AN: Again a short chapter but adding more to this would have spoilt it I think. I hope you all enjoy it. Review and tell me what you think.
Thanks to Astarte_Lydianna for being my beta and taking time out from work to look it over.
Disclaimer: I own nothing. The recognized characters and situations belong to Stephenie Meyer.
Bella POV
This hurts so much, every nerve in my body is burning, every muscle hurts. I can't move. I'm sure I'm not in the garden anymore, I felt someone lift me. That hurt more than just laying here.
Okay, maybe this wasn't planned but it's what I wanted. It's what I want. It's what I want. Edward is what I want. I have to just keep reminding myself that. Surely it's been three days by now.
I'm sure I heard someone come in the room a minute ago. Maybe I'm just hallucinating, this pain is so horrific that I wouldn't be surprised.
No wait, someone is holding my hand. Oh god let go. It hurts, stop touching me. I want to tell whomever it is to let go but I doubt I'll do anything but scream if I open my mouth.
I knew that voice, but I didn't know why. I tried to open my eyes but I just couldn't.
They started talking to me, I could just about make it out through the cloudiness in my mind, the pain felt like it was destroying my brain cells.
"It's been a day honey, you're doing really well"
It sounded like Esme, what did she mean a day; it can't just be a day. No, no, no, not another two days. How am I supposed to do this for another two days? I think I'd rather just die.
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Edward POV
I stood outside the door to my bedroom. After Emmett carried her up here Carlisle checked her over.
He told me that hitting the tree caused her spine to snap and some of her ribs to break. One of those broken ribs pierced her lung.
If Jacob hadn't brought her so quickly she wouldn't have lived, even if it had happened right outside a hospital the chances are she wouldn't have lived. But I still cannot be happy now.
I never wanted this for her. I always hoped that after the wedding and going to college she would realise how amazing life is and not want to give it up so easily. Now she was going to be just another shell. We don't live; we just exist. She could have lived.
"She's going to be fine son" Esme told me after she came from the room "She is changing well, you can see it already; she's going to be so beautiful"
"She was already beautiful" I hissed before running from the house.
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Carlisle POV
I saw Edward run out of the house. I don't know what to do with him.
I knew he was against Bella being changed, but would he have preferred that Esme just let her die? Would he rather lose her completely?
She is his mate, I cannot ever understand not wanting to be with your mate until the end of time.
I got up from the armchair I was sitting in and made to go after him but a hand on my shoulder stopped me.
"Dad, don't. He won't thank you for it"
Emmett has really changed in the last couple of days. Losing Rose has really made him grow up. I considered what he said and he is right. Edward is angry at the world and nothing I say will change that.
I may as well go upstairs and check on Bella's progress.
Bella POV
I heard the door open again. I counted five footsteps before I felt my wrist being touched. The hand felt cold but not as cold as it used to feel when one of my vampire family touched me.
I guess soon they won't feel cold at all.
"How is she Carlisle?" I'm sure it was Alice's voice asking the question. That must mean it is Carlisle holding my wrist.
"Her pulse is still the same, which is very good, the venom is still being pushed around her body. I can already see a change in her skin. She's right on track" he replied.
I guess I should be grateful that nothing has gone wrong; especially knowing what my luck is like, but right now I would happily die if it meant that the burning stopped.
Carlisle's fingers on my wrist are just agony. I'm sure I whimpered but I still don't dare open my mouth because I know that I will scream so loud that the whole of Forks will hear me.
Forks. Oh god Charlie. What will I do about Charlie?
Okay I can't do anything right now. This pain is getting worse. I'm sure it's worse.
I love Edward. I love Edward. I love Edward. I just need to keep telling it to myself.
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2 Days Later
OH MY GOD! How can loving someone cause so much pain?
I can't take anymore. Someone please kill me.
How long has it been? No one seems to realise that I need to know. They are always whispering and it's so hard to work out what they are saying through this fog of pain.
That's it I can't take anymore.
I opened my mouth to get someone in here and as predicted all I could do was scream.
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Emmett POV
Edwards' room is right above mine. So of course I was the first one there when she started screaming.
I'm surprised she lasted so long. I had almost broken the bed I was laying on by day three of my change.
I don't know why I got up when I heard her scream, maybe just a natural reaction to the noise. Still it's pointless for me to go, I can't do anything.
Esme and Carlisle came to the room moments after me and Carlisle bent his head to listen to her heart.
She was writhing on the bed, screaming for all she was worth.
"It's almost finished. I'm sure you can hear it too, her heart has sped up to a rate that a human body cannot handle" he told Esme and I.
"Where are Edward, Jasper and Alice? Shouldn't they be here if she's going to wake up?" I asked. After all Edward is her mate, if anyone should be here it's him. Alice is her best friend and if she goes all psycho vampire on us we need Jasper.
"Alice and Jasper went to get Edward from wherever it is he has been brooding. He has obviously decided to stop in one place in the forest, Alice had a vision of where he was and ran out saying they were going to knock some sense into him and bring him home" Esme told me.
"I do hope they get back soon, I'd say ten more minutes and we have another newborn on our hands" Carlisle informed us. "Speaking of which, where is Bree? We must make sure she is okay and in the house while we deal with Bella"
"She's fine dear. She is in her room reading the book you gave her." Esme told him.
"Would you check on her my love, the last thing we need is her to get frightened and run now" Carlisle asked Esme. I made a move to leave the room after Esme but Carlisle motioned me over to him.
"Son, please could you go and find them. I really think Edward should be here" he asked me. I nodded and went downstairs and out of the back door. I began to follow the fresh scents of Alice and Jasper through the forest but they came into sight before I had to go very far.
"Carlisle says it's time and we need you back at the house" I told them then turned and went back to the house and into my room before anyone could talk to me. I just want to be alone.
Edward POV
I walked slowly up to the house. I really didn't want to see this. I can't bare it, my beautiful Bella, like us.
I guess Alice got fed up because she grabbed my arm and practically dragged me to the house and up the stairs to my room.
The door was open and Carlisle had his head over Bella's chest. I instantly growled, then stopped myself when his head snapped up.
I tried to remind myself that this was my father and he was just listening to her heart, although really I don't know why he felt the need to be so close, I could hear her heart racing from the doorframe.
"Her fingers started to twitch and she stopped writhing and screaming son. I think the pain is beginning to localise at her heart and her body just doesn't know how to respond so it has stopped altogether" Carlisle told me.
Rosalie and Emmett were the same so I knew any second she was going to wake up.
We watched for maybe two minutes before she began to pant. The last of her capillaries were obviously forcing themselves to get air into her body before the venom took them over.
Carlisle motioned me to the bedside and I came and stood. Her mouth opened and she gave a bone-chilling scream; her whole body arched off the bed and then total silence.
Everyone bar Emmett and Bree came up to the room. They all gathered around the bed, although Jasper stayed back a little. He was thinking that he didn't want to be affected by her emotions and that he would better be able to help from afar.
I was thinking that I would do anything to not be here and I thought about running more than once in the few second since her heart took its last beat.
Alice obviously saw this as she stood beside me and thought, "Don't even think about it" at me.
I watched her eyes open. I watched her focus adjust to the new colours and sights she was taking in for the first time. I even managed to stand still and watch as she took in the faces of everyone around her.
But as she turned her head to me and opened her mouth to speak, I couldn't take anymore; I turned and ran.
Bella POV
The pain is just getting worse. It began to leave my fingers and toes and it was sweet relief. The only problem is that where it left it just added more pain to other areas.
As it left my lower legs and arms I swear my abdomen and stomach hurt more. Then it left my upper arms and legs and I began to gasp for breath.
It kept getting harder and harder to get the air into my lungs and I wanted to scream again, but I couldn't get enough oxygen to do it.
Eventually all the pain was concentration on my chest. I opened my mouth for oxygen again and instead heard myself scream again. This sounded worse than anything that had fallen from my mouth in the last few minutes and then I felt my body arch up off the bed involuntarily.
Then it all just stopped.
I heard movement all around me but I was struggling to know how to respond. My brain was saying that I needed to open my eyes but I couldn't respond to it. I was just enjoying the relief of no more burning for a minute.
After a moment I managed to open my eyes. I was instantly assaulted by the brightest light I had ever seen, it was like looking directly at the sun without sunglasses. It was a shock but that passed and I began to pick up on things moving around me.
I could see every dust particle in the air. Ever speck of light coming from the light bulb. The most incredible part was the sharpness of every colour around me. I was seeing colours I had never seen before and could not name if my life depended on it.
What felt like hours but I'm sure was only moments later I decided to experiment with moving, I can't bare for this to be a hallucination and really I'm still in pain.
The first thing I saw to my right was Carlisle looking down at me. He seemed to be fighting his smile. He was obviously worried that he might frighten me if he seemed too forward. I moved my head to his right and saw Esme. She was standing with her hand in Carlisle's and she seemed desperate to do something, possibly hug me, I'm not sure but I could see her fingers twitching.
Next I saw Jasper at my feet but he seemed further away than everyone else. I don't know why. I could feel calm continuously washing over me.
I turned my head to my left a little and saw Alice; she was bouncing as usual and beaming her smile.
Finally I turned to Edward. I wanted to jump straight into his arms but I couldn't make my body move with my mind. I opened my mouth to speak and my heart which was most definitely no longer beating, I could hear that for myself, broke.
He turned and ran.
AN: I hope you all enjoyed it, review and get me inspired to write the next chapter.
