"Only now it had become indispensable to him to have her face pressed close to him; he could never let her go again. He could never let her head go away from the close clutch of his arm. He wanted to remain like that for ever, with his heart hurting him in a pain that was also life to him."
DH Lawrence
Disclaimer: I'm still broke, which proves I don't own the twilight characters.
Edward's POV
I squeezed onto Bella's hand. I could bare leaving her side anymore. A small blue bucket lay next to her foot, but so far she managed to miss it everytime. She hadn't been able to keep anything down lately, which only deepened my worry.
I had never wanted to see my love in so much pain.
She refused to let us get rid of the monster within her. I tried to refrain from using the word monster, out loud or even in my mind. I sighed giving her a comforting squeeze. Her face was paler than normal, and more sunken in. She lifted her now dull eyes up to meet mine.
I tried to mask my frown, she looked horrid to say the least. Her chest gave a violent heave as she threw up once more. It was pure liquid now, mixed with blood. It only served to spark my thirst and sadness. The huge bulge beneath her shirt moved, she winced but managed to look content with all that was happening. Her hands rested upon her stomach protectively.
I stood up abruptly as if I was going to leave but instead sat back down. The walls seemed to close in on me, and I knew it was only my imagination. Bella's pulse was slow, and the blood barely flushed beneath her skin anymore. Her touch felt hotter, but not in a comforting way.
I reached out flicking the hair away from her face. I couldn't figure out a way to save her. My house was divided now, and there was nothing I could do about it. Most of them protected her, and they didn't understand that it was killing me in the process. I gulped down unneeded air before pulling her into my lap. I rubbed her lower back in attempt to comfort her.
Bella weakly smiled at me, but it didn't touch her eyes. She looked dead already, and that was the worst part.
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