A/N: sorry been busy like really busy and have had writers block!! So here is my update.

Chapter 3: Scars

I tear my heart open,
I sew myself shut.
My weakness is, that I can't do much.
And our scars remind us,
that the past is real.
I tear my heart open, just to feel.


December 15,2008

I can't believe who was at the door after a day missing school, so unlike him,"Freddork!" I said smirking at the dweb who

was now standing in front of me with his arms crossed. He looked at me with his mouth gaped open, my house, a tad bit more

wealthy looking then others. "Don't say a word, but what do you want that you had to come to my house?" his eyes shifted back

to me, shock was written all over his face, my smirk widened. "Well I needed todays homework, since I wasn't at school," he

said looking at me with a big smile, kind of freaking me out to big. "I was only in school for a while, I was erm sick." I

said feeling a bit gross still thinking about that guy in my dream, I sighed looking at him again. "Do you think Carly would

have it?" he asked, "Probably nub go bother her," I said giving him a glare. He nodded and said, "see you later?" more of a

question, "whatever." I watched him leave after my remark, I felt a tad bit sick running to the bathroom as quick as

possible.


Later that day, I went to Carly's, eating a delicious piece of ham off the bone the nub came in, I rolled my eyes at him and

sighed. Carly and her peppy self broke the silence among us, "c'mon guys ICarly time!!" she said before running up the

stairs. I starred at Freddork and lifted his shirt, "you don't say anything k?" he gulped and nodded. I went first walking up

after Carly, He soon followed. "So what are we doing today on Icarly?" I asked smiling at Carly and my contentness for ham. I

glared at Freddie and looked at her waiting for a response, "well today we're going to talk about how many hobo's we can spot

out of this window and maybe a little extra, "Why do you have such an obsession with hobo's. She retaliated, "why do you

have such an obsession with ham and fat priests?" I snarled at her and gave her a quick light shove. "So we ready?" Carly

asked we both nodded, me and Carly got in front of the camera, "ready 1 2" and he pointed at us. "Hi I'm Carly" she

said,"And I'm Sam." "and hobo's can't afford cable." I smiled, "Speaking of hobo's what are we look for Carly?" I asked

with a fake smile plastered on my face, "well Sam we're going to be counting how many hobo's we can spot out of this window."

She spoke with such a high energy tone, it seems ever since what happened a short few months ago, I have no energy or

anything like she does. I wish I did, now I have to put on a happy face until I figure out what had happened that night.

"Sounds good," I said running to the window with a pair of binoculars, Carly soon followed, and Freddork followed with the

camera. Carly smiled at me thinking that something was wrong I can see it in her eyes, I just smiled back at her and then

opened the window door. "Ready?" I said, "you know it, " she replied, "oh I spot one and he is wearing a nice orange coat, "

I said smiling, "Oh there is another one, he is very handsome," Freddie looked sad when Carls said that. He knows he can't

get with her, I laugh at his pathetic obsession with her. "Oh no,there's one that found a TV remote, too bad they can't get

cable," I chuckled and Carly laughed with me. "well thats enough with that, now we have a special guest come on out." I

anticipated who it was, this is something she didn't tell us so it truly was a surprise. A guy came out, he was very

attractive looking. Brown hair, Blue eyes, tall, shaved nice, okay I lied he is Hot!! A smile came on my face a true smile

not a fake one, "This is Decklan, a friend from my summer camp," Carly said hugging her friend. I can see the jealousy on

Freddorks face, I feel satisfied. My eyes reverted to Decklan and his gorgeous eyes, 'okay Sam snap out of it girl' I

extended my hand to reach for his, and I felt butterflies, "Hi Sam," his voice was nice and manly, I have not felt like this

in a while, but I need to shake that feeling off, I have other things to worry about. We had a nice time on the rest of the

episode of ICarly, us three talked and he and Carly shared memories of camp.


"Carly can I sleep over, I need to talk to you about something that has been bothering me!" Carly nodded and lent me some

pajamas. She came back into the living room with a bowl of popcorn and a good 'girly cow' movie, I got excited. She bent her

legs Indian style, "What's up?" she said with concern in her eyes, I gulped and told her my horrific dreams and the note,

"well I have been having these dreams and flashback where I was in this room but naked and there is this mysterious guy." I

looked down then back up at her, "I also got a note the other day, from a mysterious person," I finished. She looked at me

with saddened eyes, "Did you, you know?" she asked, I shook my head, "I don't think so, I mean I keep having the same dream

but each time it cuts out who the guy is, or I can't remember who it is when I wake up." I said with a worried tone. "Well

lets get your mind off it and enjoy the night if you have a bad dream or nightmare about it I will lay on the floor next

to the couch, just wake me up." I smiled at her, "Thanks Carls," I hugged her tightly and ate some popcorn, "Bring on the

good night, do you have any ham?" Carly smiled, "Oh Sam, yeah help yourself." I went to the kitchen and got myself some more

ham on the bone, "sweet," I sat back down and watched 'Girly Cow'. I eventually fell asleep, Carly put a blanket over me and

fell asleep too.


[dream/flashback]

To my surprise I was in a new place, I was on the street, with a sheet on my back cause my clothes were gone. I ran faster

and faster cause a shadow was following me, running after me. I don't know my surroundings, I keep the sheet up as I run, I

look at my surroundings and go towards a dark alley. I stop hoping to cut him/her off, they stand behind me and I tun around

to face them. My eyes widened,"what do you want?" I asked scared to death, "Why are you following me?" no answer. He/she

pushed me against the wall and started to kiss me, of course I pull back, "Stop" I pleaded, He/she continued to kiss me and I

closed my eyes in fear and disgust. They let me go and stopped kissing me, I slapped their face and ran as far as I could, so

far that I left them standing there alone in the dark. I ended up in the park alone with just a sheet on, I sat underneath a

tree, catching my breath and crying at the same time. I never felt more violated, I crumbled into a ball under the tree

feeling cold as ever and feeling alone.

[end of flashback/dream]


I woke up in a sweat and breathing heavy, I opened my eyes to find myself safe in Carly's house, I put my knees to my chest

and collected my thoughts all together. Carly woke up starring at me in the dark, I hadn't a clue what time it was. All I

felt was a rush of sadness, "Sam, are you okay?" I shook my head looking down at her. She came near me on the couch wrapping

her arms around me, "I had another nightmare," I sighed hugging her back, "what happened, if you don't want to talk about

thats fine too." I looked at her and took a deep breath, "well this one was different then the other ones." she listened to

me, "This one was where I was alone and on the street and someone was chasing me and I cut him off into a dark alley and they

started to kiss me." I gulped. "He kept kissing me then stopped and I ran away to a park, that was farther away, and I had no

idea where I was," Carly sensed the horrified tone in my voice. She rubbed my back, It'll be alright Sam, I promise no one

will get you here."," she said with a calm soft tone. I smiled hugging her once more, "will you still sleep near me so I

sleep well?" she nodded, "thanks for everything Carly, your truly my best friend." She smiled as did I, "Anytime Sam," She

smiled hopping back into her sleeping bag. The rest of the night I slept fine, knowing I was safe and had someone here who

knew what I was going through and willing to listen.


So that was today's journey, who is the one that is tormenting me in my dreams? Why is Freddie being so dorkish wait he

always is. lol I ponder what will lay ahead tomorrow, kinda scared to wonder. We will know then, So write more tomorrow.
Night,

Sam.


A/N: So there it is Chapter 3, I got my chapter done, Give me some feedback and let me know what you think is to come. And

how Decklan fits in the pieces. READ AND REVIEW!! (c:)