting on his chest. The second thing he realized was that they where of the opposite sex. The third thing Harry realized (much to his relief) was that they where both fully clothed and that his arm was wrapped around her, hugging her close to him.
With his free arm Harry reached over and grabbed his glasses from the bedside table and put them on. When he was able to see clearly and noticed the woman had bubblegum pink hair, He didn't know whether to jump for joy or disappear. Then he remembered the events of yesterday and decided that he wanted to disappear.
Tonks, his dream girl, had seen him at his weakest. She had seen a crying boy. How would she ever see him as anything more ever again.
Tonks shifted a little on top of him, pressing herself tighter against him. Harry also noticed that Tonks leg was draped over his own. And upon realizing his reaction to Tonks, Harry just wanted to disappear more. The last thing he needed was for Tonks to wake up and notice his morning wood.
'Dudley,' Harry thought to himself. 'Uncle Vernon and Dudley.' Tonks rolled completely onto Harry, her legs falling beside him to straddle him. 'Uncle Vernon, Dudley, Malfoy, and Voldermort....Gah!! This isn't working. Tonks is so going to kill me when she wakes up.' Harry continued to think of anything and everything he could to "suppress" his reaction, but with Tonks in the position she was, it was completely useless.
Finally Harry gave up, cursing his teenage hormones. True he'd love to wake up like this every morning, but this was a one time deal. Tonks had only stayed with him because of his breakdown and subsequent nightmare the day before.
Harry decided that the better part of chivalry was to wake Tonks up, rather then allow her to wake up herself in this position. "Tonks," Harry said gently. "Tonks!"
"Five more minutes love," Tonks said into Harry's chest.
Harry chuckled before trying a bit louder. "TONKS!"
Tonks groaned as she opened her eyes. Upon realization of her current position on top of the-boy-who-lived, she instantly woke up and catapulted herself off the bed.
"Sorry Harry," Tonks said quickly. "I must of rolled onto you in my sleep." She used her metamorphmagus abilities to hide the blush quickly climbing up her face. Lord, she'd love to wake up with Harry every morning, but all he had asked of her last night was to stay with him after his nightmare, to comfort him. Instead she had to straddle him in her sleep. She was going to die of embarrassment soon.
Seeing Tonks reaction, Harry decided to have a little fun with Tonks, so he smiled and asked, "Did you mean what you said when I first tried to wake you?"
"What exactly did I say?"
"Five more minutes..."
"That's not too bad."
Harry smiled even more, "True. But you also said love. Five more minutes love."
'Yup,' Tonks thought to herself, 'I am going to die of embarrassment.' "Well...I...Um....Oh Merlin," Tonks rubbed her face.
"Don't worry Tonks," Harry comforted. "Your not the only one that has something to be embarrassed about."
"What do you mean Harry?"
"I'm a teenage boy who woke up with a beautiful witch, what do you think I mean?"
Tonks snorted. "Of course, it would appear that we can now both be equally embarrassed."
"How about instead, we just admit defeat. Me to my traitorous body and you to your traitorous mouth."
"I can do that." Tonks looked down at her watch. "Sorry Harry, but I've got to go into the ministry in half an hour. You'll be okay won't you?"
"Yea," the smile faded from Harry's face. "I've just got whatever chores my uncle has for the day to do, so I'll be good."
"Actually I had a little chat with your uncle last night," Tonks said happily. "You don't have anything to do today. And I'll be back a little later, once I'm done at the ministry I've got to swing by my apartment and pick up a few thing before coming back here."
"You're coming back?"
"Of course, why do you think I've expanded your room?"
Harry quickly looked around the smallest bedroom at in the house to find that it was actually quite large now, he also noticed a door off to the side, where he could see another bed. "Oh...Thanks, I guess."
Tonks crossed her arms and raised an eyebrow. "You guess?"
"You shouldn't stay here Tonks," Harry said bluntly "You should stay away from me." Harry looked down. He couldn't let Tonks get close to him, she deserved better than him. And if she got hurt because of him, He didn't know what he would do. He loved her, he had from the moment he met her, but he had to push her away for her own good.
"And whys that?" Tonks asked. Did Harry not like her? Did she make him too uncomfortable when he woke up with her in the position she was in?
Harry closed his eyes. "Trust me, it's for the best." Tonks was about to ask why when she heard him mumble under his breath, "I don't want to see you hurt."
'He's trying to protect me. But from what?' "We'll talk about this when I get back." With that Tonks walked out of the room, out of the house, and past the wards, before she apparated to the the ministry.
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Upon her arrival at the ministry, Tonks first went to the office of Amelia Bones, head of the Department of Magical Law Enforcement and her boss. She knocked on the door hoping that Amelia wasn't too busy.
"Come in," Tonks heard Amelia call from the other side.
"Tonks," Amelia said as Tonks entered the office. "To what do I owe the pleasure?" She indicated the chair across from her for Tonks to sit in.
Tonks sat down before answering. "I'm wondering if I can take sometime off."
Amelia looked at Tonks critically. "This really isn't a good time for a vacation Tonks, now that Fudge is actually listening to Dumbledore and admitting You-know-who's back. We need everyone we can to hunt down Deatheaters. May I ask why you want time off?"
"You know I know Harry Potter?"
Amelia's eyes widened. "No I did not, but what does that have to do with anything?"
"A few weeks ago Sirius Black was killed, Harry's godfather." Tonks looked down. "I also knew him."
"How would you know him. He was a convicted murder, and all Aurors had orders to arrest him on sight?"
"It's a long story. But he was innocent, and he was trying to be a godfather to Harry. He was succeeding too Amelia. He's been in contact with Harry since the end of Harry's third year. He became the father figure Harry never had."
Amelia leaned back in her chair. "You've seen Harry lately."
Tonks nodded her head. "He's depressed. Last night at dinner he broke down crying. He fell asleep and I stayed with him to make sure he'd be alright. He screamed in his sleep until I woke him up. I'm afraid of what will happen if he's left alone much longer. His family is a joke, the only reason he's still living with them is the blood protection wards that where enabled when his mother sacrificed herself to save him."
"Blood protection wards? I wasn't aware that anyone had successfully cast any in several hundred years."
"Apparently Lilly did."
Amelia stood up and walked over to her window. "I can't in good conscious give you time off with Deatheaters on the loose." She turned to face Tonks. "So instead I am going to place you on special assignment."
"But I can't leave Harry alone! What if he gets more depressed?" Tonks almost yelled.
"Here me out Tonks. We know that for some unknown reason You-know-who wants Harry dead. From this point on until I deem otherwise, your one and only assignment is to ensure Harry's safety. How you do that is up to you. If anyone ask, I'll say you're on a classified assignment."
"Thank you Amelia."
Amelia turned to face Tonks and smiled. "You don't have to thank me. Harry has given people hope. After all, if a fifteen year old boy can stand up to He-who-must-not-be-named and survive, why can't we?"
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After talking to Amelia, Tonks apparated back to her apartment in Muggle London. She grabbed an old duffel bag from under her bed and began to pack several changes of clothes. She also packed two pairs of sweat pants and a t-shirt to sleep in as she didn't believe Harry would be comfortable if she walked around in her usual sleeping attire, that is to say in either the nude or just her lingerie.
After making sure she had everything, she apparated down the street from number 4. Remus Lupin was waiting for her.
"Where have you been?" Remus asked angrily. "The entire Order went into panic mode when you didn't meet Dung for him to relieve you, we thought someone had gotten you. And why the hell did you abandon your post? What if someone had gone after Harry?"
Tonks took a deep breath. "First I did not abandon my post, although I did disobey orders. Second, Once my shift is over I don't have to alert anyone as to my whereabouts. And third, no one has gone after Harry."
Remus glared at her. "What do you mean you disobeyed orders?"
"I went in and talked to Harry, and scared his uncle."
"Tonks, Dumbledore told us not to interfere for a reason. What if they won't let Harry stay any longer because of you? Then what?"
"You didn't see him Remus. He's depressed. Harry finally had a father, finally had someone who gave him hope of a better life. Then, in one moment, he had it ripped away. I know, he still has you, but he always saw you as an uncle, as a mentor. He saw Sirius as the father James never got the chance to be."
Remus looked down and Tonks saw the silent tears running down his face. "How bad was he?" Remus looked back up at her.
"He broke down in the middle of the kitchen Remus. He cried till he fell asleep, and I took him up to his room. I stayed there to make sure he was alright when he woke up. But he started screaming and thrashing about in the middle of the night, I had to wake him up then. I left at A quarter to seven this morning to go to work, Amelia told me to keep on eye on Harry, so I stopped by my place and picked up some things." Tonks patted the duffel bag slung over her shoulder. "I'm going to stay with him until his birthday at least, try and bring him out of this depression. But I'm not sure I can."
Remus ran his hand over his face. "I'm sorry I snapped at you."
Tonks smiled. "Don't be. You're the only family he has left, and he's the only family you have left. You may not be related by blood, but you are a family. The Marauders are, and always will be a family."
"Thanks Tonks. Is there anything I can do to help?"
Tonks thought for a moment. "Don't tell anyone anything that I've told you. The only reason I told you is that I know you love him and worry about him as though he's your own son. But I don't think anyone else, not even Dumbledore, has a right to know about his depression yet or ever for that matter. I f he wishes to one day tell the others, that's his choice."
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Harry laid back down on his bed after Tonks left. He stayed there all day, staring up at the ceiling, thinking.
He was still in that position when Tonks walked through the door to the room. "Wotcher Harry," she said as she carried her bag and set it down in her room. After coming back to Harry's portion or the room, she transfigured a broken skateboard int a couch and sat down. She patted the seat next to her for Harry to sit sit in. "Get your butt over here Harry, we need to talk."
Harry did as he was told and moved off the bed and onto the couch beside Tonks, leaving a space in the middle between them.
"What's the matter Harry, afraid that I'll bite?"
Harry fought back a smile, but his lip still twitched, a fact that didn't go unnoticed by Tonks.
"We can't really talk with so much distance between us you know. And if you continue to act this way, I may just have to do something about it."
Harry still remained silent.
Tonks smiled and stood up. "Very well then have it your way." She whipped out her wand and pointed it at Harry. "Petrificus Totalus!"
Harry's eyes widened as he fell to the floor with his legs stuck together and his arms stuck to his sides. Luckily he didn't fall far and landed on his back.
Tonks walked over and smirked at him. Watching as his eyes darted around, looking for some form of escape. "Sorry Harry," Tonks explained, "but it's for your own good. And I can assure you that you won't escape. And just because you forced me to such measures...," Tonks sat down on Harry, straddling his waist, and not even the full body bind could stop his reaction. Tonks smile widened.
"Now Harry, this is how this is going to work. I am going to explain things to you, and you are going to listen. Blink if you understand?" Harry blinked. "Good. Now each time I so much as think, that you're ignoring me, I am am going to do this." Tonks shimmied her butt around a bit, grinding it against Harry's erection. "And I guarantee that as long as you are in the body bind, that will be the utmost torture for you. Blink again if you understand."
Harry glared at her and Tonks shimmied herself again, boy was this fun. Harry instantly began blinking rapidly.
"Very good. Now then, neither Sirius' or Cedric's death where your fault. Cedric could of let you take the cup, or he could have taken it himself. Neither one of you knew it was a portkey, you are not responsible for his death. Understood?"
Harry blinked.
"Alright then. Sirius was your godfather and a member of the Order. You went to the Department of Mysteries to save him, you were tricked. And that may not of happened if Dumbledore had told any of us, but especially you, what it was exactly that we where guarding. Again, not your fault. Understood?"
Harry blinked.
"And as for the injuries your friends received, if I remember correctly from what they've told me, you tried to get them to stay behind and they followed you anyway. Despite the fact that you told them not to come with you, you blame yourself for the injuries that they received when they CHOSE to follow you."
"Nothing was your fault Harry. Everyone who died or was injured made their own decisions that led to their injuries or deaths. You cannot blame yourself. Understood?"
Harry blinked.
"As for me staying away from you, I CHOOSE to stand by you no matter what. It's my decision." Tonks smiled. "Besides, even the great Harry Potter needs some help sometimes." She shimmed her hips one last time before climbing off of Harry and casting the counter curse.
"You are evil," where the first words out of Harry's mouth.
"I know."
"Thank you Tonks. I needed someone to talk some sense into me."
"I'm just glad we where able to come to an understanding."
Harry snorted. "I need to go take a shower."
