That evening, I practiced and practiced. At one point, I even started going up and down the stairs! I fell horribly...and was mocked a second time by a suddenly awake Vriska. Then for the next hour after that, I was just laying there in a heap of pain, but I kept trying! Never once had I been so driven to accomplish anything. Not even before I broke my legs in the first place! This was going to happen, no matter what anyone had said!
Later, and after my little rescue plan, I managed to contact Jade! I thought it was going great at first! But then I realized that I had accidentally killed someone very important to her without meaning to. It was an awful outcome, and I think Jade was starting to dislike me a lot for it. That made me sad. But even after all of that, even after I had run away from best bro Gamzee, he still came up to me from behind, and put his hand on my shoulder to make me feel better.
"You don't...motherfuckin' look so good Tav." He coughed a little in between his words, maybe because he was still a little upset, but he made a good notion to make it seem as though nothing happened.
"Oh...hey Gamzee..." I stuttered. "Yeah, I think I made a horrible mistake."
"Why is that brother? What's all up in your emotional tear ducts this time? You know I'm always here to be in and a part of your miraculous recovery." I looked at him, and he was smiling at me, but his eyes seemed kind of...sadder than usual.
"I just contacted Jade after trying to save her life in the past, and well, it didn't turn out the way I wanted it to." I explained.
"Then how did it go?" Gamzee asked.
"Well, I told her what I did, and...I guess I accidentally killed one of her cultural protectors. I don't think she'll ever like me now after this blow, and, I'm pretty sure that I overdid it in the whole confidence thing..." My face was frowning...and gamzee looked at me for a long moment, registering why I was so sad about the situation at hand. He still didn't fail to come up with another smile though. With his pointer finger, he rubbed a little bit of make up off of his cheek, and scrapped it over my lips to create a painted smile. All I could do after that was look at him funny.
"You look so much better now Tavros! All smiling! When you can't up and motherfuckin' smile for real anymore, you just rub some color goop all over your face and make up one of your own! It's easy!"
I laughed a little. He was right, I had to keep a smile on my face! That way, my sadness would be slightly less fake! Wait...but then, what about Gamzee? Why did he always wear make believe smiles? Could it be that he was sad too? I guess I felt it was unnecessary to ask him that, no matter how curious I was getting. So I didn't.
"Gamzee?" I said, this time with a realer grin.
"Yeah bro?"
"You're the coolest troll I know..."
~And here's where things get a little bit different. Tavros, who has been the main character throughout the story so far, is now going to switch rolls. From this point on, at least till the annoying author says so, we will be seeing from Gamzee's perspective. The story, will switch. Tavros: Be Gamzee~
He was like a motherfuckin moon beam! I could not believe how bright his face was gettin to me now. What a miracle I thought he was. Straight up motherfuckin MIRACLES. Bro was like a grub, lookin' up at me with those sweet little eyes. But nah, a kick ass bull like him wouldn't wanna be with a sorry assed clown like me right? No no, I couldn't doubt, at that moment, I thought that anything was possible! At that moment...I was one with that wicked sneeze the other trolls up and called soper slime brother. Mixed up with its motherfuckin TOXINS. It wasn't the slime talking though when I up and started gettin those flushed feelings for the fairy believer. I felt them straight from the bottom of my inner boom box. It was TRUE brother. I wanted him to LOVE me. I wanted to up and share my entire LIFE with him. But why didn't I do anything about it? Why didn't I just do something about it right a-motherfuckin-way? It's cause I was A STONED ASS MOTHERFUCKER...without any doubt in the world.
When he told me about her, I didn't know her. She was something completely out of my entire motherfuckin' thinking spectrum. Heck, Tavbro barely even took the time to talk to me about her. Fucker was afraid I guess. Maybe it was my fault for pressurizn'. Maybe I should have gone about it some other way. I didn't know. I didn't even stop to think about it long enough. But hell, if he was into someone else, then I couldn't help that...no bro could help that...I was lost in space, and the hole was only gettin' bigger. He didn't know that the entire time he was up and practicing his wicked walking skills, I was up and hiding myself a-fuckin'-way. Other trolls thought I was stupid, and just playin' in my horns for fun. No brother. That aint the case...that ain't the case at all...I was in depression mode deep, but I didn't let that show. No SIR!
We talked for a little while after that. It was small talk, like motherfuckin' always. I didn't want to come on too strongly see, cause I didn't want him to get away. No. Not this time. We laughed, and snorted, and even cuddled a little motherfuckin' while. Good to have a bro like him around to keep me company. Good to have any bro at all...to motherfuckin keep me company...
"I'm tired Gamzee...really tired." Little bro's eyes were lookin' sore when he said that, like he had been cryin' or something. I let him rest up against me, held him close to my side. Motherfucker was warm as ever. His head, was sittin' so limply on his skinny little neck, and them horns, were so motherfuckin' shiny...I just had to stroke them some after he started falling asleep. We both sat there quietly. I didn't wanna leave him...
"Shit Tav..." I said while he was dreamin'. "I'm sorry I can't be better for ya..." My eyes were startin' to close... "If I could be anything in this motherfuckin world...I...heh...I don't think I even up and know how to say it correctly...but...I would do anything to be just right." He snuggled up against my shoulder, kind of like he was listening to me somehow. Like he was tryin' to get closer to my mouth when I was whispering this shit out loud. Made me smile some...and let out a little chuckle.
"Brother..." I continued in the deep droned quiet. "I wanna tell you a motherfuckin' story..." A lot of me didn't know where I was goin with this and why, I wanted to tell him while he was awake, but at the same time, it was so much blooded easier to tell him while he was down on the count, so I continued my ass.
"When I was just getting out of my wriggling shell...the first thing I saw when I opened my tiny little eyes, was pure space...and this big white motherfuckin' mass just starring down at me..." I chuckled again. "He was so big and bright! That was the first time I ever saw my Lusus...because up and until that motherfuckin point, he was on a journey, out at sea. Bro...I fell in love with that old sea goat, and for a while, we did a lot of stuff together. I sat on his back...and just starred at the motherfuckin miracle orbs up in the sky. Brother, I loved every moment I was with that beast..." I sighed, keepin' in that royal jelly that was my own motherfuckin tears and continued. "I was pretty young when he left me again that warm night at sea...I remember waving at him as he swam away. You remember me talkin about that some...right Tav? That's ok bro...you don't gotta answer me when you're all down in your motherfuckin sleepin action, cause I already know that you've got it in your motherfuckin' think pan."
My hand rubbed up and down his shoulder. Maybe to comfort him, or maybe to comfort me. I didn't up and know at the time... all I knew that it was motherfuckin nice. My mouth opened, and again I started to continue the story.
"In the time I was up and motherfuckin' waiting for my Lusus's return, I remember sitting out on the beach and just starring out into the ocean. Part of me wanted to swim out to him, but another thing I knew, was that it was common motherfuckin' knowledge not to. There was too much danger out there. So every night when I would wait for him, I drunk up on some of that wicked elixer, and wrote a note. Figured ol' goat would find the message one day as it drifted off to sea...but it was probably the worser motherfuckin' mistake I've ever made...cause when he returned to me again, he was gone. Killed by the sea dwellers cause of the pollution I was causin'...it was all my motherfuckin' fault..." I paused, and leaned my head on top of Tavros's tricked out hair. "Well, before his death ever up and happened, I remember goin' places. I met best friend when I was small. He was a loner, and he didn't look like he wanted to talk to anyone, or, liked anyone in general. I liked him. I liked him a lot. Best friend...was about the only one I could ever really rely on. Then I met you." My eyes drifted to the ceiling. "You were so motherfuckin' small, and lonely looking...I just had to be your friend! You...you and best friend...you two...helped me to realize...that...I'm not as motherfuckin' alone as I up and thought I was..." He was still sleeping, and I kept going. "Tavros...I...I love you...motherfucker..."
In the stillness, I took my brother by the jaw, looked into his fuzzy eyelashes closed over the ball of his sockets, then at his mouth, and kissed him the way I wanted to, on the lips...
