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Lily sat up in Severus's bed. She couldn't remember much of the night before, she had past out somewhere during the night. She looked at the night dress. She knew she hadn't been wearing that before. Silently she cried. The deed was done. Regret was eating away at her. She had made some terrible mistakes theses past few weeks. She should have fought harder to save her son, James would have. He died for them and she couldn't even save their son. She was useless. Her heart ached over James, over what she had just done. She was thankful she couldn't remember what past between her and Snape. She didn't think she could bare any more guilt. It was then she realised how stupid she had been. Severus had been in love with her once. Surely in the depths of his heart, he would have found the strength to help her. He wasn't as cold and heartless as he liked to make out.

But it was to late for that now.

She had done the unthinkable.

She looked at the pile of her clothes dumped on the chair next to the bed the guilt digging away at her. Only the sound of the door opening broke her concentration. Startled she looked up. Snape was standing in the doorway with a food tray in his arms. Their eyes meet for a moment. Lily wondered if he could see her guilt. She wonder if he knew she thought of him as a mistake. He looked away from her quickly leaving the tray on the dresser.

As the days followed he avoided her. She was grateful but worried. Why was he withdrawing from her? Was the dark Lord going to kill her now anyway? Did he perhaps find her unsatisfactory? Did she not perform good enough? Maybe he felt guilty?

Days quickly became weeks. Slowly he let her wounder through more of the rooms in Spinner's End. She explored for awhile trying to distract herself from the growing problem she was facing. She rubbed her rounding tummy.

"Ok baby." She whispered to her unborn child. "It time to tell him."

She didn't want to. She was afraid that he would kill it. Or worse, know it was James's.

She wondered through the small house to the lounge room that resembled a library more then anything else. She stood at the doorway, frozen in place.

Snape leaned over a book, his eyes racing across the texts as fast as her heart was beating. His slightly greasy hair fell forward over his face.

"Yes?" His voice rung out in the silence breaking the invisible wall between them. He didn't look up from his book but she knew he was listening now.

"I am pregnant." She blurted out.

It was funny how she managed to say it the same way she had when it was Harry. She had been afraid then too. Afraid James wouldn't be ready for a kid. Afraid she wasn't ready for a child. But this time it was different. She was afraid for the child's life.

Slowly Snape looked up at her. He studied her face for a long moment.

"Pregnant." He repeated slowly.

"Pregnant." Lily nervously confirmed. Snape nodded.

"You've been sick." He stated. Lily could tell he was running the symptoms through his head.

"I thought it was from the nightmares."

"It was to begin with." She quickly lied.

" I'll make you some morning sickness potion then." He stood up in a daze.

"Are you going to tell Lord Voldemort?"

"I think it may be best. "

"Please Snape. I don't want him to kill our baby." She grabbed his arm, pleading with her eyes. He frowned.

"Our baby." He frowned.

"Sounds strange I know." She whispered fearfully. "Please Severus, I can't let him kill her."

Snape looked up, staring at Lily.

"Her?"

Lily hadn't even realised she had said it but somehow it felt right. This baby felt nothing like Harry had. She where in the back of her mind she had been thinking this time it was going to be a girl.

"I think so." She watched his reaction carefully. There was a darkness crawling beneath the depths of the fire in his eyes as his words promised her.

"I'll sort it out."

Lily was afraid for her entire pregnancy. Snape would disappear for days at a time, sometimes even weeks. He always told her the same thing when he left, don't leave the house, stay put, stay safe. It Didn't stop her from worrying. Not only for herself and the baby but for Severus too. She knew he was gone too long. She had the sneaky suspicion he was up to something very under hand. She didn't know what Snape was involved with and she wanted to keep it that way. It was hard enough to sit across the dinner table from him as it was.

As the months past Lily yearned for the moment Snape would come home to her. They never spoke much, it was just nice to have some company. Someone there if she got into trouble. She worried each time he went, hoping nothing happened and nothing did until July thirty.

It was late and Snape had been gone all week when her water broke. She was frightened and in pain. She laid down on the lounge room floor sobbing as each contraction brought a new dose of pain through her body. She laid there for what seemed like hours but the clock on the wall told her it had been only ten minutes. She was near hysterical when suddenly Snape Apparated into the room next to her.

"Lily." He dropped to her side. "The wards went off."

"I need to go to St Mungo's. the baby is coming now." She cried out.

He grabbed her wrist and with a pop they were in the foyer of the hospital.

The next few hours past by in a blur. Snape nervously paced up and down the length of the corridor while Lily screamed through the wall. It was half past twelve when the Healers called him in.

"You have a beautiful baby girl." The doctor then proceeded to dump a bundle of blankets into Severus's arms. He looked down at the tiny little pink face in awe.

"What's her name?" He asked Lily. She was barely conscious. She smiled lightly.

"I don't know. Why don't you name her? She's yours now." Snape looked at Lily startled. He put it down to the spells the healers had place on her.

"Why don't you call her Lily after her Mother?"

"No. That would b to confusing." She said tiredly.

" How about Rose, after your Mother?" He asked.

"No, why don't we call her after your Mother? Rose can be her middle name."

"Eileen Rose." He said softly and the baby gurgled happily.

Lily smiled.

"See she likes it."


AN. Sorry for the delay. Let us what you think. :)