11.07.2009, edited 02.10.2010
Chapter 3 – Sameru
(To awaken)
Saturday 15th October 2011
11:40pm
Then he answered my question, and it was the worst answer I could have imagined… ever…
"Why will he be weaker…?" Shigure replied to Kyo's question, looking at me, and stroking my cheek as I fell into a forced slumber from the drugs. "Because he is going to be at the main house for the weekend…"
After that, my entire world seemed that little bit darker as I sank into slumber...
"Still, Shigure, you didn't need to drug him! A white lie would have been sufficient enough to bring him here – you know that!"
I awoke to hear Hatori's disapproving tones rebuking someone – Shigure…
… So he really had taken me back to the main house…
… Why though…?
"But Ha'ri! That would be no fun!" The Inu said in his annoyingly cheerful voice, and I couldn't help but want to get up and leap at his throat… but I stopped myself just in time, knowing as soon as they realised that I was awake they would shut up and not mention a thing about what was to come – and I desperately wanted to know why I was here – because it was obviously not for a good reason... no, that was all too clear...
"Shigure. Shut up." Hatori's voice had gone to his most serious tone now, and I could almost imagine Shigure cowering away from him, a thought that made me smile to myself… "This isn't a game you know!"
"Oh, but Ha'ri, to me, and to dear Akito-sama, Yuki's life is a game… he is but a pawn in our story, a way for me to make Akito jealous of my having him in my possession, then to please when I let Yuki visit… you don't know how many times I've 'saved' Yuki from visiting Akito… even if it is for the purpose for my 'sick' games…"
So what? Now he was claiming to have been 'saving me'? The bastard…
And Hatori appeared to agree with me.
"Stop it Shigure, and get out. You are not allowed anywhere near the main house while Yuki is here, got it?"
"Sure, sure Ha'ri!" Shigure 'sing-sang-ed' as he left the room, leaving me alone with the serious Doctor, and for once, peace and quiet… "I wouldn't want to be near here anyway when he returns!"
"Yuki, come on, you can wake up now." Hatori didn't even bother trying to shake me – did that mean that he knew I had been awake…? "He's gone..."
"W… w…. why am I here Hatori…? W… why did Shigure… drug me…?" As I spoke I could barely get the words out of my mouth, they were so numb from the drugs. But somehow they were coherent enough for Hatori to understand what I was trying to say.
"Because… well Yuki…" He looked away, uncomfortable, and I suddenly got a sinking feeling in my stomach… "Akito… well he…"
"He wants me back doesn't he…?"
The worst possibility in the world – and it had happened to me. To lose my freedom after four blissful years of it… I knew it would destroy me… there was no way my spirit could take any time with Akito… let alone a lifetime of servitude to him…
"Back…? No, no Yuki – he doesn't want you to reside permanently in the main house… at least not yet! H-he just wants you to stay with him for the weekend… and I'm quoting here, okay. 'So he remembers who he truly is…' something along those lines at least…"
So what? Even if it were only for a few days, it would still have the same affect upon me… and I doubt even Miss Honda could cure the scars a nineteen year old could bear upon me… For even as I had grown slightly older, he had grown ten thousand times stronger...
"D… does he… does he know that… that I'm h… here…?" This time the stuttering wasn't from the drug, but from my fear ebbing through me, my imagination already preparing my body and emotions for the worst.
"Yes… he almost two days over a day since you were drugged... Akito-sama's been furious about it... I can hold him off until you are ready Yuki… you don't have to go now…"
"No. I… I think it's best if… I think it is best if I… if I go now… so that he doesn't get… even angrier…"
"Are you really sure Yuki…? He… he's in a bad mood now…"
"I'm sure Hatori." I looked at Hatori straight in the eye as I was speaking… because I knew I had to do this now… because it didn't matter when I arrived Akito's – the results would still be the same… they always had been the same and always will be… so what's the point in fighting the inevitable…? I've never seen the point in it… "Just let me go to him… so I can get it all over and done with…"
"I'll be waiting for you." You know, every time I had to go to see Akito, he would always say those words, as if he would drop everything just by knowing that I could get hurt… but I suppose after a life of servitude to the Sohma's, he had gained a second sight to all the goings on of the family.
And ever since that first attack upon me, when it had been up to him to patch me up, he had always been there for me, waiting in the shadows to vanquish the darkness that lay deep inside me…
… The darkness that Akito had created for me…
"Thank you Hatori… I… I'll be careful… or at least try to be…"
Because it didn't matter how careful I was, if Akito was angry, then things were doomed to go wrong from the very beginning… and I knew that better than anybody…
"Very well Yuki…" Hatori followed me to the door, but didn't go any further than there, leaving me to make the walk to Akito's chambers alone, and terrified.
I had always feared Akito… ever since that moment when I first saw him, when I wept at his sight… ever since then I have been at his mercy…
There are people at school, councillors who come in to talk to the class, saying how if any of you are abused then you need to speak out… but how can that be possible…?
Akito's dominion over us comes from the curse; he's god, and we can't live without him – literally. If he was taken away or anything we wouldn't be able to survive – we'd go insane without our god there. So that is why we let Akito do these things without outsiders finding out – after all, if one secret of our family was revealed, who is to say that all are secret wouldn't be discovered…?
So that is why we remain silent, not only to protect him, but to protect all of us as well – to protect us from the humans he always told us were evil.
"Who are you, what do you want?" A voice called from the other side of the front door as I knocked upon it.
"I… my n… name I… is Y… Yuki Sohma… I… I'm here to see A… Akito-sama…" All of a sudden my nerves all came back; as if they knew Akito wasn't far away.
"Very well," The cut voice replied opening the door before walking down the corridor without looking at me, stopping briefly, indicating for me to follow her. "This way. Akito-sama is expecting you… be careful…"
I barely caught the last part of the woman's sentence, but I took her advice to heart, and knew that I would defiantly carry it out – even if there was no hope that he wouldn't get violent, I could at least try not to get too seriously hurt, even if it were just so Hatori didn't have to waste any more medical supplies…
"Akito-sama," The woman had poked her head around the door, and began to talk to Akito. "Yuki-san is here… do you want him to come in now…?"
"Yes." As soon as Akito spoke I could feel my body freeze up, and all rational thoughts were flown out of my mind as I leant against the wall for support, my head feeling faint. "Send him in… immediately…"
As I opened the door and walked into Akito's chamber, the air suddenly went cold as I faced the figment of my nightmares… my living nightmares…
