Elliot P.O.V

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Elliot sat on Olivia's couch the journal in his lap wide open to the first page. It was a diary entry. And this is what it said,

It's been almost four months since it happened. I've been horribly uncontrollably jumpy and I feel I may never sleep again. Every time I close my eye I see his face. Every sound is him coming after me. And every touch is him violating me. I can't take it anymore. This is my first entry and today was my first day of counseling. I don't know how well it will work but I have to trying the tension between Fin and me has become undeniably obvious. I have to find a way to fix things but I suppose his just one person on a list of people that I have to explain my self to. Well I'll keep wring and hopefully things well work out

LIV

'Violating me?' what had happened and where the hell was I. I have to talk to her about this s

he can't just hide away. I know if I just confront her with what I know she'll lock down and shut everyone out and I'd rather skip that step the time it would take me to get her walls to fall would take fare to long. Fin I have to talk to him first and she what he knows.

Just as I closed the journal the door to Olivia bedroom opened. Quickly I set the journal back were it was . Olivia entered the room dressed casually in a pair of faded blue jeans and a loose t-shirt. She sat down on the couch one leg tucked under her she looked calm but there was a hurt a sadness that lingered behind her eyes. Like she was pleading him or anyone to see it and help her. but he needed to just be there for her right now not push not ask just get the facts from fin then come back and find out what he could do to help.

"So ya sick?" I asked coolly

"HUU?"

"I asked why you where taking time? Are you sick?"

"Oh no, just umm got to involved in the cruse case a little to much."

"oh" I glanced at my watch it was a thirty minute drive to work and my shift started in fifteen. But I couldn't drag my self away from her eyes tugged at my soul and I knew that I had to do something…..I had to go to work .

"Look I wish I could stay but my shift starts soon. So….hey why don't I stop by after work we can talk we haven't had a good meal together in a while I could get us some takeout and we can just talk."

"Thanks El but what about Kathy don't you think she's going to wont you home for dinner"

"No Kathy and I got in another fight. I Can go home right now I've been renting a cheep apartment for now….see we got some things we should talk about."

"Yea I Guess your right we should talk. but lets skip the food I…I'll make us something." a quick shy smile crept across her face but it didn't change the hurt in her eye.

"alright I'll be her by about Seven thirty alright." I stood up and go t ready to leave.

"yea sounds great."

"hey can I use your bathroom before I go?"

"Sure"

I walked into the hall and into the white plan bathroom I closed the door but didn't lock it she knew I was in hear she wouldn't walk in on me plus I wasn't really here to use the spotless porcelain bowl. I stood in front of the sink and opened up the medicine cabinet.

There was a couple of bottles of vitamins C and A, Two bottles of nail polish (probably the only nail polish she owned), A pink box of tampons, a tube of tooth past and what he was hoping not to find two orange semi see through bottles with a white labels and white lids.

I pick one up and read the label it was a prescription a sleeping pill. Which I guess I understand she could have had this a long time in are line of work and with everything we see I can't see Liv coning home falling asleep really easily. I reach for the other one

This one caught me off guard it was an anti-depressant.

Olivia depressed what ever was going on with her was horrible enough to be depressed enough to need anti-depressants both contained less then four pills. Elliot stuffed both in his pocket hopefully she wouldn't notice they wore gone and he could put them back tonight.

He'd been in there a while so he figured he better leave he closed the cabinet door and flushed the toilet and turned on the sink half a minute then opened the door.

"I was starting to wonder if you had fallen in," she said with a laugh.

"Yea…. well see ya tonight." Elliot walked to the door and left his only thought of how he was going to show restraint while he was choking the life out of Fin.

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