An- Yola, amigo's! Hanging in there much? I just want to say thank you to all of the people that showed their approval of the second chapter by reviewing for me; everything you had to say was sweet and in the long run, it counted to me a lot because my life has been nothing but a train wreck since then, hence the chapter being overdue. I've got a nasty case of the flu and even as I'm writing I'm still suffering from it but you guys deserve the next chapter so.. I'll set aside my shitty mood for the wellbeing of my fan fictional family.
I also want to thank AshesTree for her review, her review was one of a kind and in the mayhem that was swallowing my life, it actually allowed me to have a brief smile eat up my face and also reassure me that while I didn't get a lot of reviews, my work still counts to other people and that I don't waste two hours writing these things for nothing. So thank you sooo much AshesTree, that comment made my day and because of you, this chapter is fully dedicated to you, girl.
Ps. Pm me soon about that collaboration you wanted to do. I would love to co-write a story with you and the sooner we discuss it, the better.
Moving on….
Your chapter starts now.
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Chapter 3: Don't wanna be torn
' I thought you said I'd be okay, so why am I breaking apart?'
Things change.
She used to be that little girl that captured the whole world's attention just by being birthed into this ludicrous, messy little world that we live in, kicking and screaming with a set of lungs that just screamed to others to approach with caution.
She remembers being three years old, stubborn and fiery and bright as hell, bribing people to get what she wanted by using her cuteness against her parents and getting into a load of trouble with that mouth that loved to go off on its own.
She remembers being six years old and having her world destruct from under her and feeling lost and confused and just so filled with pain until Mitchie had stumbled into her life with a helping hand and a positive smile and they've been best friends since.
Her life had been content from then on, not quite satisfied and not quite in turmoil with her life and how things were going and then he came into her life and showed her things that she thought she would never be capable of feeling.
Shane opened her eyes to love and the importance of family and awakened anything that she hadn't managed to grasp at such a young age simply by riding in on his white horse and battle weapon ( a gun) .
He taught her to love and let other people in and putting aside the trouble and the drama and the sorrow that followed along behind it, She has had miracles come from that and as she looks throughout the backyard at the people that she loves and care deeply about. She can't help but smile.
He's given her a lot of miracles but the biggest miracles of all are her children.
Flashback.
"I'm hopeless!" She screams, slapping her hands over her forehead, attempting to drown out Shane's laughter.
"It's not that bad, Mi."
"Your right. Its worse than bad, its like- an epic disaster!" She rambles, frustrated with herself. " If you placed a video of this on natural television, the world would probably pick on me with a fork dying of laughter before they shipped me off for being world's worst mom."
"Hey." Shane amended, getting her attention. " You are not a bad mom, if not, your probably one of the best I know. All parents struggle and you just happen to be having a lot of difficulty with this one."
"I can't even put his diaper on properly, Shane!" She points out, looking towards Aidan who is clad in nothing but a diaper evidently placed wrong and eyes wide, as if agreeing with his mother's notion on her hopelessness.
Three tries and she still hasn't snagged the method of wrapping it on properly.
"Yeah, that is kind of horrible." Shane murmurs and she pouts, punching him in the shoulder, making Shane collapse into laughter.
"Look, how about we just try on a doll this time?"
Miley scoffs, glaring at him with fire in her eyes. " I'm not a lost cause, Shane."
"Hey, you never know, maybe you are." He amends jokingly.
"Funny, Next time give me a little heads up so I can actually laugh." She finishes dryly.
There's a moment of silence, before Shane actually speaks up.
"Hey Miley?"
"Hmm?"
"I'm going to make a joke, now."
"Shane!" She screeches, obviously frustrated and he laughs, shaking his head at his own actions.
"Okay look, my mom used to make me and Jason try diaper changing on dolls to prepare for the real thing and put aside the foolishness of it all, it actually works."
"You were three then, Shane. I'm a grown capable woman." She argues and Shane smirks, knowing she won't be able to pass up the opportunity.
"Prove it." She grits her teeth, glaring at her and he knows that he's got her right where he wants her and he watches her relax, biting her lip cutely as she focuses on changing the diaper correctly. He grins upon seeing her happy reaction when she gets it right.
She squeals an excited 'eeep!' making him laugh before turning towards him. " See? I did it! I'm not a lost cause."
"Not a lost cause." He agrees, kissing her temple. " I think you just upgraded yourself from doll diaper changing to the real thing. You up for it?"
She nods eagerly and he laughs, lifting up a restless Yana. " Hey Mi?"
"Yeah?"
"We're running out of diapers so try not to mess up this one, this time around, k?" He teases.
He laughs as she scoffs before hastily grabbing Yana, and getting to work while he watches on amused.
She smiles at the memory, adding in a little laugh as she remembers how desperate she had been just to finally get it right and the excessive teasing she had gotten on her part before finally getting it.
Till this day, Shane still teases her about it.
She feels an arm wrap around her torso and she tenses before relaxing as she feels those familiar lips on her skin.
She knows exactly who those lips belongs to.
She turns around to face him and he grins and she can't help but follow suite.
"Can't get enough of me, huh, Gray?" She smirks, flicking her hair to one side. " You just keep coming back and back, one of these days someone might just get jealous."
"Don't care." He whines and she giggles. "Let em' be jealous all they want, I already got the girl."
"That you did and don't you ever forget it." She warns him and he smiles as he simply reels her in closer.
"You looked pretty in thought there, missy? Thinking of me, perhaps?"
Miley rolls her eyes. " Your not constantly on my mind, Shane. I do have a life."
"Ouch, Mi." He gasps, tapping his heart as he looks bruised. "That hurt, right in the heart."
"I think your heart will live on with a little criticism, Shaney." She giggles, and he grins down at her causing Miley to narrow her eyes into slits in wonder.
"What?" She finally muses and he shrugs continuing to tease her.
"I'm just wondering, yeah. How does a 19 year old girl not know how to change a diaper." He finishes and she lets her jaw fall to the floor.
"Hey!" She pouts as he continues to laugh. " Like you said, I was nineteen years old. Not everyone is offered a chance to change a diaper for a tray of siblings like yours did. I think I did pretty well for a person that has lived through life not knowing how to care for another."
"You keep thinking that, Mi." He smirks. " Might make you feel better and all."
"Some husband you are." She pouts. " Making fun of your own wife like that."
"The best actually, I'm just too darn loveable I guess."
"I'm not really feeling the love right now." She murmurs sarcastically and he cracks up once again.
"I think I ought to show you." He purrs, swooping his head down to kiss her passionately causing her to smile into the kiss as she deepens it.
Electricity sparks, fire lights up within and she wraps her arms around her neck, letting one hand dangle into his smooth, jet black curls.
They get really into it. He's got her slammed against the wall and she's sliding her delicate hands underneath his shirt, feeling those sculpted abs in her arms.
And then its ruined.
"Figured, I'd find you guys making out." Ashley announces, declaring her presence causing Miley to flush as she hides her face in Shane's t-shirt.
"We don't make out that much, right?"
"Yes, actually you do." Ashley responds, smirking. " Its part of the reason why we call you guys the honeymoon bees. Most married couples finish the honeymoon stage well after they are in two weeks within marriage but you two managed to string it along for the last 3 years."
"I can't help it if my wife can't keep her hands off of me." Shane shrugs and Miley scoffs.
"I think he means the other way around." She amends and he rolls his eyes.
"Of course, dear."
Ashley doubles over in laughter, before turning serious. "Well your not the only one." Upon their confusion, she smirks. " Nate found it time consuming by sucking face with Mitchie."
"I missed that!" Squeals Miley, bummed out and Shane laughs at her excitement.
"I can't really blame you." She says. " You were a little preoccupied, leaving little old me watching Kevin and Frankie manning the grill while Aidan pestered Yana on a game of soccer." She shakes her head. " Madison decided to tend to your parents instead."
"Ouch." Shane cringes. " I feel bad for them already."
"Hey!" Ashley screams. " Do not insult my child."
"Your child is three years old and already has her marriage planned out." Shane points out and Ashley rolls her eyes.
"Like yours, doesn't?"
"Actually, mine still happens to think she's going to marry me when she's older." Shane points out bragging and Ashley frowns.
"There is nothing wrong with being different."
Miley cracks up at that.
They all move to the backyard, chatting up about nothing and everything and Ashley and Shane providing entertainment for everyone around by kicking up a storm and arguing about everything that comes to mind.
Miley gets a bad feeling in her gut but shrugs it off, thinking nothing of it and just continuing to greet everyone that she sees and making small conversation.
Its only when she sees that precious little gem of hers, flying towards her with big tears leaking on to her pretty little face does that nagging bad feeling in the pit of her stomach intensify.
She catches Yana as she throws herself into her embrace, mumbling brokenly while sobbing tremendously and Miley has to wonder what the hell happened that has made her daughter act so tragically.
She rubs her back consolingly, and murmurs sweet nothing in her ears but the girl still doesn't calm down, instead getting all the more upset and her worries continue to solidify at the possible thought of what must of occurred to have her daughter so beat up.
"Yana, honey. I can't hear you." Miley says concerned. "What's wrong?"
Yana continues to cry, her little body shaking. " Aidan!" She cries out, sniffing afterwards and Miley feels herself stiffen.
"What about Aidan?" She drawls out quickly in terror. "Where is Aidan? Honey, what's going on?"
Shane suddenly appears by her side and once he captures the commotion happening, he frowns in concern, him for one not pleased seeing anyone that he loves dearly crying. " What's wrong with her?"
"I- I dunno. She just ran to me in tears. I think there's something wrong with Aidan."
"Princess." Shane pipes in, making Yana's tear-stained face to look up at him before sobbing more. "What's wrong? Where's Aidan?"
There's more sobbing and more sniffling coming from the girl. "W-we w-were p-playing s-soccer and t-the ball w-went o-on the r-road and-"
Miley feels a sinking in her stomach, she feels her heart drop to little pieces and her breath actually laboring.
No.
Her legs pick up speed and before she knows it she's on a full sprint. She doesn't know where she's going and what she's doing but the only thing that's on her mind is her baby boy.
There's screaming behind her and she ignores it. She blocks out all the sounds, tears colliding with her cheeks and then she literally breaks when she sees it.
He's so helpless.
So lifeless.
Lying there on the floor, with blood surrounding him and he looks so broken, defeated, limp.
Its like the happiness she has worked so hard for has been taken from under her and that dark destruction that she has been ignoring has reigned over all her happy walls and now she's being lifted into sorrow again.
A big portion of her is lying on that stone cold ground, and she speedily runs towards him, cradling that cold body in her arms as those tears blur her vision.
She calls out to him and she screeches desperately for him to wake up as the blood run through all her clothes but no words come out.
She feels those emotions come back, those deep emotions she had felt before in highschool when her kidnapper had kidnapped her and she was brought into sorrow that she didn't think she was capable of exiting from.
Its highschool all over again but this time, this time, sorrow has managed to capture the happiness of an innocent little boy that shouldn't have to go through things like that at such an age.
And as the thought stays in her head, and the rest of her family near, her universe crashes and her world goes black.
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Sorry it took so long for this chapter to come out. I know it wasn't that good and I can't help but apologize. As I explained, I have the terrible case of the flu and its obviously worked its way into the chapter so I understand if it doesn't look to the best of its potential. I'm surprised I can actually write right now.
Please review. It would mean a lot to me, everything you guys review is taken highly and very appreciated and I don't think I could do this without you.
Love, your fan fictional sister.
Aundrea.
