Kat's pov

Part 3 : Inner struggle

~~ Day after the elevator incident ~~

"Oh! Sorry!" Lily exclaimed. She held her hand to the redhead on the floor who obviously had not her ability to keep her balance. Kat took her hand and immediately shivered at the touch. It was their second morning, and something told Kat this day wasn't going to be as funny and surprising as the day before.

"It's alright" she muttered while trying to suppress the red spreading on her cheeks.

"I was lost in my thoughts" the blonde explained before pulling Kathryn back on her feet.

Lily let go of her hand and Kat instantly knew that her fears were justified.

"Got to go working" Lily whispered and she was gone before Kat could add anything. She watched the blonde's back disappear on the corner of the hallway and let out a heavy sigh.

This situation kept going on through the day, Lily being more distant and Kat more confused. The day before that they were perfectly okay, even after the elevator thing. Lily seemed normal and today…Well today it was like she wanted to avoid the redhead. Kathryn felt like her ego was hurt. Was she not enough for the tall blonde?

They were facing each other in their office for more than 2 hours now and yet they hadn't exchanged a single look. When it was finally time to leave, Kat grabbed her bag quickly and left the office without any glance to Lily. She hurried to the elevators and she heard footsteps echoing hers just behind. The elevator doors opened and both the girls entered it, still without making any eye contact. Kat felt the thick tension between them and began to wonder how the situation could be that difficult when not even 24hours ago it seemed so easy. Without any warning, she pressed the "stop" button. The elevator shook a little and then stopped.

"What the hell?" Lily yelled, finally looking into Kat's brown eyes.

"We need to talk" Kat stated, trying to sound more confident than she actually was.

Lily frowned and locked her blue eyes with Kat's. For one moment, Kat thought she would never be able to stand this angry look but she remembered that this had to be fixed. She stared back and took a step closer to the blonde.

"What's going on?" she asked.

To her surprise, Lily gave up on their looks battle and looked down.

"Nothing" she muttered before gesturing to the restart button. Kathryn grabbed her wrist, preventing the blonde to do so.

"Let go of me!" she shouted.

Kat was taken aback by this sudden urge of anger, she took a deep breath and answered in the most calm way that she could "No."

"Who the hell do you think you are? You can't trap me here!" And with this, Lily broke free from her hold and pressed the button. The elevator started to go down again, tension even thicker than it originally was in it. The redhead looked at her, bewildered by her attitude. She couldn't take her eyes of Lily, and the fact that Lily was staring back didn't bothered her in the least. They were just passing by the fourth floor when Kathryn suddenly grabbed Lily's face and kissed her abruptly. Lily was pushed against the wall, shocked that such a little person could have so much strength. Kathryn was about to pull back when she realized that kissing an angry Lily Loveless may not be the best thing to do; but she felt the pressure of Lily's hands on the back of her neck, pulling her closer to deepen the kiss. She felt a light taste of blood in her mouth before actually realizing that it was coming from her own bottom lip, now hurting. Lily noticed it seconds later and, after a last quick kiss, she pulled back. The elevator's ring echoed in the cabin at that moment, indicating them they were on the ground floor.

Lily leaned in and whispered three last words into Kathryn's ear before hurrying to the exit, making sure she was walking fast enough for the redhead not to follow. The precaution wasn't necessary though, because Kat was frozen on the doorstep, still shocked by what she just heard. The voice of Lily was still echoing in her head, as clear as if she was repeating it again and again in her ear.

"I hate you."

From:redheads_

Subject: (none)

Talk to me please.

From:

To : redheads_rule

Subject : RE (none)

Don't want to.

Kat felt a flash of pain in her stomach. A week had passed and the situation since the elevator incident #2 hadn't improved and it made her really sad. The taste of their second kiss was still bitter on her tongue. It was full of anger and frustration. She still had no clue about Lily's behavior, and no idea about what to do or how to fix it either.

From : redheads_

To :

Subject: RE RE (none)

We're working 2gether, u'll have to someday!

From:

To : redheads_rule

Subject : RE RE RE (none)

Only time will tell.

Your address sucks btw

The redhead let out a small sigh at the answer. It was so Lily-like, so evasive. And yet the second sentence made her lightly smile. It was the most personal thing Lily had told her for days.

Neither of them had said a word about what happened; even though Kat was about to more than once. But Lily's dissuasive look always convinced her no to so she shut it. And now it was too late to talk about it anyway. Sometimes Kathryn regretted what happened, and wondered if the kisses were really worth all this mess. The first one was really sweet. And hot. And great. Okay, maybe it was worth it. Second one was more of a desperate kiss. She didn't know what to do and they were almost arriving. She couldn't have stood seeing Lily go away without tempting something. It probably wasn't the best thing to do, but at least she did something. And Lily kissed back. Harshly and with much more anger than anything else, but she did.

The swing of attitude was so sudden though that sometimes Kat thought it was just a stupid joke or a bad dream. She would arrive at work and throw a warm smile to the blonde who would stare at her, expressionless; and only at this moment she would remember that something happened between them; and that they were far from okay. Kat missed their proximity. She had been used to Lily taking her hand or putting her arm around her waist like it was the most natural thing in the world. But now there was no more sweet move. She would never admit it though, not after what the blonde told her.

Worst thing was, the kiss; the hottest kiss in the history of elevators' rides; was not the reason of Lily's silence. What happened next probably was. And it was partly Kathryn's fault.