Bella decided to get the other boxes later but for now she unpacked all the boxes over the next week so she could take care of her kids. Bella had decidedly opt taken up the whole 4th floor of the 15 bedroom 16 full bath mansion 4 ½ baths. The whole first floor was living room and office space. Bella had 2 basement levels the bottom floor was storage the 2nd was an empty space until she had had it decorated it was going to be the kids play room. Bella woke up at 530AM on the first day of school and ate after getting the kids dressed she had them in the car and had pulled out of the drive when her baby sitter called. Bella cursed after she hung up she spent 20minutes trying to find a sitter and failing going to the school Bella got stopped in a spot as close to the school as she could get.
Bella put her kids on the ground grabbing her bag she straightened up and went to the trunk grabbing her bags and handing each of the kids their bags she picked up Monroe walking to the office she set her kids on the counter. Bella got her stuff and then walked to her locker putting a few things in it she went and picked up Monroe walking to her first class she had missed the first 2 periods finding the teachers she had them sign her slip just as the Bella rang Bella walked into her third class.
The teacher Mr. Varner asked "why do you 2 children with her".
Bella looked at the teacher and said "I had a babysitter and they canceled at the last minute this is a one time thing I should have it straightened out tomorrow". Bella set Monroe and Lexa on a blanket with their tablets and headphones Bella pulled out her sketch pad and was listening to the teacher doodling as she sat. Bella was seated next to a guy she learned was named Emmett Cullen he kept watching her Bella ignored him. The tables in the class were 3 person tables. Bella picked her son up as the Bella rang walking to the bathroom she changed them and then went to her next class. Bella had an eidetic memory she everything she saw or heard was in her memory. Bella walked her kids to the lunch room getting her food she sat at an empty table feeding the kids she was suddenly surrounded by a group of girls they all sat down Bella looked up saying "Can I help you? They all looked at her asking questions". Bella ate ignoring them and ate her food Bella looked up when a group approached the table after getting food.
The Leader a tall blonde with dark gold eyes spoke "Move". Bella watched as the girls left the table the blonde sat down followed by a tall dark haired guy, a short spiky haired pixie, a copper haired guy, Emmett and as she made eye contact with the last she would know that honey blonde any where Bella's jaw dropped she was stunned for a good minute before regaining her composure.
"You were dead how... Why..."Bella Huffed then shook her head getting up she took her kids and went outside letting them play Bella was reading a physics book when the blonde sat beside her.
"I'm Rosalie Hale". Bella nodded not looking up she held out her hand Bella felt someone come sit on her right just as her daughter came running up Bella looked up.
"Mommy Mon-woe felled". Bella set her book in her seat as she got up and ran to where Monroe was sitting Bella picked him up carrying him over the bench Bella put a band-aid on his knee and then she was about to pick up her physics book when it was snatched away Bella crossed her arms."That's my book". Bella sat down as she took the book back and put it in her bag Bella stood up as the first bell rang carrying Lexa on one hip and Monroe on the other she set them down on a blanket with a pillow they napped in the corner Bella was seated between Emmett and Jasper Bella finished was drawing her kids while the teacher talked calling on her. Bella recited everything back to the teacher who told her to pay attention Bella finished the drawing turning the page she started drawing a child she had never seen before as the bell rang.
Bella carried Monroe she went to P.E. Bella set the twins in a play pens and changed quickly. They were doing basketball a pick up game Bella groaned when she realized she hadn't brought tennis shoes Bella walked out in her heels the teacher looked at her and said "You'll have to sit out". Bella huffed grabbing the basketball from the coach Bella ran across the floor and dunked it. Before doing 3 round off back hand springs and landing on her feet.
"You were saying coach Clapp right, I'm a 6 time Gymnastics medal winner I have done a lot harder than running in heels". Bella listened as the coach asked her to show him something harder Bella had Jasper Kneel and Emmett stand a foot behind him Bella pulled off the heels and walked to the end of the gym running and doing flips Bella vaulted flipping using Jasper Bella threw herself up and used Emmett to vault doing an triple flip and then landing and staying their bowing she looked at the coach and cocked her head walking and grabbing her heels she chose Emmett and Jasper for her team.
Rosalie chose Demetri and a guy named Todd after they chose Bella jumped as the ball went up and Emmett caught the ball the game was matched as they played. Bella didn't shower after she stayed in her gym clothes folding up the play pen Bella was about to pick it up when Emmett grabbed it. Bella looked at him huffed and picking up the kids she walked towards the parking lot. Bella set the twins down unlocking the Lamborghini she put them in their car seat. Bella popped the trunk and slammed the diaper bags into Bella slammed the trunk getting in the drivers seat.
Bella threw her stuff on the passengers seat when the passengers door opened her stuff was put on the floor Bella said nothing as she backed out of the parking lot doing a 180 turn as she drove to her house taking the curves at high speed Bella drove up to the gate and drove into the garage. Bella set the kids down as she grabbed her bags off the floor Bella went to the trunk and grabbed the diaper bags. Bella walked to the house and walked to the door opening it she ushered the kids in putting them in front of the TV Bella found Benjamin's note on the table. Bella opened the note and curse in Russian saying "сегодня все дни, он не был дома, когда мне нужно, чтобы он был здесь, хорошо, я буду получать над ним" today all days, he was not at home when I need him to be here, okay, I will get over it. Bella sighed and recited the words "Честь Прочность правда" Honor Strength Truth. Bella put her stuff away and was sitting reading when Jasper came in with a group of people who looked at her before clearing their throats.
"Esme". A caramel haired woman said looking at Bella with mild interest.
"Rosalie" the blonde from school spoke she was beautiful and deadly Bella knew it.
"Demetri". The dark haired male spoke cocking his head "I'm Rosalie's mate".
"Gregory" An older gentle man of at least 35 spoke "I'm Esme's mate".
"Carlisle" a blonde good looking 20 something guy spoke up. "I'm a doctor at the hospital".
"Alice" the spiky hairs pixie spoke up gesturing to the guy next to her "my husband".
"Edward" the copper haired guy said staring at Bella intensely she could feel the probes working against her shields as she set the book down getting up.
Bella walked to her office with all of them following her Bella left them their going up to her room with the shadows of Esme and Rosalie Bella walked into her bathroom showering quickly Bella dressed in a black tank top, black jeans, high heeled boots and dried her hair. Bella strapped her hip bag on and went over to her Altar Bella knelt down pulling Rosalie and Esme down she took their hands saying the spell she let go of their hands and they left the room.
Bella walked to her office Bella sat on her desk and looked at all of them before saying "That spell you and Esme were part of has made you able to conceive only on a full moon and always only once every 200 years. You will no longer sparkle any of you I'm human but I'm not like the people from this town I am the only one like me I am Прочность different than you and not as strong but I am smarter". Bella started spinning the delicately designed gold ring she wore it had been the ring Jasper had given her on their wedding day none of them had noticed it yet. Rosalie, Esme Gregory and Demetri left the office Bella asked Rose and Esme to watch the kids Edward and Alice left to go home or something.
Bella stood up and went to one of the shelves starting at the bottom Bella ran her hands over the shelves of books walking around the room she didn't find what she was looking for so she climbed to the second floor and started in the middle shelf on the left side of the room. Bella climbed the ladder and pulled a book from the shelf. Bella looked thru it and put it back finding the books she was looking for she went back to her desk and set them down turning she bumped into Emmett who held her against his body and kissed her deeply taking everything and giving everything.
Bella's eyes changed to bright emerald green flashing Emmett pulled away and looked down at her and said "There she is". Emmett nuzzled Bella's face before saying "I missed you". Bella was bombarded with the past as it came back in full force she pulled away from Emmett. Bella went over to the desk opening the first journal she moved to the second one and flipped pages until she found what she was looking for in the elegant scrawling on each of the pages the journals had been written during the travels she had been on. Bella had never read them after she wrote them she usually went into a trance while she was writing her past not wanting to know what was going to happen until it was time.
Bella held the book open and cleared her throat saying " September 13th 1930 Dear journal, I have just met the boy who lives across from me his name is Emmett he is different than what I overheard in the rumors going around town I was orphaned when both my parents died I inherited my fathers property here and his businesses. Emmett seems nice only time will tell". Bella flipped pages and then spoke again calmly "September 13th 1932 Dear Journal, Emmet has asked me for my hand I said yes we are planning to marry in March of next year". Bella flipped pages "March 20th 1933 Dear Journal I'm getting married in 45minutes my stomach is making me feel nauseous. Emmett has been moving his things into my house all week only leaving a small bag at his parents house". Bella turned a few pages "March 25th 1933 Dear Journal I am going to kill Emmett he didn't come home all night I sat up waiting for him I must have fallen asleep in my chair my neck and shoulders hurt but I'm to angry to care at this point I could kill him and it would be ruled justifiable homicide after all the pain he put me thru this week with the worry I'm going to be prematurely grey".
Bella turned the page "March 26th 1933 Dear Journal Emmett came home smelling of whiskey cigarettes and cheap whore I slept in the guest bedroom after looking the door to keep him out of my room I cried myself to sleep for the first time in 3 years. March 27th 1933 I woke up to find Emmett gone a I spent the day in bed with a a flu . I read my favorite book I cooked but Emmett never came home I fed the stray who wanders around the neighborhood and I waited for him to come home I must have slept in my chair again waiting. April 6th 1933 Emmett and I made up but we will see if it lasts thru the months to come". Bella turned pages continuing "June 12th 1933 I went to the doctor to get treated for the flu and the doctor told me I'm not sick I'm pregnant he says its atleast 4 months I am glad that I didn't call off the wedding at the last minute I will tell Emmett as soon as I see him again. June 18th 1933 Emmett is happy he told his parents their coming over for dinner tomorrow to celebrate with us". Bella turned pages in the journal as she continued
July 12th 1933 I'm going to kill Emmett I'm already starting to look pregnant and he's not here I should be used to it I suppose I have been very tire lately. I sleep a lot lately I make dinner every night. August 20th 1933 Emmett and I had an argument he stored out I locked myself in the bathroom crying on the floor I waited for him to come home when he did we made up. I made my famous roast beef I ate at the counter and then washed dishes I stared at the knife I was holding for several minutes before putting it in the strainer".
Bella sighed wetting her lips she continued "September 13th 1933 I turned 15 today my friends came by bringing gifts for me and the baby I had expected my husband to come home he didn't I went to bed after eating with my friends who brought a meat and cheese platter, chicken potato casserole, green salad, a cake and platters of chocolate covered strawberries, oranges and peaches. They left everything taking their dishes they bought me one of the new song records that I had mentioned I liked". Bella turned the pages as she read "October 5th 1933 the doctor says I'm ready to give birth any time now and it's just a matter of days or hours until I do give birth Emmett went hunting he told me he has been selling his kills to the butcher he gave me a 5 strand pearl necklace a dress heels a matching bag and some other items. Emmett was keeping secrets to surprise me he had been slow going in earning enough to pay for everything he wanted to give me with out asking for money. I was angry with him but I'm not anymore I packed a bag for the hospital and keep it at the door read to go when it's time to go to the hospital". Bella sighed
"October 21st 1933 I have been in the hospital for 3 days I gave birth to a boy who has Emmett's looks and I have held him a few time I am being sent home Emmett is picking me up. Emmett showed up at the hospital I held the baby the whole drive the nurse had given me pointers to help me with the baby when it came to feeding. I put the bassinet on my bedside I couldn't sleep so I sat with Michael all night rocking him I fed him and Emmett catching a few hours of sleep".
Bella turned 3 pages "these pages are a bit harder to read because of the stains. November 15th 1933 I fell asleep after feeding Michael and when I woke up I went to the bathroom I came back Michael was cold I tried to revive him while I called the doctor he took Michael and I got a call 2 hours later the doctor told me that Michael's death had been from unknown causes he had died peacefully in his sleep it had been quick. I don't know if the doctor was right or wrong I suppose it doesn't matter now either which way my son my Michael is gone and nothing can bring him back to me no matter how hard I wish it was different Emmett has been in his den drinking he stood beside me at the Funeral I had an Angel headstone put on top of his head stone.
November 20th 1933 Michael was buried wrapped in his favorite blanket that his grandmother had made. Emmett is still drinking he eats very little and hasn't been to his bed or mine since the funeral of our son. My husband mourns with the rest of us but he doesn't show what he is feeling. I leave food for him on a tray I find it the next morning half eaten I haven't tried to get him out of his den I will wait until he comes out on his own I have run out of tears. His mother stops by to check on me I tell her I'm fine even though I don't feel fine I feel sad". Bella turned pages.
"December 23rd 1933 it's almost Christmas here the snow is sticking to the ground Emmett went and cut a Christmas tree for us. I decorated it and Emmett lifted me so I could reach the top to put on the star that I had bought. I painted a picture of Michael and hung it in my closet as a reminder I painted in his birth and death date to remind me of him when I start to forget or I think about having more children the doctor gave me a clean bill of health I hadn't healed as quickly as most women do so I haven't been able to sleep with my husband at all. Emmett goes out most nights and doesn't return until I am asleep in our bed but he has been bringing in money cutting down Christmas tree's and delivering them for the towns people who are to old to do it themselves".
Bella skipped thru the pages "March 12th 1935 Emmett and I have agreed to have another child after I learned that I was 6 months pregnant I am now ready to give birth as the days draw closer to the the date I will give birth the baby kicks and punches me mercilessly and I haven't gotten good sleep in 3 days. Emmett has gone hunting and I stay home reading and writing this for the future I know I will find. I am going to be 18 this year it's strange that for the last 5 years I have been married to the man who made me smile and laugh even when I didn't want to."
"March 23rd 1935 I have given birth to a daughter she is beautiful with brown hair and green eyes like her father she is a healthy eater and the doctor lets me leave after I stay over night. Isabelle Charlize McCarty was born at 6PM on March 22nd at 7 lbs. 8oz. She was born with a full head of hair. Belle already has her father wrapped around her tiny finger Emmett and I take turns watching her sleep I feed her and then sit by her cradle while she sleeps. Emmett keeps me on my toes as he leaves little gifts for me to find they are nice but a pain in the ass when stepped on".
"June 15th 1935 it has happened again Isabelle died while I was asleep Emmett had gone hunting with his friends I called the doctor who rushed over but Isabelle was already gone her heart had just stopped it was unexplainible to the doctor who didn't know what happened other than that Isabelle had died very quickly everything shutting down death was with in a minute. Emmett came home I had to tell him he went into his den and hasn't come out I have been sitting in our room all night curled up on the window seat staring out at the stars the pain is all I feel".
"June 18th 1935 the funeral was yesterday Emmett was beside me as we laid our second child to rest Emmett stood beside me at the wake after everyone except his mother had left she helped clean I painted Isabelle like I had done for our son. Her portrait hangs beside Michael's in my closet with a black veil. Emmett has been drinking in his den I have heated up left overs and left them for Emmett to eat when he gets hungry. I am not hungry so go to my room".
"June 28th 1935 Emmett went out on the 20th and he hasn't been home people have gone looking for him they found his pack and his jacket bloody and drag marks I don't want to believe it but its been 3 days since they found his stuff bloody I have began planning the funeral the ranger says with how much blood is their Emmett is certainly dead they found bear tracks and tracked them but lost them in the woods after 3 miles of searching the area they told me that he wasn't coming back from wounds like what the amount of blood says he had sustained".
"July 1st 1935 I put an urn in the family mausoleum with his name and date of birth and of death next to the urns of our children I visit the mausoleum daily I can't help but feel I am being watched I haven't told my mother in law about it. I received Emmett's life insurance I gave half of it to his parents feeling that couldn't accept the 3 million dollars with out paying some of it to my mother and father in-law who were about as upset as I was about the death of my husband their only son leaving no grandchildren for them to remember him by. I painted Emmett giving one to his parents who didn't have any recent memories to hold on to unlike I who had tons of his stuff to remember him by and would have to get over his death ours had been a love to rival all romances".
Bella turned the pages "This would be the last entry in the book, July 20th 1935 the doctor just left I am going to die my heart is giving out I have written and submitted my will and I have taken confession as I lay her I know that I creep closer to death my heart can't take the pain any more so it is failing rapidly I have cleaned the house leaving the house to be sold and the money to be held until a descendant of the Swan line comes along I die knowing I will see my husband again soon. I leave no unfinished business I will lock these journals in a trunk and put them where they can't be found. I have already planned my funeral I will be buried with my wedding band and Emmett's. I have give to charity before I pass away. I gave the car to a mother with kids who couldn't afford to buy a car. I die knowing I have lived a good life and will leave this world knowing I made a difference to my husband who is some one I can't live with out".
Bella set the journal down on her desk looking at Jasper she picked up the second Journal and opened it she sighed and wet her lips as she held the book open and started "May 21st 1860 I have been living in Texas for 3 days I met a handsome man we had dinner and talked over tea and talked and walked in the gardens as the sun went down we had wine and cheese with bread as we talked finding we had a lot in common we went riding in the country and spent time together". Bella turned the pages and then stopped at a page and wet her lips in preparation to read the page. "June 12th 1860 Jasper and I have been courting Jasper has been watching me lately as things for us progress life in Texas is warm but the sun is nice I play my piano when I have nothing better to do as I decide if I am going to marry Jasper and continue our courtship". Bella turned the pages of the journal carefully and held it on her lap Bella held the journal upright.
"July 1st 1860 Jasper and I have been courting he proposed to me in the garden and I agreed we were married on the 28th of June we had the reception in the formal dining room. My maid Maudy sat in the corner to confirm that we had consummated our marriage Jasper and I couldn't get enough and had run ourselves to exhaustion together we finally got out of bed and had breakfast it is nice to feel wanted and cared for". Bella turned the pages and wet her lips.
"July 12th 1860 Jasper and I have been having breakfast and he would come to home for lunch after dinner we would retire to the sitting room and listen to music Jasper swept me up and danced me around the room as I laughed in joy my life was beautiful it was fulfilling to me". Bella turned a dozen pages and stopped at a page reading. "September 13th 1860 I am pregnant Jasper and I are are glad I am a few months pregnant. Jasper is the doting husband but he no longer touches me we are having cake and he gave me a stack of gifts jewelry and painting stuff I am happy I like to paint when I am upset. Jasper is a gentle man he comes home every night to me and we sleep in the same bed I read until I fall asleep with jasper wrapped around my body in our marital bed". Bella sighed and wet her lips as she read.
"December 25th 1860 Jasper and I went to church sitting with his parents afterwards we went home his family came over at 3pm and we had dinner and opened our gifts we had coffee and tea as we talked. After his parents went home I begged Jasper to just once exert his husbandly rights I had been going crazy for months and he must have felt how tightly wound I was because we made love several times before falling asleep having tired ourselves out". Bella kept the sadness out of her voice as she read her journals aloud to Jasper who was listening with complete interest as she read the journal entries to them not sparing any of the emotions for them to read on her face.
"March 18th 1861 I gave birth to twins I named our son Monroe Jasper Whitlock and our daughter Alexandria Belle Whitlock they were beautiful Monroe had his fathers honey blonde hair and blue eyes while Alexandria has my eyes and hair they are such beautiful babies I am exhausted and am going to sleep as if I was dead for several hours". Bella turned the pages of the journal. "May 28th 1861 I am angry at Jasper he didn't come home last night so I sat up all night waiting and I am cranky and not at all happy. May 30th 1861 Jasper came home cut up and bloody so I stitched him up grumbling to myself the whole time as I poured Whiskey on the cuts making him hiss and try to pull away which gave me pleasure because I was still angry with him about not even sending a note or a message and making me worry. I patched him up and out him in bed and got soup for him feeding him carefully and then leaving him to sleep". Bella turned the page.
"July 1st 1862 Jasper and I are at our first anniversary we are having dinner together I bought Jasper new boots, Jeans, and made him a couple of shirts and got him a belt and a wallet . We had a five course meal after we went to our room Jasper took special care to be gentle and showing me how he felt about me towards me. July 10th 1862 Jasper and I argued about the war I am opposed to it and he thinks its good to split the states. Jasper stormed off and I wen tot the nursery and rocked Monroe after feeding him and changing him. July 25th 1862 I can't believe Jasper's being insensitive about my feelings I took the kids to my private rooms where I slept with the door locked and woke early taking care of the kids I ate breakfast and then read Jasper came down from bed late looking haggard. My less caring side told me he deserved the punishment"."December 25th 1862 I bought wooden toys for the kids and I get Jasper a new pocket watch and a vest I also painted him portraits of each of us individually and together putting them in a slightly larger than his palm sized book I included some letters that he didn't read. January 1st 1863 its the new year and its not what I expected it to be like". Bella read the rest of the page and then flipped pages for a minute finding what she was looking for she cleared her throat and looked down.
"March 18th 1863 the twins are two and I can feel Jasper distancing himself from me every day I am worried about us and I can't decide if I should voice my gut wrenching fear or just stay silent I will pray and hope that the answer comes to me as I lay in bed tonight. March 24th 1863 I tossed and turned all week the babies have been sleeping mostly thru the night and I am glad I get to sleep a full night for the first time in two years Jasper and I are sleeping in the same room we have resolved our fight I think. March 30th 1863 Jasper and I are close we have been talking and are deciding if we want to have more children yet I am still young ans so is he we are both healthy". Bella flipped pages and wet her lips as she started reading the book.
"August 14th 1863 Jasper and I made love several times all night when I woke the next morning I found the note I read it in disbelief Jasper had left for the war and he was fighting on the confederate side of the army. I cried for hours throwing the pillows and screaming and crying as my heart felt like it was being torn out. I let the twins sleep in the bed with me. August 28th 1863 I have been receiving letters from Jasper he is advancing ranks he lied about his age. I was not surprised that Jasper had left their home to fight to defend the rights of plantation owners". Bella cleared the lump in her throat as she turned the page to continue."March 23rd 1863 I got a letter informing me that Jasper had gone missing in action I cried my heart tearing apart as I fell to the floor in my room crying in pain as I worked to not wake the children as I expressed my grief at losing my husband. April 15th 1863 Jasper is still missing and his parents come over to see the kids once in a while we have tea and talk about the kids. I tell them I'm not pregnant I wish I was but I'm not expecting. December 25th 1863 I bought the kids gifts and let them stay up a bit longer to play with their toys".
