Ciel's POV:
After Sebastian puts me into my night clothes he sits me on the bed and tucks me in; before he leaves the bed side he says "Ciel if there is something that is bugging you or causing this sudden change of attitude in you I will gladly listen to you if you need to talk about it. I will understand no matter what the case might be," I look up and meet his wanting red eyes and I say "Well..." Sebastian says "You can tell me anything as I will not judge you; you can trust me." Looking away from Sebastian I start "I've been having these dreams for awhile and most of them are based on my past as a human, almost as if my past is haunting me trying to force me to remember every single detail of the past." When I look up Sebastian has a sympathetic expression and he sits beside me and says "You just need to believe they are just dreams, I would guess the only way to get rid of these nightmares are to either concur them or distract yourself from the fear." I ask "Distract me how?" I wonder what exactly he means by distracting me because I am well aware how the concurring works and I'm not sure if I'm capable of that as just the thought of it gives me chills. "How about something like this," Sebastian says with a devious smirk as he takes me slightly stroking the back of my head and leans in; whoa whoa whoa am I having another dream like that one?
I look at him with wide eyes not saying a thing, not moving a muscle, not reacting at all just looking at him with wide eyes not able to do much more. Closing my eyes and shaking my head I say "Am I dreaming or is this all real?" Sebastian says "I believe this is real life and not a dream." My heart is beating super fast thanks to that surprise that... that I kinda like. I didn't even realize my cheeks are bright red with blush and I say "Well um well yeah that's um that'll um," Sebastian interrupts my stuttering mess and says "I'm pretty sure that was a yes I heard a yes through some of that but it's hard to say through your embarrassed stuttering." I scowl and reply coldly "Well what do you expect you took me by surprise there!" He smirks once again and says "See it's working for a minute or so you weren't even thinking of the dreams just thinking of my actions." I'm taken back he is right the only thing in my mind for a second there was Sebastian not those dreams but now that he reminded me! "You're right I couldn't really think of anything else thanks to that," Sebastian says "Well you should get some rest young master as I'm sure you're tired good night," Before he leaves I spat out "Wait!" and grab at the cuff of his sleeve but not meeting his eyes as I'm not sure if I regret my moves. "What is it young master?" I reply "Well... could you stay in here until I fall asleep?" He shows a devious grin and says "Of course my lord."
He is sitting in a chair beside the bed and I refuse to look his way; I know I was the one wanting him to stay in here but... now I just feel awkward. I'm not tired at all and in fact I don't want to sleep as I will just end up with yet another dream; I'd hate to know what it'd be like thanks to the recent events that might influence the dream. Maybe if I just pretend to fall asleep... but do I really want him to leave; god I feel like such a mess I just want it all gone. "Are you having trouble falling asleep young master?" Sebastian asks pulling me from my own mind and I say "Well... yes I am," I sit up and I'm looking at my feet not saying a thing as I wait for some sort of response from Sebastian. "Maybe I can help you; would you like entertainment until you're tired, or maybe just some company, anything you'd like young master I can do as I'm at your will." What exactly does he mean by entertainment! Taking in a deep breath I manage out the answer I didn't want to say "No I will be fine Sebastian you can leave now." He smirks and replies "I can tell you're lying its way to obvious for even a regular human could tell your lying." Damn it. "From what I can tell what you would want right now would probably just some attention and the love you never got as a child, you don't want to be mature and grown up do you Ciel you don't have to I'm the only one here." He puts an arm around me causing me to be tense for a split second until it sinks in and I do the only thing I can do; accept it. I lie against Sebastian and stuff my head in his shoulder not saying a word; I really don't care what he thinks right now I just feel so lost and confused this is what I truly need.
We sat there for what felt like hours not saying a word just sitting there; absorbing the situation and the newly felt feelings that must be going through the both of us, why else would he be so kind to me even if he is my eternal butler. "Ciel I just want you to know that I care for you and I have great feelings for you; I would do anything for you even if you don't want it. I never want to see your sea blue eye filled with sadness and fear. I never want to see your life fade from your pale body as that would kill me myself, I want you to know that I have and always will love you." My heart feels as if it skips a beat and it's now hammering inside my chest, so I was right there is some sort of feelings going in between us but I really don't mind all that much. Hesitating for a moment I simply reply "I love you too Sebastian." That feels so strange and foreign on my tongue; I never thought I'd see the day I say 'I love you' to my butler. After that I am just sitting there in Sebastian's arms for hours getting pecks and pet talk once and awhile from Sebastian. Not long after I begin to feel myself drift off into sleep; oh no not again, well this time is different at least I have Sebastian with me.
I wake up with tears fighting their way to escape my eyes; I find myself in Sebastian's arms who is fast asleep and so I just sit there in his arms thinking over the horrific dream that I just had. Blinking away the tears I try and cuddle up just a bit closer to him, I want his comfort right now. I want his caring words to lull me to sleep, I want him to give me a kiss on my forehead, I want to hear the words 'I love you' I feel so alone. I sit there for awhile until it was daytime once again and when Sebastian woke up our eyes meet and he gives me a sympathetic smile and says "Good morning Ciel." I'm not sure if I'm glad or not that he avoided the situation, it's pretty obvious why I have tear stains all over my face. It's the same as always those dreams are haunting me, this time was no different even if I do have Sebastian with me. "Would you like me to go prepare you some breakfast young master?" Sebastian asks and I just answer with a shrug. "Hey," Sebastian says coming over to my side and takes me by the chin saying "No need to be tired and grumpy let's start the day off good," He gives me a kiss on the lips which we quickly pull into and after a little while we release Sebastian says "I hope that put you in a better mood young master," Rolling my eyes I say "Whatever, and yes I guess I'd like some food or something."
After eating the food Sebastian made for me I was left with nothing to do, looks like it has gone back to normal just me sitting around and Sebastian doing chores. I am sitting on the living room couch staring at the ceiling when I hear Sebastian enter the room. "I'm bored Sebastian," I complain hoping to get his attention and he replies "What do you want me to do?" In an un-amused tone I say "Entertain me I don't care how just a little entertainment." He comes over to my side and says "Yes my lord," He sits on the couch beside me and when I look to him we lean into a kiss; I see where he is going with this. Sebastian scoots me onto his lap and we continue the deep kiss not taking very many breaths. While kissing Sebastian's hands are traveling up and down my body stroking at my thighs and teasing me. After that it was all a daze I barely remember much but I do feel the after effect of it, this is like a punch in the face. I just did it with my butler, what the hell is wrong with me?
Yeah there the end of chapter 3, sorry that i didn't write anything that some of you might've been expecting I'm just to innocent and it's way to awkward to write. I might write some of that later *-*~Roxy 3
