Finally this chapter is done! I took me far longer than I thought and I had to keep rewriting certain scenes because they weren't coming out right. Anyway here's what you all been waiting for hope you like it. Oh, and beware there is a rape scene in this chapter so trigger warning! Talk to you all later I'm off to the next chapter. Enjoy!
words italicized and underlined are Bella's confiscations to herself
Breaking Ties Strengthening Bonds
It has been nearly three months since the night I was found in the woods by the pack and ever since the Cullens had left I could feel myself slowly slipping away from reality; becoming nothing more than a living zombie, a corps that cared for nothing and did nothing but the essentials. And since Sam felt it would be easier to protect me from Victoria if I stayed closer rather than in forks, I've found that when I wasn't at school I was spending most of my time at the reservation.
Charlie felt both relief and worried about this because even though I'm not acting like a lifeless cops as much now, he feels that I'm setting myself up for more heart break being around so many boys so soon after the"incident". That didn't really matter to me though, because they helped in giving me a sense of reality which allowed me to keep what little sanity I had left.
And as time went on I've found that I've seemed to have somehow grown closer to Leah and Seth. With both being some what outcasts to the rest of the pack, Seth being the youngest and Leah being the only female shifter, we have unknowingly formed some what of a sibling bond. Protecting and helping each other out when needed.
I'd always grow sad upon remembering when Jake and I use to have the same bond before he shifted.
He was the little brother that I never had. He'd always make me laugh with his quirkiness, stand up for me when the other kids decided to pick on me because of my pale skin and help me make mud pies.
Now he's grown to be nearly identical to Him, in the regards of how possessive he has gotten of me and being quick to anger that it terrified me. Not to mention how he keeps dropping hints and making suggestions towards his, more than platonic, feelings towards me and how I should give him a chance. With all these combined our relationship had just plummeted, getting even more strained as time went on. It has gotten to the point where I no longer feel comfortable being alone with him and will avoid it whenever possible.
Right now Angela, Ben, Leah, Seth and I are all on our way back from the movies in Seattle. We had just dropped off Ben and Angela and where heading to Leah's house so I could pick up my truck so I could go home, seeing as Leah had driven us. We had just arrived at the Clearwater's house with Leah and I discussing the movie we just seen and Seth in the backseat playing a video game when I noticed Jacob's truck in the driveway.
I immediately stopped our confiscation when I saw Jacob walking out of the house fallowed by Sam and Paul. Leah noticing my extended pause asked what was wrong, "What's wrong, Bella?"
I pointed her towards the direction of her backdoor and quietly seethed, "What are they doing here?!"
Upon finally noticing the others she let out a quiet growl before replying, "I don't know, but they sure as hell aren't welcome." she grumbled before turning off the engine and unclipping her seat belt.
"Maybe they've found something about that vampire chasing Bella.", Seth quipped from the back.
"Maybe, but even so they have no business just showing up here. If they needed to get a hold of us they could have called." she growled again before getting out of the car with Seth and I fallowing after.
Jacob, having to have been waiting for Seth and Leah, saw me exit the car and was instantly making his way to me.
Grabbing me by my shoulders and pulling me in tight to his chest he held me in a hug that was a few squeezes shy of crushing. The act of my body instantly stiffening upon him grabbing me went completely unnoticed by him as he began to speak. "Where have you been, Bella? I was so worried when the others reported to having seen that red headed leech sniffing around the treaty line and I couldn't find you."
His hold grew tighter and my body stiffer as he continued. "I thought she had some how got past us and took you."
His hold on me finally became to tight to remain silent and I let out a quiet whimper. This got the attention of the others and before I realize it, I'm being pried out of Jacob's hold and into the soothing arms of Seth; who wraps them around me for comfort in a brotherly manner as Leah shouts at Jacob. "Now you look here Black! You know damn good as well that Bella was at Seattle with us and that she doesn't like when you touch her, so BACK OFF!"
At first Jacob looked shocked at having been separated from me, but that shock quickly turned to anger at seeing Leah and hearing what she said.
"What are you talking about, Leah? Of course Bella's fine with me touching her, I'm her best friend.", he growled out as he began to shake.
"That's bull shit and you know it, Black! You have been looking to get in a relationship with Bella for years now and it has been putting a strain on your guys' friendship to the point that she no longer feels comfortable being alone with you. Face it Jacob, you have put an end to your friendship with her a long time ago." she growled back at him. Getting so close to him that he was force to take a step back.
"You're lying! Bella and I are friends and the only reason she feels uncomfortable with me is because of that leech Cullen. It's all his fault she has been acting like a walking corps all this time, rarely if ever feeling anything but depression. I had tried to tell her, show her that I was the better choice and that he would only hurt her but she wouldn't listen! Now look where we are! They're gone, left her here broken and with a crazy blood sucker still chasing after her and us to clean up their mess!" he growled even louder.
I couldn't help but flinch at everything Jacob said seeing as it was all true. They did leave me, I was clinically appointed of having savvier depression, which had gotten to the point to where Charlie has threatened to send me back to Renee if I didn't get my act together which lead me to spending more time with Leah, Seth, Angela, and Ben. My flinch must not have been as discreet as I hoped because Seth's hold on me tightened a little as he let out a quiet growl of warning towards Jacob which got the attention of Leah.
Leah turned and saw me huddled in Seth's arms and let out a roar of anger before turning back towards Jacob.
"NOW LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID! YOU NEED TO HURRY AND GROW UP BECAUSE THE CULLEN'S AREN'T THE ONLY ONES CAUSING HER PAIN!" she roared before taking a breath and calming herself down a little.
"Look Jacob, you need to understand that you trying to force your feelings on her while trying to pretend to still just be her friend is hurting her and you need to stop. Bella may be depressed but she is far from stupid. She knows what your doing and has told you multiple times to stop but you refuse to listen. A perfect example of this was when you almost crushed her and completely ignored the fact that she had stiffened from the moment you touched her. Which she only grew even more so the longer you held her, until it got to the point of you nearly crushing her and she whimpered and I had to pull her away from you. She's not, nor will she ever be yours, so you need to stop being so possessive of her and if you still are her friend, you would give her the space she needs." she finishes before walking back to me and Seth and giving me a hug.
"Are you alright, Bella?", she asks while looking into my eyes to make sure I wasn't lying.
"Ya, I'm alright Lee. Just a little shaken up is all.", I said while giving a nervous grin. She must have seen I was telling the truth because she just nodded her head before continuing to hug me. Our moment was soon broken by a ferocious roar and Sam who, until now was on the sidelines observing everything, was trying to calm Jacob down.
"Jacob, calm down!", but it was too late. Jacob had already exploded into his wolf and was looking as if he was ready to charge when, before I knew it, Seth shifts and stands himself protectively in front of Leah and I growling at Jacob in warning.
Leah tightened her grip on me in reassurance which caused Jacob to growl back and crouch in preference for attack. This caused Seth to go on the defensive and crouch in preference to counter Jacob's attack. They both were about to leap at each other when Sam decided to interfere again.
"Jacob! Calm down and head back to Emily's for the meeting. The rest of us will meet you there, now go!", he ordered in what must have been the alpha's voice do to how much strain I could see Jacob's body was under in trying to oppose it. I could see him struggle some more, looking as if he would try to stay before he turned and disappeared into the forest towards Emily's.
Sam signaled for Paul to fallow him and watched as the two disappeared before turning back towards us.
"Have Seth turn back and get some clothes on before the three of you come to Emily's for a pack meeting. It seems the red headed leech has brought a friend this time because we have found a new sent lingering around our territory besides hers and they seem to be venturing a little father into our territory each time. We need to make a plan to trap and dispose of them before they start killing any of our people.", was all he said before getting into Jacob's truck and leaving to Emily's.
The three of us watched as the truck disappeared down the street before we called for Sue to get Seth some cloths. She quickly ran out of the house holding a pair of shorts and a white tee and handed them to Seth, who hid behind a tree to shift back.
"You kids really need to stop with how much clothes you destroy, at least try to take off your pants before shifting. I've already made three runs to Port Angeles in the last two months for clothes and really don't want to have to go a fourth time already.", she sighed while giving us each a hug before going back into the house.
"Oh, and Bella, because the meeting might run a little long I took the liberty of calling Charlie and asked if you could stay here for the night. He said it was fine so don't worry about your truck and just come back when it's over. Dinner will be at nine, even though I'm sure Emily will feed you all there, just try to be back by then.", was the last she said before closing the door.
It was only five right now but we knew base on past experience that the meeting would and will last longer than necessary and silently agreed to try and get back as soon as possible before getting back in the car and heading to Emily's.
(Time Skip)
As expected the meeting lasted far longer than needed with everyone arguing about the vampires in the area and Jacob making a scene about how much he could protect me and how I refuse to give him a chance when I was willing to give "that blood sucking leech", his words not mine, all the time in the world. It was all beginning to become so predictable, to the point where Seth, Leah and I all made a game out of who can guess what the others will say next correctly. Anyway, the point is we didn't get back until around ten-thirty.
Upon us walking through the door we were greeted with a pissed off looking Sue. And if you knew anything about that women, it's that you don't want to see her when she's mad. She ends up being like a protective mama bear and angry oxen combined as she fires off questions while staring at you with a look that sets your stomach on fire. All three of us freeze where we stand and begin to look anywhere but at her.
"When I told you all to try to make it back by nine I figured you'd be a few minutes late, with half hour to forty-five minutes being the latest, BUT AN HOUR AND A HALF! You all are still in high school, which you have to go to tomorrow, and have to be in bed to wake up for! What does Sam think he's doing?! And I bet he wants the two of you to go patrolling tomorrow, doesn't he now how much energy that takes? And while we are on this did you even eat? I bet they where so worried about keeping you out late over this meeting that they didn't even feed you and now your plates are all cold!"
She continued to rapidly fire questions at us while looking us over. I had to finally elbow Leah to get her to stop Sue so we could get a word in before she gets herself sick from worrying too much.
"Mom, stop okay. The reason we got back so late is because everyone kept getting distracted at the meeting which caused it to run over time. We did eat so you can stop with trying to check our stomachs for grumbling sounds and signs of starvation. Yes, we know we have school tomorrow and yes, I'm sure Sam knows how much energy it take to do patrols, seeing as he has to do them too. Now will you stop worrying so much, we're fine.", she finished while giving her mother a hug and stepping a side so Seth and I could do the same.
As soon as we stepped away from her she looked each of us in the eye and ask one more time,"Are you sure you all are alright?", and we all answered as one,"Yes." she then gave us each a kiss before going to her room for the night. We watch her go to her room before we each left to our own with me going with Leah to her room.
"I see Sue is still the same as ever. Always worried about her little babies.", I laughed a little at the joke and receive a gentle punch in the arm from Leah.
"Ouch! what was that for?" I continued the joke which caused Leah to laugh with me.
"Oh stop it! You know that didn't hurt. Now stop playing around and go to sleep, as mom said, we have school in the morning." she said while laying down on her bed.
"Man, I hate school. The only reason I can still make it through is because Angela and Ben. I wish you and Seth could be there then maybe it wouldn't be so bad with the four of us there together." I finished somberly before tuning off the lights and falling asleep in my own bed.
(Time Skip)
It's been a week now since the meeting with the pack and everything seems to be calming down and going back to normal. This all would be fine if it wasn't for how Jacob has been acting lately. For even though it seems as if he has taken Leah's advice to heart in giving me space, I also get the feeling that he's planning something. He no longer pesters me about giving him a chance when I see him, which was a rarity these days, and when I did it was always form a far and he would give me a look that said he knew a secret before sending me a smile, that would send a shiver down my spine, and continue on his way.
I was taking a walk through the forest as a way to help myself calm down after waking up from another nightmare; which I seem to have on a regular bases ever since the Cullens left, and they would always contain the same thing.
(Bella's Dream)
I was be surrounded by black smoke which continued to close in on me, smothering the air out of my lungs. I could feel myself approach unconsciousness when suddenly I was being surrounded by bright white light, that banished the smoke and released me from its grasp. I then had to shield my eyes to help them adjust to the brightness and after a while I looked up and seen the Cullens. They were all standing in font of me with happy smiles; then suddenly, all the smiles turn into disgusted frowns and I had to watch as one by one they all disappear until only he was left.
"Edward...? Edward, wait! I don't want to be left alone, please take me with you. Edward, don't leave me, please! Edward!", I would call and plead as I tried to run to him, not wishing to be abandoned again, but no matter how fast or how long I ran I could never reach him.
Finally I would collapse back to the ground, exhausted, and unable to get back up do to my body becoming as heavy as lead. He would then flash in front of me and kneel down to lift up my head so I could look into his eyes. Eyes that I expected to be their normal honey golden color were now pitch black, coldly staring back at me with feelings of hate, disgust, and hunger. I could feel myself start to shake in fear which soon turned to terror when he showed me a malicious grin before repeating the words that have been haunting me since he left me in the forest, "You must remember my dear Bella, you were never anything more than a pet. A human toy, something that can be discarded and thrown away once their owner no long has any use for it. And believe me, those mutts, just as we have, will leave you once they realize how useless and broken you really are so enjoy their company while you still can." he said before standing up and letting my head fall back onto the ground.
"Because it won't last long.", was the last thing he said before disappearing and I was once again plunged into total darkness with the smoke coming back thicker than ever; burning my insides every time I took a breath. I would just be on the brink of unconsciousness again when I would wake up.
(End of Dream)
I was broken out my thoughts by the sound of a twig snapping. Looking around in fear of it being Victoria, I turn around at the feeling of someone watching me, only to be greeted with the sight of Jacob standing behind me. Letting out a sigh of relief I begin making my way back to Leah's before starting to talk, "Damn Jake, you almost gave me a heart attack there. What are you even doing out here?" I asked but got no answer. All he did was give me that strange look of his again before making his way towards me.
I instantly took a step back from him getting the feeling that something terrible was about to happen.
"Ja, Jake, seriously wh, what are you doing out here? I thought you were on patrol around the treaty line with Paul."
"I was, we just finished and now Leah and Quil are on watch." he replied, but instead of stopping, he just continued after me until he had me backed up against a tree.
"What's wrong, Jake?", I asked, my voice shaking as fear took hold of me.
"Oh nothing's wrong my sweet Bella.", he cooed softly while stroking my hair, and instantly I was reminded of all those time with Edward when he was punishing me for disobeying him.
I immediately began to tremble in terror of what he may do. It was all coming back to me: the possessiveness, the quick to anger, the strange looks that held a secret promise. I've been so caught up in Victoria and everything else that I had somehow completely ignored how obsessed Jacob has become with me. And what's worse is I'm out here alone with him and pined against a tree. Based on the hungry, lustful look in his eyes I had a good idea of where this was headed if I didn't do something and immediately began squirming and pleading.
"Please Jacob don't do this.", I begged while trying to shove him away but he didn't even shift instead he seemed to have moved closer; pressing his body even further into mine.
"Do what Bella?" he countered while he began licking and kissing my neck and shoulder. I could feel panic and terror fill me and flood my system with adrenalin giving more strength to fight back. But all my struggling steam to do was aggravate him, causing him to bite down roughly on my shoulder. Crying out in pain I start struggling even more, punching and shoving at him to try and get him off, but it seemed to only make him more determined in his actions. I try once again to plead with him, to reach the friend I once had, who would protect me from anything and comfort me when I was sad.
"Jake please! Stop! I don't want...!" but my cry was cut off by him grabbing my neck and yanking my face closer to his before he smashed his lips onto mine; kissing me roughly and using so much force that I felt it when our teeth clinked. The kiss soon turned from rough and clumsy to hungry and forceful with him using his tongue to force his way into my mouth and shove it so far down my throat that I began to gag. He seemed to like this way of kissing and decided to continue.
This lasted for what seemed like hours but was really only a couple minutes and I was starting to run low on air supply. I began to panic, thinking that he would actually go so far as to kill me to satisfy his abusive hunger, so I started grabbing at his face to try and pry it away from mine, but I was unsuccessful. Instead it seems that I only succeeded in making him tighten his grip on me. It was now so tight that escape was no longer even a possibility. I was just about to pass out from the lack of air when he finally decided to break the kiss.
Finally able to breath I galloped down a hand full of precious breaths before resuming my struggle, using every last ounce of strength I could summon up. This seemed to aggravate him enough to get him to temporarily halt what he was doing.
Snapping his head up from my neck, where he had resumed his earlier licking and sucking, he stared back at me with angry eyes before growling, "I'm done kidding around Bella. You've been stringing me around for years; saying how much I mean to you, running to me any time you needed comfort, and then going back to that leech Edward, saying how much you love him and I'm sick of it! You were always meant to be mine! And now it's about time I claim what's rightfully belongs to me." he finished while ripping my shirt and tarring my pants off, leaving me in only my underwear and bra.
He then smashed his lips back onto mine and began dragging his hand up my thigh, and with each second he would get closer and closer to his goal. I instantly began to cry silent tears and let them fall down my face as I felt him rip my underwear off my body. I began shaking as I heard the sound of him undoing his zipper and when I felt the bare skin of his legs touch mine I knew it was over.
'He was really going to do this to me. Jake, my best friend since childhood was really about to rape me.' My body became limp, my mind numb and I could feel as some more of what little sanity I had vanished and I began to shut down. I could no longer think or feel anything, I was completely numb to everything. Well at least I thought so before I felt the agonizing pain between my legs because of him forcing himself inside without any care for proper lubrication and tearing the tissue inside.
And for the next twenty minutes I suffered through the pain of him forcing himself onto me, unable to do anything but whimper and groan in pain because of his lips continued assault on mine. His thrusting soon turned into short, hard jerks until finally he finished, releasing himself inside me. Finally spent and having reached his goal I watched Jacob with cold, dead eyes as he pulled out and relinquished his hold on me. With no longer being held up by him I simply crumbled to my knees and continued to stare up at him. Watching as he pulled up his pants and redid the zipper and button I seen as he turned around with a huge boyish grin on his face before he seen me and it turned into a horrified and grief stricken expression.
"Oh...oh god, Bella, I'm sorry! I didn't...I don't...Jesus what's wrong with me?! How could I just rape my best friend like that?!" he questioned and started passing back and forth in front of me while pulling on his hair.
"It was just,... I've been in love with you since, forever and when you started dating that leech I just,... got so angry. He was always hurting you,... and I was the one you always ran to for comfort. I just,...I just wanted to show you... that I was the better choice. But you would never give me the time of day and it made me even angrier. Then they left and you sill wouldn't give me a chance. I just, I just wanted to prove that I was the better choice,... that I could love you... protect you better than that blood sucking leech. I just didn't,...God, I didn't mean to hurt you Bells, I swear. I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry." I listened as he continued to repeat himself as if it would erase what he did.
Tired of hearing him apologize for doing something I know he enjoyed far to much to mean those apologies I stood up shakily and looked at him with eyes that displayed the amount of damage he has caused. They must have been terrifying because as soon as he looked into them his face turned pale and his eyes grew wide in horror, all this making it seem as if he had seen his own death and it was in one of the most agonizing ways possible. Staring at him a little longer I blinked before stating in a voice so calm that you would never know I'd just been through one of the most traumatizing experience of my life.
"Jacob, what you have just done tonight is something unforgivable, and no matter what you say or do you can never repay or make up for what you have taken. I hate you Jacob Black and hope you burn in hell." I finished before stumbling my way back to the Clearwaters', leaving Jacob in the forest without a second glance.
The sun was just beginning to rise when I finally made it back the the Clearwaters' house. Knowing that everyone was still a sleep and that Leah had most likely already returned from patrolling I decided to simply take a shower. While in the shower I turned the water to near scolding and just let it pore over me, burning the feeling of Jacob off my body. I then commenced with scrubbing my body raw. Once I was done I got out and dried off and proceeded back to Leah's room for some new clothes. Finally cleaned and dressed I climbed back into bed, wrapped myself up in a blanket and waited for the others to wake up so I could go home and just sleep and try to forget.
(Time Skip)
It's been three weeks since I've been to the reservation and the same time since the Jacob incident. I've been waking up early in the mornings recently and been throwing up for no apparent reason so I'm on my way to the drug store to buy a pregnancy test. Though I'm hoping it's not what I think it is I still have to check to be certain. But really what are the odds that the first time I've ever had sex would also be the time I get pregnant?
I had just got back from the drug mart and immediately made my way to my bathroom to take the test. I then waited the the two to three minutes for the results and couldn't believe what I seen. I was pregnant. I started to panic.
'How could this be?! I mean not only was it my first time but it was nonconsensual and I'm not even out of high school yet! I can't take care of this baby, I don't even have myself together yet. And what about the way it was conserved? I hate what Jacob did and everything that had to do with the incident, I don't want to be one of those mothers who end up treating their kid horribly because I hated how they were conserved.' I began to pace around my room as I thought about what I should do, then I remembered the reason I started spending so much time on the reservation in the first place.
"Victoria," I whispered to myself.
'Shit, I had nearly forgotten about her and she will most likely try to kill me which will lead to the death of the baby. And if not that then all the stress I will be placed under will.' I let out a quiet sigh in both sadness and relief of what I had decided to do. 'Well at least this way I won't either kill it or leave it practically orphaned if Victoria gets to me.' I finished thinking before I started making plans on how to come up with the money for the abortion.
I then made my way down stairs and to the kitchen to look through the unemployment section in the paper and began to make some calls. I ended up taking two jobs both in Port Angeles. The first was working as a librarian in a book store from six in the evening until nine at night Fridays and Saturdays, while the second is working at a convenience store from five in the evening until nine at night Mondays, Tuesdays, and Thursdays. They both were during after school hours and paid decent wages so I was pretty satisfied. I started my first day as a librarian tomorrow after school so I had to make sure all my homework gets done on time so I don't fall behind.
Satisfied with what I had accomplished today I head back to my room to spend the rest of the day watching you tube videos.
(Time Skip)
I've now been working for nearly two months and have already made over half of the money for the abortion but have found I no longer have any need of it. No, instead I miscarried do to what Black did to me having caused so much damage that I had became unable to carry a child and ended up losing it. I could feel as more of myself broke away when the doctor told me the news and it just made me despise him even more. I just continue to find more things to add to the list of reasons why I wish to see Jacob black burn in hell. Not only has he stolen my innocence, betray my trust, and give me a child I had no other choice then get rid of do to my circumstances, but he also took away the ability for me to have any children of my own in the future if I'd survive this thing with Victoria. Besides her showing up and torturing me I really don't think my life could get any worse.
I've already fallen into a routine schedule that others can use as a clock. Consisting of waking up, going to school, coming home to do homework, going to work, coming home to cook dinner and finally going to sleep. I tend to stick closely to this routine and rarely stray from it to socialize.
Today I'm going to Seattle with Angela and Ben to see a new movie that had just came out. Normally I wouldn't do this but Angela has been worrying about how distant I've been getting and had demanded I go with them to the movies or she would drag me to La Push. Likely to say, it was a no brainier which I preferred out of the two so here I am getting ready for her to pick me up.
Angela had just pulled up and I was getting ready to get in the car when I noticed two extra figures in the car. Getting closer I instantly recognized them as Seth and Leah and immediately stiffened up. Getting into the car I made sure to keep myself pressed up as closely as possible to the door and my eyes on anything but them.
We have only been in the car together for twenty minutes and I already felt as if I was going to go crazy with how much they were staring. Finally fed up with it all I turned towards them and snapped,"What?!"
I watched as they both gave a little start at how I snapped at them before they calmed again and began to shoot looks between each other and finally settling on Leah being their spokes person.
"Bella, we've really missed you down on the reservation and was wondering when or if you ever plan to come back. Mom has been missing you as well and has been acting more worried than ever giving herself unnecessary stress.", She finished while reaching her arm out to try and give me a hug, but I flinched away.
Noticing my flinch she instantly pulled away and shot me a sympathetic look confirming my fears. 'They knew.' I quickly turned my head to look out the window in shame. 'Of course they would know, any time they shift they are able to see into each others' minds so why would I think any different. They were probably disgusted by what they seen and think of me as broken goods. Well they wouldn't be wrong, I am broken and I wouldn't hold them to anything if they decided I was no longer fit to be around them once this thing with Victoria was over.'
"Bella?"
I was broken from my thoughts by someone calling me, I turned around and found it to be Seth who spoke.
"You know we don't think any less of you because of what happened, right? We know it wasn't your fault and we have already taken care of that bastard so you don't have to worry about him anymore." he finished with one of his quirky smiles and a punch into his own hand to emphasize how he had "taken care of" the bastard.
''Ya Bella, you should know better and that we would never think less of you because of something like this. We're family remember and family sticks together no matter what." Leah added and finished with her own smile and pose; hers consisting of her flexing her right arm muscles and grabbing her bicep with her left hand.
We all stared at each other for a moment before busting out in laughter. We eventually settled down and I thanked them for their support.
"Thanks guys, I really needed to hear that."
"You're welcome, now are you going to start coming back to the Rez' now? Mom really does miss you and its not the same without you." Leah asked while sending me a hopeful look.
"Leah, you know that with working, school and cooking dinner for me and Charlie it would be hard to find any time to go down there just to spend time with you guys and goof around." I explained and watched as they both deflated a little bit. I then decided to put them out their misery and finished the rest of my train of thought.
"But,...I guess I could make time to come down during the weekends to spend time with you guys." I finished and watched as both their faces lit up like a child being given a cookie.
"Ya!"
"Woo whoo!"
"Nice!", Leah and Seth cheered while sharing a high five.
"I've gotta call Mom and tell her the news, she'll be so excited." Leah chimed happily while flipped out her phone.
"Hello?... Mom?... She said yes Mom!...This weekend...No, she said she will try to make it every weekend...Ya, I'll ask her...Okay Mom, love you too. Bye." as I listened to Leah's conversation with her mom I could see Angela smiling in the mirror and knew she had planned this entire thing on purpose. 'That sneaky fox, she knew that they could cheer me up and get me to enjoy myself. I'll have to repay her someday.'
"Bella?"
I was once again broken from my thoughts by someone calling me, only this time it was Leah instead of Seth.
"What is it Leah?", I asked turning back towards her.
"Well, um Bella, mom wants to know if, when you come to visit this weekend, would you want to spend the night since you haven't stayed over in such a long time?", Leah nervously asked while keeping her eyes trained on her hands.
Upon hearing the question I immediately froze in my seat. 'Me staying at the reservation overnight? Somewhere closer to Jacob and where he could easily get to me if he chooses. I know they said that they had taken care of him but he is a member of the pack and the chief's son so he can't very well get banned form pack meetings which I would have to go to because it concerns me. And even without that while I'm really confident that Leah and Seth's opinion of me hasn't changed because of what they seen I'm not so sure about the rest of the pack.'I quickly cut myself off from those thoughts knowing that all they will lead to is unnecessary stress.
I went to reply to her question when I was quickly cut off by an unknowing Seth.
"It's alright Bella, you don't have to. We understand that it may be too soon to do something like that right now. We just thought because it's been such a long time..." he cut himself off do to nerves. Taking this as my chance to clear the air before we end up making everyone in the car depressed I let out a small chuckle, catching their attention, before continuing,"I don't mind spending the night when I come to visit, it would be nice to see Sue again and to hang out with you two cracking jokes like before."
"Really Bella? Are you sure you'll be fine with it, because you know we will understand if your not ready." Leah asked with a worried look on her face reminding me a lot of Sue when she's in mama bear mode.
"Ya, I'm sure Leah. The only thing I'm worried about is if Jacob will become a problem during meetings and what everyone else thinks about what happened." I confessed with a shrug and a sheepish smile.
"That's it? Really?", Leah persisted
"Yes, really." I laughed at the flabbergasted look on her face.
"Woo whoo, two for two we're on a roll."Seth cheered in happiness causing all of us to laugh at his antics. Our celebrating was cut short with Angela telling us we've arrived at our destination.
"Alright we're here, now everyone get out of my car.", she joked as she turned the ignition off. We all then made our way to the ticket selling booth to buy our tickets for the movie before heading into the theater.
(Time Skip)
Angela had just dropped me off a home from the movies when I got a voice mail message from Charlie saying how he was working late again and to not bother with making dinner. 'I guess Seth wasn't kidding around when he said it was a two for two day.' I thought to myself as I got ready for bed. Climbing in and making myself comfortable I turned the lights off and instantly felt the lour of sleep hook me the moment my head touched the pillow, exhausted form all today's excitement. The last thought I had before falling pry to sleep was 'I hope nothing happens to rune my contentment for the rest of the week.' then I was out like a light not to be relit until morning.
