Chapter 2
I was considering greeting them but I happen to change my mind and decided to go to the fire escape instead for some peace. When I almost reached the exit, I heard a familiar voice call my name.
"Hi Ellen." I heard a male voice say.
My heart was hammering into my chest and it felt like it was going to jump out of my chest any second now. I turned around, and there he was, Rui with a smirk on his face. He had changed a lot since the last time I saw him. His dark orange hair laid flat on his head, and I could see his earring peeking out on his left ear. He wore his favorite gray jacket that showed his muscle tone with gray pants, and a white tie. He looks dashing as always, I had to snap out of it because I'm staring at him too long.
"Hey Rui." I greeted back. He came over and gave me the teddy bear hug that I always loved, except this hug was even tighter than before. I laughed and hugged him back for a few seconds and attempted let go. However, it seems that he didn't want to let go yet and continued hugging me. It feels good to be in his arms again, I can breathe in deeply as his scent came entering into my nose. I guess he was wearing his brand new cologne. It suits him.
"Awe this is so adorable!" we heard a voice squeal. Rui lets go of me all of a sudden which confused me a bit and I turned around to see what was happening. I now knew why he had to let go of me at that split second because a beautiful girl with luscious dark brown hair, and gorgeous eyes came up towards us.
"Rui!" she greeted and waved at us.
Blushing, I looked behind her and saw the guys came up, and surprisingly I saw Tsukasa holding hands with another girl. That was, new. Shaking off the embarrassment, I greeted the guys one by one and gave them each a hug but they were not as long as Rui's. Tsukasa introduced me to his girlfriend, Makino Tsukushi and Rui introduced the girl who came up behind him, her name was Jenna, the girl that squealed and who was quite annoying. I smiled and shook hands with her and Tsukushi; after that, the boys led me to their private hang out spot where only F4 members and close friends, like me, Jenna, and Tsukushi, are allowed only.
It was quiet for a moment when Jenna said, "Hey, so you said your name was Ellen right?"
Smiling, I answered, "Yes."
She took out her phone and showed me a photo of Rui and me hugging at the fire escape earlier. I immediately felt my face heating up.
"This is way too cute!" she squealed excitedly. "Kodak moment!"
Then, she turned her head to Rui and said, "Rui, should we go to the plaza today?"
Rui seems to be spacing out and was staring at my direction. Was I imagining things or did Rui just look at me for a split second?
Acting as if nothing had happened, he finally answered her. "Sure, I'll go. Ellen, do you want to come with us?"
Startled by the question, I answered, "No thank you, I still have to unpack my things at home anyways. Maybe I will go with you guys next time. Thanks for the offer though."
"Aw!" Jenna sighed, disappointed. "Unpack your stuff some other time! I know a certain someone who would love for you to come."
I gave a fake laugh when she pointed her finger in Rui's direction.
"I mean you guys were totally having a beautiful moment earlier! I should have known to play romantic music!" Jenna exclaims. This girl sure does love these kinds of things I suppose.
Surprisingly, I said that as calm as possible because it seems as if my heart cannot keep calm.
"I'm sorry," I apologized before getting up. "I have to go may I be excused?"
"Oh my gosh did I do something?" Jenna freaked out. "I didn't mean to tease you but come on Ellen you and Rui look so cute together!"
I shook my head no and told them that I just needed to do something.
I smiled before I left, exiting the cafeteria.
Not knowing where anything is, I just went into an empty classroom, sat down on the floor and put my head on my knees for awhile. After awhile, I heard the door open and footsteps approaching towards my direction. I looked up to see who it is and it was just Rui. Great, I thought to myself, out of all the people why did it have to be him?
He smiled gently at me and scratched his head before asking me, "Can I sit here? Jenna says that I should check up on you and she can be stubborn."
I smiled weakly and simply just nodded my head and without any hesitation, he sat down next to me leaning against the wall. It seems like forever since I was this close to him. Unconsciously, I let my head rest on one of his broad shoulders and he wrapped one of his arms around me, his head rested on top of mine and we sat there in silence. It feels good being around him again; I closed my eyes for a little bit.
He broke the silence and asked me, "What's wrong?"
Damn you, I thought. Here we are enjoying another beautiful moment and you just have to ruin it don't you?
I took my time and gave Rui a sad look. I deeply sighed before I was able to answer him, "I don't know Rui," I sighed as I put my arm on his waist, seeking possible comfort from him. "It feels as if I walked into a nightmare again. I thought I was able to escape it, but it turns out I can't."
He was quiet for a little bit, and I was getting worried so I looked up at him. It turns out he was staring at me, our eyes met and they were locked.
He snapped out of it and finally answered me, "Ellen, forget the past and live in the future. It's better that way, your just hurting yourself more. I should know because the person I loved the most left me when I needed her the most. How do you think I felt?"
I shoved away from him and gave him an angry look. He simply just didn't understand, did he? I don't know what happened, but everything I kept this inside of me for the past 2 years came out. Slowly, the bottle inside my heat where my true feelings were placed was falling down and it finally crashes. My anger and despair escaped and I couldn't take it anymore.
"Well, who wasn't there for me when I needed him the most!" I yelled, tears forming out of my eyes. I tried to remain strong and continued to tell him what he really wanted to hear.
"Don't forget you were the one who turned your back on me first," I continued. "You left me dangling at my good-bye party; did you know how EMBARASSING that was? I can't believe this! Ugh!" I started to reassemble myself, and walked out of the room. But before I could leave, he grabbed my wrist and spun me around. I yelped a little when he made me face him. That pity look he gave me just wanted me to smack his pretty face. Lucky for him I remained calm and in control. I tried letting go of his grasp but his grip was too hard and he just kept holding onto me.
Suddenly, he held me close to him and his voice was muffled against my hair when he said, "Ellen, I know I'm sorry and I truly regret this. You may think that I'm just saying this because it's what you want to hear, but I'm not. I really mean it."
Pushing him away I said, "If you really mean it, then is Jenna your girlfriend?"
He couldn't answer me, he just stood there. I knew it, he was dating her. This is getting stupid, I had to leave, and I just had to. I couldn't take this anymore. I hated feeling this way.
Before he could grab my arms again, I turned towards the door and I saw Jenna standing there with a confused look on her face. And her camera phone on her hands.
