I had woken up from a deep sleep to find Alli already awake next to me. "Hey" she said. "It's about time you got up"
I looked up at my watch it was only 9:03. "Alli, what are you talking about? It's so early"
"But we have to be out there by 9:10. Remember?" Alli said frankly combing her hair. "What?" I yelled. 'You couldn't have woken me up earlier." I exclaimed. "Well, sorry."
She went outside to join the rest of the people. She had no time to get dressed and fix her hair, so in order to be on time she just walked out looking a mess. "Clare, are you ever on time?" Simpson asked kind of aggravated.
"I'm sorry, I didn't realize the time." Mr. Simpson nodded but I could tell he was still annoyed by my tardiness. I glanced at Eli from the corner of my eye and saw him looking back of me and avoided eye contact.
"Guys, we are leaving at 2. You can start packing yourself and do what you want, but we need to be on that bus at 1:55. You may disperse." Mr. Simpson lectured. Everyone got up and I quickly head for my tent to avoid Eli at all means necessary. Evidently, I wasn't fast enough because I felt someone tugging on my arm and it was him.
"Can we please talk?" He asked. "No thank you."I tugged myself from his grasp and kept walking. "Clare….Please?" He seemed like it was really bothering him so I decided to but would make sure not to talk or lead him on in any way at all. He held my wrist and we sat on a log, a different one from before. I looked at him questioning why I was here.
"I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to" He said apologetically. I nodded and began to walk off again, "Can you please come back?" I sat down and glared at him.
"I'm sorry that I did that. I just felt…I don't know. I just really want you to forgive me. Do you?" He ranted for a while.
I nodded in that I forgive him and walked off and he walked behind me. "That's it?" He questioned. "You're not going to say anything?" He asked. "Well, what do you want me to say?"
"That you forgive me." Eli said. "There's nothing you need to be forgiven for." I said actually feeling sorry for him. "Wait, what?" He asked confused.
"There's no reason for you to apologize. You didn't do anything wrong."
"So….you didn't mind it?"
"I mean the fact that you completely scared me, yes that bothered me. But I wasn't bothered by the actual kiss." I looked around; I wanted to look anywhere but in his eyes.
"So are we good now?" He asked and I nodded. We both went to our separate ways to pack our stuff and everyone headed for the bus. Since nothing "happened", Simpson let us choose our own seats on the way back.
"Do you want to sit together?" I asked Eli mainly because I didn't want to sit alone knowing by choice Alli would sit next to Drew.
Eli smirked and nodded quickly which caused me to smirk. Everyone got on the bus and it began to move. Eli and I sat there in silence, it was still kind of awkward from last night but we tried to actually be friends and talk. "I really don't want to go back to school" I said. He looked down at me, "Yea, I know. That's why sometimes I hate trips, I hate going back." I giggled in the fact of how true it was. The bus had now arrived to Degrassi. My dad waiting outside for me. We all got off the bus, ready to depart. "So I'll see you tomorrow?" Eli asked. I nodded and before he could walk away, I gave him a kiss on his lips. He smirked and I began to walk to my dad's car. He stood there as we drove off.
Eli's POV.
What just happened? I kissed her last night, she stops it and things get awkward. Then she kisses me. I don't understand girls at all. I hope things won't be awkward tomorrow like they were this morning. I think I should probably talk to her about this. We can't randomly go around kissing each other, when we felt like this. We had only knew each other for two days. It was not logical to like someone within two days.
Was it?
Next morning in Degrassi (Clare's POV)
I stood at my locker, grabbing the books out that I needed. Eli came up next to me. "Hey" I said leaning towards him to give him a kiss. He leaned away, "Umm, we really need to talk"
I didn't know what to do. He kissed me two days ago, I kissed him yesterday and no one complained. That means we're together, right? I never actually had a boyfriend so I don't even know how this stuff happens. What in the world would he would need to talk about?
We sat down on the bench but still inside of school. "Okay, Clare. Umm, we're not dating, you know that right? I didn't want to like lead you on or anything." I stood there shock and embarrassed not having a clue on what to say. "You alright?" He asked. Still in shock I wasn't able to respond to him. "Clare…"
"So you don't like me?" Clare asked. "Please, don't ask me that" He said. He hid his face from me. "Well, do you?" I asked curiously.
"I don't….well I do but I can't. It's just not right." "Eli, what are you talking about?" I asked suspecting something was wrong. "Nothing, just leave…please." I slowly got up and walked away from Eli more confused than ever. Did I do something to him?
I walked back to him wanting to solve this at the moment. "Eli, I'm really confused into what I did to you. I didn't mean to make you upset, I was just trying to clarify things."
Eli shook his head, "You didn't do anything." He patted the seat next to him and I sat down. "I do like you…It's just, something happened a while ago and it will be wrong if I dated you. I'm really confused and really sorry. I just need time." I nodded wondering what was preventing him from actually dating me. I walked away and let him have his space.
I saw Eli later and still needed clarification because this whole day, I kept thinking what was wrong with him. I saw him in the hall "Can we talk again? Please." He nodded and took me outside to a bench. "Okay, so I like you. And you're like the sweetest person ever. But..." He choked up. "It's alright, Eli. You can tell me." I smirked trying to provide comfort. "I had a girlfriend; she died because she got hit by car. And I don't feel right being with someone else. I feel like I'm betraying her."
"So you just want to stay friends?" I asked upsettingly. He shook his head. That then gave me so hope."So does this mean we're together?" He shook his head again. He is so confusing. He needs to speak instead of showing head gestures.
"Eli, can you just tell me what you want? I'm so confused right now."
"I don't know what I want" He exclaimed. "I just want to spend time with you."
"How about we like date, but take things slowly, okay?" I was confused into what he meant by date. I didn't exactly know the difference between being together and dating. "Define date" I said. He smirked, "We can like test it out, get to know each other more. Is that okay?" I nodded. "I think that can work."
This made me excited. Eli would probably be the closest I was to any guy. He wanted to go slow; I wanted to go slow since I was so inexperienced and he was still getting over his past. I had a good feeling about this.
Will it work between Clare and Eli? Will he go to far trying to deal with his problems? Will they work out or will Eli's past destroy what they have? I dont know what to do next, but feeel freee I TELLL YOU pleasee leave me ideas or what you want to happen next.
