Rachel had barely slept at all. Ever since Noah had started living with her and her dads they had never slept apart. Rachel found herself staring at Noah's empty side most of the night. When she was finally able to fall asleep Meredith woke up needing to be fed. Rachel was sitting in the rocking chair her father's bought her rocking her baby girl in her arms.

"Hey baby girl how did you sleep?" Rachel asked her four month old daughter. Meredith Puckerman was born on July 1st 2009. She hid her pregnancy as along as she could and when it became too much she started home schooling. If anyone asked, not that they would, her dads would say she was at a preforming arts program in New York. Meredith just looked up at her mother staring at her waiting. Rachel shifted around getting comfortable before she started feeding the hungry baby. Shejust stared at the little girl eating fighting the tears in her eyes. The tears quickly started to fall and her body started to shake.

"I am so sorry baby girl. I never wanted this life for you." Rachel brought her free hand up to her face and wiped away her tears. "No matter what happens just know mommy loves you." Rachel dropped her head to the back of the chair letting the tears fall freely. The last thing she ever wanted for her daughter was to be brought up in a house with constant fighting. Once Rachel had stopped her tears and Meredith was done eating Rachel started getting ready for the day. After changing Mer and dressing her she woke up Noah.

"Noah." Rachel was standing in front of the couch with the baby in her arms calling his name. After a few tries and no answer she decided to kick him. "Puck wake up." Rachel screamed covering Meredith's ears as not to hurt them. Noah jumped up one hand to his heart the other rubbing his ribs.

"Why the hell did you kick me and why the fuck did you call me Puck?" Noah asked as she was rubbing his eyes.

"Take Meredith I need to get ready." Rachel didn't answer any of the questions just handed him their daughter and went back upstairs. Noah just sighed before looking down and smiling at their daughter.

"It's going to be a long day kiddo." Noah told her as he started walking her around the house. Noah got up the stairs just in time to see Rachel coming out of the room her school bag and Meredith's bag in hand.

"I'll dropped her off and then go to school," Rachel told Noah as she took the baby from him. Rachel was about to walk by when Noah grabbed her arm.

"You know I love you right?" Noah asked lightly grabbing her chin and turning it towards him. "Nothing that happens there changes my love for you." Rachel had tears in her eyes when she nodded her head.

"I have to get going or I'm going to be late." Rachel told him as she cradled the baby to her chest. Noah pulled her as close as he could giving her a soft kiss on the lips. Rachel said a quick goodbye and left the house. The drive to her father's office was quick because of the early morning. There were few people who knew of Meredith and that was the way Rachel liked it. The secretary at her father's office watched Meredith while the two were in school. After Rachel dropped her off she made her way to school dreading another day.

It was just before lunch when Kurt went up to Rachel now standing at her locker.

"Rachel can I have a word with you please?" Kurt wasn't overly fond of the girl because of her diva behaviour. Rachel just blinked looking at him in somewhat of a haze. "Rachel are you ok? You're looking worse then you usually do." Leave it to Kurt to make a back handed comment.

"I am fine Kurt, just didn't sleep well. Now what do you need." Rachel turned to face Kurt so she could look at him while he spoke.

"I wanted to talk to you about glee." Kurt started talking and had Rachel's attention until behind him she saw Santana pulling Noah into a closet by his belt. Rachel's eyes immediately began to tear which caught Kurt's attention. "Rachel are you ok?" That time when he asked it wasn't a loaded question he really was concerned about her.

"I am sorry Kurt but will you please excuse me for a minute." Rachel hurried off before she could get an answer. Rachel made it to the bathroom just in time before her tears started to fall. Rachel slid down one of the walls resting her head on her knees. She tried to convince herself she was seeing things but she knew what she saw. Rachel heard one of the stall doors open but refused to look up. She only did so when she noticed the person was now standing in front of her. Quinn was standing with her arm out tissue in hand. Rachel took the tissue muttering small thanks. Quinn didn't say anything in return and just left the bathroom.

Rachel cleaned herself up taking a deep breath before leaving the bathroom and going to glee. No matter what was going on in her life singing always helped? That thought quickly left her mind when she seen Noah and Santana walking into the room hand in hand. The tears that were falling before were quickly building up again. Rachel tried her best to breathe deep and keep them at bay. Rachel was quickly brought back to the real world by someone sitting beside her dropping a tissue in her lap. Looking to her side she once again saw Quinn sitting there a small smile on her lips.

"Q what the hell you doing beside man hands?" Rachel could hear Santana ask from behind her which made her eyes water more.

"Hey S what were you doing at the STD clinic yesterday?" Santana quickly turned red and Noah had a look of horror on his face. "That's right Puckerman better get your shit checked." Everyone just stared open mouthed at Quinn not believing what she was saying. Rachel turned toward Quinn giving her the smallest smile ever.

"Thank you Quinn." Rachel whispered it so only the blonde could hear.

"Don't mention it Berry." Quinn told her as she grabbed her hand giving it a squeeze. The rest of glee flew by and Rachel was out of the door before Schue told them to have a good day. Rachel was getting her books out of her locker when Quinn walked up to her.

"I don't know what's wrong with you but here's my number if you ever need me." Quinn told her while handing her a piece of paper.

"Not that I am not very grateful but why are you being so nice to me." Rachel ask her hands shaking.

"Because it's what Jesus would freaking do." Both girls couldn't help but giggle. "And you are obviously going through something, I would want someone there for me."

"Thank you Quinn and I will call if I need you." Quinn just nodded her head before turning to leave the school.