Hello! by popular demand, I present you with the next chapter! I'm surprised by how much popularity this story has gained, really. It's probably the most popular of any of my stories. Thank you, all of my lovely reviewers! And, as a special thank you, I combined two chapters to make this uber-long chapter for you guys. AND, it has some lovely Ciel x Alois stuff in it. ^^ My Ciel read a couple of chapters from this story, and demanded more, so I'm at work writing. Don't worry.

Disclaimer: I do not own Kuroshitsuji nor any of its characters.

Warnings: Swearing, mentions of rape (considering the last chapter, duh.), mild yaoi,

Enjoy!


Hannah woke me the next morning. As I saw the blood on the sheets, I knew that last night hadn't just been a horrible nightmare. I forced myself to remain calm as my maid dressed me for the day. A thought nagged in the back of my head, forcing me to notice something. Why…why didn't Hannah ask about the sheets? Why didn't she come when I screamed? Demons don't sleep, so she must have heard me. Unless Claude had silenced her beforehand…

"Hannah, clean this up." I commanded softly as I stood. "Do not tell the other three about this." She curtsied and began stripping the bed silently.

I contained my shudder as I walked away. What could I do now? Claude had disappeared again. So I couldn't try to find him, not that I'd want to. Well… I suppose I could go over to Ciel's house… Maybe if I was there, Claude wouldn't…he wouldn't come back for me.

I walked into my study and found the phone, dialing Ciel's number. I didn't care if that demon of his picked up, as long as I got through somehow.

"This is the Phantomhive residence." Sebastian answered from the other side. "May I ask who is calling?

I let out a breath. "Hello. This is Earl Trancy. May I speak to Ciel?"

There was a pause, and then I heard Ciel's voice on the phone. "Alois? Why are you calling?"

I relaxed at the sound of his voice. "Good morning, Ciel-kun! I was wondering if I could come stay the night at your house!" I crossed my fingers in my lap. Please…

"Well... I'm in the middle of doing work. But as long as you don't distract me, you may." My lover responded.

"Great! I'll be over by afternoon!" I let excitement leak into my voice. "I'll see you later, Ciel! I love you!"

"Y-yeah… I'll see you." He hung up.

"Hannah!" I called. She entered. "Cancel all of my appointments for today. And make preparations for me to stay at Earl Phantomhive's house for tonight!"

Once she had left to do as I said, I retreated to my sanctuary. My room where the piano rested, waiting for me, calling to me. No one was allowed in here. Not even Claude. Not even Ciel. Nobody. This was the one place where I could be alone and yet still feel safe.

I sat at the piano. The keys were cold, but quickly grew warm under the ministrations of my familiar fingers. The song that evolved was sorrowful and spoke of a deep, endless pain. Darkness. As I pounded the keys, I screamed, screamed at the top of my lungs. I let out all of my emotions, all of the rage, pain, sadness, fear, betrayal…everything was let out in an animalistic cry of anguish.

After what seemed like hours, my emotions calmed, and a pleasing numbness filled my mind. I heard a soft knock at the door and I walked over to see Hannah waiting for me.

She curtsied. "Danna-sama, preparations have been made."

I nodded and stepped out, shutting the door behind me. "You're coming with me. Make sure those triplets won't destroy anything while we're gone." She curtsied again and went to obey my order.

I let out a sigh and walked outside to the carriage waiting for me. Only a few hours before I would be with Ciel, and all would be well again.

But if that was so, why did I have such a bad feeling?


After what seemed to be an eternal carriage ride, Hannah pulled up to the Phantomhive estate and let me out. Hannah informed me that she was going to park the carriage. I dismissed her and put on a fake smile as Sebastian greeted me at the door. He led me to Ciel's study and left us alone. I sat across from my love, watching as he finished writing something and sealed it in an envelope.

Finally, Ciel sighed and smiled, looking at me. "Hello, Alois. How have you been?"

I smiled. "Bored. There's nothing to do at my house. How have you been?"

"I've been alright. I've been working lately, so I cannot say I've had nothing to do."

I sighed and shook my head. "You're always so busy, Ciel. How do you do it?"

He just smiled and shook his head, calling for Sebastian and handing him the envelope. Once the demon had left, I settled back in my chair and watched Ciel continue his work.

"Why did you want to come over?" Ciel asked, sealing another envelope.

"Because I missed you! And it's boring at my house!" Not to mention dangerous… I smiled brightly. "I figured I'd have more fun over here!"

My lover blushed and looked back to his work. "You are mistaken. It is quite boring here as well."

"Not now that I'm here. You won't get bored easily with me." I chuckled as Ciel's face burned brighter. "I can keep you entertained."

"Don't you have work to do, too?" He pouted, avoiding my gaze.

"As long as it's not from the Queen, I can bear to ignore it." I grinned. "They're all just boring old people, anyways.

Ciel sighed. "Well I still have to do my work. So long as you don't distract me, you can stay here."

I turned so that I was lying sideways in my chair and settled in to watch him. My boyfriend occasionally muttered to himself, but otherwise it was silent. It was odd. When I was with Ciel, I felt safe. As if Claude couldn't get to me here. It was nearly an absurd notion, of course. Sebastian may be one hell of a butler, but he still has a slow reaction time when he's in a different room than Ciel. I proved that a few months ago when I successfully stabbed my rival-turned-lover in the stomach. Sebastian hadn't protected him from me. He had believed, as Ciel had, that I would never hurt the one I loved. Well, neither of them had thought that I loved Claude more than Ciel.

But…do I? Really? Even after he nearly killed me…after he almost caused me to kill Ciel…even after…last night… Did I still love him?

Yes, I decided as I watched Ciel work. I did love Claude, even after everything.

But now…now I loved Ciel more.


It took ages, but Ciel finally finished his work for the day and we had dinner. At one point, he asked if something was the matter and I said no, putting more effort into convincing him than was needed. It had the opposite effect than what I'd intended, of course.

"Did something happen?" Ciel asked. "Was it Claude again?"

I shook my head, trying to keep on the fake smile. "No, he still hasn't come back. Nothing happened, Ciel-kun. Everything's alright. Boring as hell, but fine." I tried not to let my laugh sound fake.

The attempt seemed to work, as Ciel dropped the topic, continuing to eat. I sighed inwardly in relief. He didn't have to know about what had happened… If he knew that I had practically let Claude take advantage of me…he may just never want to kiss me again, the filthy whore that I was.

Finally, we finished eating. Ciel all but insisted that both of us sleep in his room, rather than allow me to stay in a guest room. Perhaps my attempt at reassuring my love had not been a success after all. Or perhaps Ciel just wanted to sleep with me. Either way, it certainly would not be as relaxing of a night as I had been hoping for.

After Sebastian and Hannah had finished dressing Ciel and I, Ciel turned to look at me. I lied on my side, smiling at him. "What?"
Ciel blushed, but did not avert his mismatched eyes. "Will you tell me what happened?"

I sighed exasperatedly. "Nothing happened, Ciel. I already told you. I'm fine."

He frowned sadly, sighing as well. "I can tell that something's wrong, Alois. Don't lie to me."

I looked away. "I don't want to tell you. It's none of your concern."

Ciel hesitated, brushing my cheek softly as a gesture of affection unlike him. "Are you sure?"

I closed my eyes, leaning into his touch. "Yes. I'll be alright. Just let me stay here, with you, for tonight."

He nodded and leaned in to softly press his lips to mine. My lips still hurt from the abuse they'd received the night before, but I allowed my lover to kiss me. If Ciel wanted it, then I would give it to him. Ciel pulled my face closer, deepening the kiss. It had been nearly two months since we'd been together like this. Normally, I'd be all over the physical contact. But normally I wouldn't be…raped by Claude.

I half-heartedly fought my love for dominance in our kiss before giving in. Not that I'd admit it, but it was always better when Ciel was the dominant one. Ciel moved so that he straddled me, starting to unbutton my shirt as he licked my neck almost kitten-like. A shiver passed through my body at a flashback of Claude's lips…his teeth biting at the same spot… Suddenly, Ciel stopped.

"Alois… What is this mark on your neck?" He asked quietly.

I froze as I realized he was talking about the mark Claude had left behind. "Ciel…it's not what you think it is. I swear."

My rival's eyes grew hurt and he pulled away from me. "You bastard! Y-you promised! You promised I would be the only one!"

"You are!" I insisted. "You are the only one! I told you, it's not what it looks like!"

"Then what is it?" Ciel asked almost bitterly.

"Hannah forgot to close my window last night." I explained, letting out a breath. "She says it's a bug bite."

The earl 'hm'-ed and leaned back in to continue biting and sucking on my neck. I let out a soft moan as his fingers found and played with my nipples. He was starting to get better at this. After a few moments of his teasing, his hands ventured lower to rub my already hardening member. I gasped lightly and clenched the sheets. His touch was so soft…so gentle compared to Claude's.

Ciel grasped me lightly, slowly stroking me as he licked his way down my chest. He seemed to enjoy the quiet moans I let escape my lips. All of the sudden, his hand was replaced by his mouth and I gasped, tangling my fingers into his hair. He began sucking, finally seeming to be used to the motion. I let out mewls of pleasure, closing my eyes at the sensations sweeping through my body. As Ciel focused on the tip of my member, I just barely noticed that his finger was slowly sliding into me.

White hot panic shot through my body and I scrambled away from Ciel, my eyes wide. He looked at me, surprise covering his face. "Alois, what's the matter?" He reached towards me, concerned. "Did I do something wrong?"

I shook my head, taking a breath to steady my nerves. It's just Ciel…just your lover…nothing to be afraid of. He won't hurt you, Alois. "N-no… I just got nervous for some reason. I'm sorry."

Ciel carefully wrapped his arms around me, kissing my forehead. "You don't have to be nervous with me, you know that. I would never hurt you."

A memory popped into my head of Claude saying the exact same thing before he poisoned me. "I-I know… I don't know why I panicked." I tried to force an easy smile onto my face. "I guess it's just been a while, huh?"

My lover nodded and held me close, moving so that we were lying beside each other again. "It has been a while… Next time, I'll let you be dominant. Maybe that will help." He blushed ever so slightly.

I smiled at him. "Ciel-chan, are you saying you want me on top?"

"Shut up." Ciel grumbled, closing his eyes and snuggling closer.

I chuckled and embraced my partner, watching as he slowly fell asleep. As he slumbered, I stayed up for what seemed like hours, unable to sleep until the darkness finally took me and filled my head with nightmares…


Heehee...the actual fun part of the plot starts coming in the next chapter... It may or may not be a while. I have to type up the next few chapters and update some of my other fics. But please review! Your reviews make me smile and make me want to write more, so review!

Oh, for those who wondered, Ciel and Alois take turns being dominant. ^^ My Ciel and I agreed that it fit them well enough. That way, they both get the full experience of the relationship. And, I please those who support Alois as seme, as well as Ciel as seme. But for the majority of this particular fanfiction, Alois will be uke.

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