Srry guys, I'm trying my best but these 5-6 weeks are gonna be tough w/ EOCT and finals rolling in…- gawd my teachers just keep stacking loads of work…. T-T
Twisted feelings
"Come in Kotori" said Kidou as he slowly opened the door, revealing his room inside.
The room looked so neat and organized, yet one could easily tell that everything was set up with care. It seemed that Kidou-kun was a soccer fanatic, with posters neatly pinned on the wall and soccer magazines stacked smartly in a pile on a clear glass table. And on his bed… XD was a couple of emperor penguin plushies. (A/N: I just had to put that XDXD)
"Wahhh!" I exclaimed as my eyes opened wide at the sight of his room. Quickly I did a flying leap into his bed, grabbing the biggest penguin and cuddle it close to my body. Kidou stood in the doorway, embarrassed.
"I can explain-" he began as color began to rise in his cheeks.
"Ahahaha," I giggled, "It's so cute. I love it!"
"Really?" he asked hesitantly, as if in disbelief. It was as if he'd thought I'd laugh at him.
"Yes, really." I said with a big grin on my face.
"So…" I drawled out, becoming serious now.
"Um…yea about that..." he said.
I settle down on his bed, holding the penguin tightly by my side. The room was filled with an eerie silence as I stared intently at the boy wearing a tight v-necked black shirt and blue jeans who was now leaning on the couch silent.
"I've never really knew my parents" he began, his voice just barely above a whisper. I crawled closer toward the foot of the bed to hear him. "I lost them in a car accident that I barely remember when I was little. I was around 4 at that time, and my sister, she was only 3. After that, we were placed in an orphanage together. Our stay there was okay. We had some fun times together, but there were awful ones too. I remember that some other kids would come to pick on my sister and me. And I would always end up getting a little beat up from the frays…. Then one day, we were separated and got adopted by different families. But the good thing is, she's close by, so I can see her often."
There was a slight pause as he stopped to gather his breath. His head was looking down at the ground, and it was then that I noticed the two small darkened spots on the carpet. More teardrops landed on the carpet, making a dark wet spot. Quietly, I left the plushy on the bed and walked over to where he was and hugged him tightly. We stayed like that for a few moments before we broke apart, and I smiled at him to give him comfort. He dried the trail of tears from his face and removed his goggles to wipe the tears away from his eyes while I returned back to my comfy spot on his bed. I understood the pain of losing the people that you love. I had experienced the same thing, yet I had no tears to shed over it. But, somehow seeing this boy that I'd barely knew, who was so kind to me, and sharing his painful past made tears form anew upon my eyes. I stared at his back, as he was now sitting on the foot of his bed. As if he knew I was thinking about him, he turned around and looked at me with a saddened smile. Some where in that smile I found comfort and a warm sensation flooded through me as I look at him now without his goggles. He had beautiful, mesmerizing eyes, deep and full of understanding. They were a lovely deep and dark red shade that gleamed in the lighting. Those eyes, they pierced right through me, as if it could see all of my darkest secrets.
"Kotori?" he breathed my name, his face inches from mine. Started from being caught in realms of his eyes, I fell back on the bed. "Kotori" he said again as he crawled next to my side. He was now looking down at me, peering into my face. Doki, doki, doki, came the sound of my heart. Why was my heart racing all of a sudden?
"Why are you crying and hiding your face?" he asked as he turned my face to look at him. His hand softly wiped my tears away and he started to slowly caress my cheek. A tingling sensation rushed over me as I got goose bumps all over my body. As turned my body to face Kidou and opened my mouth to speak, I was met with something warm and soft pressing against it. My eyes that had closed at the unexpected assault flew open instantly as I realized that he was kissing me. I tried to struggle a little but somehow I could find no strength, and my eyes slowly closed, letting the rush take over my body. Unknowingly my arms had encircled his neck and my fingers were tangled in his dreads, pressing his face closer to mine. I felt the warmth of his body as his arms enclosed around me and pulled me closer in to him. But as abruptly as the kiss started he pulled away, and we both laid there on his bed still staring at each other's face and at the same time gasping for breath.
I turned away from him in bewilderment, my face flushed all red. Doki, doki, doki, my heart raced. I was beginning to feel light headed.
"I...I'm…I'm sorry" said Kidou, "I was...it was…it…it just happened…I…I don't know why it…."
As I turned to look at him while his words trailed off, his head was turned down and a look of shame and embarrassment was on his face. Quickly, not wanting to be in the room anymore, I slid off the bed and made my way towards the door. I stopped for a second before going out and said "Good night" in as even a tone as I could possibly manage before hastily slipping out the room and went towards my room. I immediately escaped to my room and slipped inside, closing the door behind me as I leaned against it. I stood leaning against the door but gradually slid down and sat on the floor in reverie, thinking about what had just happened. My stomach churned at the thought and it felt as if my feelings had become twisted in such a short span of time…. Unconsciously my hand went up to trace my lips. My first kiss….
:O fast relationship right off the bat… :\ meh… I dunno where I'm going w/ this fanfic…oh well, I'm making it up as I go :) Oh and… i'm thinking about starting on a new fanfic so I wuz wondering if you guys will help me out? PLZ?
SO, after the FFI, and IJ goes back to japan and start school in japan…where will Kidou and the rest of the other members go to school? O-o I mean will sakuma return to Teikoku? Will fubuki, tsunami, and etc. go back to their schools? Where will Midorikawa and Hiroto go to school? Will Kidou go to Raimon to be with his sister? :| yea… you can help by responding to theses questions :) thank you! R&R
