Chapter 3
The blinking of my alarm clock woke me up. I was a light sleeper. The clock flashed 6:30. This was early for me. I couldn't fall back asleep, even though my body ached for it. I grabbed my guitar next to bed and started to strum a random song that came to my head. That's it 'Welcome to my life by Simple Plan', that song was a little older, but not by that much. I liked it still. It reminded me of the situation I was in. Singing calms me down as well. "To be hurt, To feel lost, To be left out in the dark.
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding."

I sang to the lyrics and decided to quit. The song depressed me. I looked down to see the glass still on my floor. A grin whipped onto my face. It is disgusting, but I relished to see my blood. The glass pressed against my skin and slid across, it wasn't even like I was doing it. It felt like the glass did it by itself. I cut it multiple times and blotted it with a nearby towel. I knew this was wrong, but it felt so right. I looked at my wrist, I like the way it looked. It made me smile, but people wouldn't like it. I put on a light green hoodie, jeans and I grabbed my back pack. I left for the bus stop to see Lily waiting for me at the corner. It kills me that I can't tell her. Jake will tell everyone. I don't want that.

The bus ripped around the corner and came to a screeching stop. This driver was crazy. We had a different bus driver at least once a week. Lily and I took our usual seats. We knew which ones were ours, mine had the words Speed Demon on it, most likely from a gang member. Lily turned to me with a smile on her face.

"So, give me the details." She said grabbing my hand. I flinched, I must have bruises. She gave me a questioning look. "What's wrong?" She asked.

"We got in a fight and broke up." I said, snatching my hand away.

"Oh." She said. She hesitated. "Why?"

"He .." I wanted so bad to tell her. "We just didn't work out." I lied. I fished my Mp3 player out of my bag and turned up my music. I didn't want to talk to anyone, I wasn't up to it. The bus ride seemed to take forever, but we were finally at school. Jake was waiting for me at my locker. 'What does he want?' I thought.

"Miley, Can we talk?" He asked with a sympathetic look in his eyes.

"No, Jake. I have nothing to say to you." I whispered. Lily knew that Jake wanted her to leave.

"I, uh, have to go to my locker. I'll see you later Miley." She smiled and walked over to her locker.

" Miley." He began. I cut him off.

"Jake, I do not want to talk to you. Or is it that you cant take no as an answer." I sneered, but tears began to build up. I pushed my sleeve up to show him my wrist.

"What happened?" He asked, grabbing my arm, his fingers stroked the freshly cut flesh. I jerked my arm away.

"You did! I did this after what happened yesterday. Just leave me alone Jake!" I screamed. "Just leave me alone." I whispered as I walked away, leaving him there at my locker.