So sorry if the format/actual writing for this chapter is awful. I'm writing on my tablet since my laptop completely gave up on me... I am not even amused right now but I wanted to upload this anyway.
It was until later that evening that I began to crack. I had come home from the lab and went straight to my room in attempt to get some sleep so I wouldn't be so exhausted tomorrow. Well, that was the idea at least. I'd been about to fall asleep on the journey home, tripping over my feet and walking sloppily. I couldn't wait to finally get home so I could fall asleep. But now I was here, it wasn't happening. Staring blankly at the ceiling, I felt a silent, frustrated tear drop onto my cheek. Damnit, I thought, I just want a few hours of uninterrupted sleep, is that too much to ask for?
Sounds of laughters coming from down stairs drifted into my room like a poison. They were all downstairs having dinner and laughing like friends should be, and here I was, trying to fall asleep at 7 o'clock and actually get a good night's sleep for once. I let out a sob and rolled over onto my side, heaving the blanket up and over my head so I was completely cocooned in it and surrounded in darkness.
I gave a sigh of relief and exhaled deeply. This position was perfect. I began to feel drowsy very quickly as I felt sleep start to overcome me. My breaths got deeper and more regular and my mind started slowly fading to black. All thoughts were slipping away, now. No strained relationships, no crazy boss, no Monica and the monickettes, no school, no chemistry exam...
Wait! I had a chemistry exam to revise for. I literally had done no revision at all. Usually, I might have winged it (or made more prepared, I mentally added) but I had already missed pretty much a whole topic when I was in Boston so I really couldn't afford to skip revising. I growled at the thought of getting out of bed now I was finally comfortable. I hadn't slept for days and when I finally did, I had to get up to revise? It isn't fair. Even so, I swung my legs lazily of the bed and zombie-walked over to the desk where my books where laying.
If I fell asleep soon, I'd be okay. Surely I could revise and get a good night's sleep? I sighed. Yeah, fat chance of that.
I flung open the books and got straight to work. The faster I got this finished, the faster I could sleep. I skimmed through the books and highlighted the stuff that I thought I would definitely need to know. I wasn't looking for the highest mark on this test, I just had to pass. After a while, I heard Michael and Eve go to bed. Shane followed shortly after. I wanted to go to his room and curl up into him but I had to get this work done.
After what felt like forever, I sighed and leaned back on my chair. I had completed most of the syllabus, at last. I probably knew enough to pass, anyway. I flicked open the next page to the end of topic revision test. I contemplated doing it for a while before deciding that I probably should and getting out a pen and paper and writing down the answers. The first 4 or 5 questions were easy and I smiled to myself while going through them. I could do this. Then I looked onto the next question and my mind went blank. After a few seconds of blind panic, I skipped and went straight onto the next one. I didn't know that one either. i stared at them blankly for a few seconds. I had no idea.
The thought of having to go through them all again and re-cover all the topics made me want to cry. After a few seconds, I slammed the book shut and climbed back into bed. I tossed and turned for a while, the humid Texas night making the room sticky and horrible. Eventually, I burst into sobs. I was exhausted but I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep properly tonight, if at all. I was so exhausted, I was going to end up failing all my classes at this rate.
My eyes flicked over to my phone which lay on the bedside cabinet. In my rush to go asleep, I hadn't plugged it in but it was still charged. Myrnin's offer began to replay in my head. I shook it off quickly and lied back down. I wouldn't do drugs I wouldn't. But as. I turned onto my back to make patterns in the ceiling, all I could think about was the crystals.
They couldn't be so bad, surely? I mean, they weren't exactly great for you, but I was sure they wouldn't hurt me too badly. Images of Monica's eyes rolling back filled my head. No. That wouldn't happen to me. I'd used them before and been fine. It would be fine. It was only for a little energy boost anyway and I would stop using them as soon as my sleeping schedule was reinstated and my workload wasn't as heavy. Before I could change my mind, I grabbed my phone and clicked a few buttons, sending Myrnin a text: I'll come and get the crystals in the morning...
OMG, so I know it's a little short but I'm having so many problems trying to keep the format and bold/italics the same when I'm typing it up on my iPad. Sorry again, but I promise that the next few chapters will be more dramatic and will be longer. Please review and follow/fave, it means the world to me!
