Chapter 3

I told Juice everything that had happened the previous night, he cried through most of it.

"so that's why there was so much blood?, you know down there?" he asked wiping the tears from he's cheeks.

"I don't know how to tell you this, I honestly didn't know and I thought it could never happen"

"just tell me" He said.

"I was pregnant and I miscarried" I said "I was only a few weeks gone, I literally must have got pregnant the first time we had sex, but I was told I couldn't get pregnant"

Juice looked at me and I saw him swallow hard. "you were pregnant with my baby?, and because of him you lost it?" he said slowly.

"yes Tara told me when I came round" I said.

Juice looked evil, he was grinding his teeth and I could see that he was mad.

"I'm sorry babe I honestly didn't know I thought I couldn't have any"

"you think I'm mad about that?" he said angrily standing up.

"I don't know anymore" I began to cry then.

"I'm mad because that cunt took our baby away from us, I'm mad that I let him die so quickly, I should have had him raped and butchered a slow painful death" Juice had a crazed look in his eye, he put his cut on and his boots.

"what are you doing?" I asked "where are you going?" he completely ignored me and marched off out the door.

I grabbed my phone and called Juice but he's phone was off, so I called Jax.

"what's up?" he answered.

"I just told Juice about the baby and he's flipped gone off and I'm worried he's going to do something mad, and he wouldn't even speak to me, I'm worried its all been too much for him"

"listen I'll send someone to find him and I'll come to you" he said.

"Jax I love him I can't be with out him."

"I know darlin'" he replied. "I'll see you in a few"

I called the nurse to give me more pain meds, and used the bathroom. Jax arrived and I burst into tears.

"hey calm down Liss, he just needs to let off some steam he's not mad at you he's mad because of what that prick did to you" he said hugging me.

"I wanna go home" I cried.

"you can't it's still locked off" he said.

"well get me in a motel then I just need to get out of here" I said.

"let me call Opie you can stay at he's because he's always at Lyla's. Then I'll go speak to the doc" he said.

He went off for a while so I tried calling Juice, but he wasn't answering. Jax came back in with Tara and the discharge papers.

Half an hour later I was sat beside Opie in his truck on the way to his house. "thanks for this Ope" I said.

"No need to thank me babe, stay as long as you need to" he said. "you need me to stay with you?"

"no I'm fine I've got all my meds, I just want a bath and to get in bed, It feels like the middle of the night and it's 9.30" I said.

"you've had a rough few days" he said.

So Opie got me settled and left me a gun to protect myself, I thanked him and locked the door when he left. I had a long soak in the bath, when I first got in it hurt like hell, but it soothed me a lot.

I got dressed and got in bed. I tried calling Juice one more time bit it went straight to voicemail, so I decided to text him.

I love you baby, I know its been tough but I truly do love you and I want us to be happy together after its all settled down. Please don't do anything stupid just come and be with me. I discharged myself and I'm at Ope's alone. Plz come and be with me Liss xxxx

It took me ages to fall asleep, I had a nightmare again and woke up at 2am in a panic. Tara had prescribed me Valium for panic attacks so I got out of bed and went to the kitchen pouring myself a glass of water in the dark. I heard a rattling noise coming from the front door, It burst open and I jumped a mile dropping the glass and smashing it.

The light went on and stood there was Juice, I felt so relieved, but I didn't know what to do. Should I hug him? Or should I just wait to see what he did?. We stood in silence starring at each other for what seemed like an eternity.

"you mean what you said in the text?" he asked.

"course I mean it I wouldn't say it if I didn't" I said.

He walked over and grabbed both my hands. "I'm sorry I walked out on you, but I needed to clear my head, everything just got on top of me and I can't bare to see my baby hurting" he said " I don't want to talk about it now, but believe me I'm gutted about the baby and I'm gutted that you would think I was more bothered about you being pregnant. I know we haven't been together that long but I would have been happy to have one with you"

"it's okay" I grabbed his arms and put them around my waist, then wrapped my arms around his neck.

"I love you and we will get past this together" he said, then kissed me. "lets go to bed".

The next few day's were hard and full of emotion. Jax gave Juice a few days off and told him not to bother with the club. I was told to take as much time as I needed before coming back to work.

The investigation was dropped and so was Juice's bail. We were allowed to go back to the apartment so we headed over there, I didn't think anything of it until I walked in the door. There was a pool of blood by the door and all up the door frame and then I saw the sofa and all the blood. I felt my legs give way, next thing I was on the floor sobbing with Juice holding me. He picked me up and practically carried me down the stairs and put me back in the car.