so i got it up finally and it maybe kinda short but i'm promise you it's worth it...i hope. Read & Review PLEASE!!

How Do I Love What Is Socially Wrong?

Chapter 3:

Confusion is a confusing emotion, esspecially when you're confused about the confusion you're confused about.

"Man, why won't either of them pick up?" Kyuubi said to himself and the cell phone he held in his hand. He knew his brother Naruto was gay, hell, he was still questioning his own sexuality and he was 20. He envied his brother for being able to know what he was and accept it. Every time Kyuubi thought about himself kissing another man, he got chills, but still it didn't stop him from thinking about it.

Maybe it was the fact that he never had any luck with the ladies that he might be gay. He also envied Naruto because before he fell in love with Sasuke, and yes Naruto has told him he loved him, he was bringing home girls right and left. When Kyuubi asked Naruto how he knew he was gay, Naruto said it was because he was never comfortable around girls the way they wanted him to be. He never felt the urge to go and randomly kiss one or just cuddle with one. Then he thought about doing that kind of stuff with a guy any guy and he would blush really bad.

Kyuubi phone viberated in his hand and he nearly dropped it.

"Hello?"

"Hey, um, have you made dinner yet?" Naruto asked on the other end of the line.

"No, but weren't you going to eat with Sasuke?"

"Yeah, but something came up...I tell you about it later." then Naruto hung up. The emotion in Naruto's voice didn't sound right. It sound sad, dissapointed, and confused.

Kyuubi flipped the phone closed and start to make some ramen for Naruto.

20 minutes later, as he set a bowl full of ramen on the table, he heard the door close.

"Hey! I made you ramen!" he called out.

"Okay, thanks." Naruto responded monotonely.

"Hey, you okay? What happened? Did ya'll have a fight?" Kyuubi asked. Naruto walked into the dining room and sat down.

"No, I told him that I think Itachi is hiding some thing or I...I don't know...It's just...DAMNIT!" Naruto shouted as he threw the hot bowl at the wall. It shattered with a crash. Kyuubi slowly approached his brother, who suddenly had rage filled tears rolling down his cheeks.

"Naruto, don't cry. It'll all work out. Now, I want you to go and take a hot shower and relax. Okay?" He said sweetly. Naruto just nodded. It wasn't the first time Naruto had broken a bowl on purpose.

Itachi's POV:

Where is he? Sasuke, you can't run away from me when I didn't even do anything! Sasuke! Please answer your phone!

My phones vibrating! Sasuke! Oh thank God!

"Hello?"

"Itachi..."

"Yes, Sasuke? Where are you?"

"Itachi, I'm scared." Sasuke says after awhile.

"Where are you? I'll come pick you up."

"No, I'm- I'm confused. Just what am I to you exactly?"

"What do you mean?" My alarms are going off. Does he know? He can't! I've been so careful.

"I'm just a brother to you right? You love me only like a brother?" He elaberates. Shit, he knows.

"Sasuke, I- I have always been grateful to have you with me, through everything." I just can't tell him. Now I know he'll leave me for sure.

"You- You do. You are...in love with me?" Sasuke may have said it like a question but it was a statement. And it is true.

"Sasuke...?" I say when I find my voice again.

"Yes?" His voice is barely audible.

"Please don't leave me." I'm almost to tears now. I haven't cried in over 7 years, and now the person I love is almost out of my life.

"I'm not going to leave you, but I'm- things won't be the same." He tells me as if I don't already know.

"Can we please talk in person?" I ask, I may not be able to hold myself together when I see him, but I have to know he will let me.

"I- no, I'm staying at Naruto's tonight." He says and hangs up. My tears are falling. I've lost him. I've lost the only person I ever loved. How he found out, I don't think I'll ever figure out. My life has no meaning without my love, the person I want to be my lover, I want him in my arms.

I wrap my arms around myself and I feel even more empty. Why is this happening to me?

Sasuke's POV:

I'm running. I nearly have no family now. Why can't things stay as perfect as they were? Why do things have to change?

I'm banging my fist on Naruto's door. The pain from my fist is shooting up my arm by the time the door opens. I'm almost to tears and my dobe isn't even the one to answer the door.

"Sasuke? What's wrong?" Kyuubi, Naruto's older brother questions.

"Where- Where's Naruto?" I gasp. I'm having a panic attack. My breath is coming short. Every part of me is shaking. The feeling inside my chest is scary. Like millions of spiders injecting their venom in me at once. I can barely move, muchless stand. Things are becoming dizzy and I can't think strait.

"Sasuke, get inside." Kyuubi comands. I stumble my way in and fall against Kyuubi.

I'm digging my head into his chest, clinging to him for dear life. My eyes are squeezed shut and I don't know if I can speak.

"Sasuke, what happened to you?" He said under his breath not really adressing the question to me.

"Kyuubi, I'm sorry about the bowl-" I hear Naruto's voice. My head springs up and I see my lover with dripping hair and a towel around his shoulders.

"Naruto!" I exclaim and scrammble over to him. He catches me in his arms and holds me tight. I'm still shaking and now my tears are falling.

"Sasuke," Naruto pulls my head up to look at him. "What happened?"

"I-I...Itachi, he...I...Naruto, I'm so nervous, and confused and-and I don't know what to do?!" I find my voice again, but I don't know what to say. I know my nails are digging into Naruto's skin, but I don't care. I need to feel him. I need to feel something other than this.

Naruto takes us over to the couch and sets me on his lap. I'm still digging my face in his chest, trying to make me face stop shaking. Naruto pulls my face up again, and looks strait into my eyes.

"Sasuke, you need to calm down." He tells me in his sweetest voice. He pushes some hair out of my face and rubs my cheek gently.

I start trying to control my breathing first. Kyuubi comes in and places a cup of tea in front of me and I take it greatfully. My hands are still shaking just like everything else. I can't lift the cup without spilling it.

Naruto takes it from me and helps me drink just a sip of it.

"Sasuke, please tell me what happened?" Naruto pleads.

"You-You were right." I say simpley.

"I- what?" He doesn't understand. I don't know if I can find the words to tell him.

"Itachi, he-he...oh, God, this can't be happening." Kyuubi is sitting on the other couch just watching my little break down.

"Sasuke, I don't understand."

"He loves me! More than any brother ever should!" I scream at the top of my lungs. "And I don't know what to do." I whimper into him. Naruto is running his fingers through my hair.

"Shhh, it'll be okay. Stay here tonight and we'll figure everything out in the morning." Naruto reassures me. My breath is becoming even and I can hold the cup on my own. "Sasuke, I didn't mean for this to happen, I'm so sorry." Naruto whispers in my ear. I just nod into his chest.

I can't believe this is happening. No, I just have to stop thinking about it or this feeling of complete helplessness and paranoia. I just... God, I can't! I can't stop thinking. How can Itachi even think of me that way? What could have caused him to do this kind of thing... to feel like this?

Itachi's POV:

I don't know how I can live knowing that Sasuke now hates me. He...he just hung up. No goodbyes or I'll see you later. He obviously never wants to see me again. How can I live with myself? I'm in love with my brother for God's sake! I don't think I go on.

"Sasuke, why are you leaving me?" I cry into the dusty air around me.

I have the pills in one hand and the knife in the other. Both should be enough to kill me right?