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Chapter 3: Night
When I got out of the shower in my new clothes, Edward was sitting on the bed. He was staring straight ahead, not looking at me. Uh-oh. This was already a bad sign. I cleared my throat, even though I knew he knew I was there. His head didn't turn in the slightest. I cleared my throat again, still nothing. "Why are you so mad at me?" I desperately asked.
He looked up at me, "Bella how can you possibly ever think of wanting to keep that monster?"
"I—I don't know," I concluded.
"That's right, we don't know. Please let Carlisle take care of this. I will make you a vampire as soon as it is out of you, that's what you want and I'll give that to you. I will give you anything you want, anything at all, but how can you want this?" his voice was strained and desperate.
"Edward this is the one thing that I can't do when I'm a vampire, besides blushing and having my heart beat, I can't have children when I'm like you. It can't happen! Rosalie wanted a baby more than anything in the world, I have what she has always wanted! In 100 years what if I look back and wish I could have had a baby when I could. Every girl wants children sometime in her life, this is the last thing I want before you change me! Just let me try!" I pleaded.
"You said that sex was the last thing you wanted in this world. I'm not going to lie, I had no problem giving you that. Well of course besides the point of wanting to kill you. You didn't want children before, why is now any different?" I had never heard Edward actually get mad at me. Frustrated of course, but never this mad.
"I have this opportunity and now I want it. I want a little Edward growing up around two parents that love him more than anything in the world. I want to feel protective over our baby. I want a family with you!" I felt the tears falling all over my cheeks. Why couldn't he just give in? God! Why had he made me so spoiled? "As soon as I give birth you can bite me so that I don't die, just do it before my heart stops. We both win!" I suggested.
"How exactly do I win?" Edward raised his eyebrows.
"You get to be a father, and have a vampire wife!"
"But you know I don't even want you to be a vampire. Bella, it's extremely hard for me to deny you I hope you know that," Edward's voice was shaky.
"Then don't deny me! Please! I will have him and then become a vampire, then we can start the rest of our existence together with our new baby son."
"What makes you think it's a boy?" Edward changed the subject.
I shrugged, "I just have a feeling."
I went over and sat by him. I placed my hand on his shoulder and rubbed it back and forth. I wanted to soothe him in anyway that I could. I wanted this to be okay with him to. I wished he wouldn't worry about me. I wished he trusted my intuitions. I wished Edward could read my thoughts. I felt so desperate, my crying became dry heaving. I couldn't even think about getting rid of this baby, he was apart of me now.
I snuggled my head into Edward's shoulder. He was thinking and I didn't want to break his concentration, but I needed to be near him. I needed him to know that I loved him so much. I didn't want him to be mad at me, of course not. This baby would complete our family. Rosalie would give anything for this opportunity; I would be selfish not to take it. Why couldn't Edward see that?
Edward finally relaxed. I guess my sobs disturbed his thoughts, or he finally made a decision. He lifted his hand to my face and stroked away my tears with his thumbs. His eyes were still black, but liquid instead of stone. He was reading my face, I could see that. I wondered what he saw; my face was probably distorted from crying so much. Hormones. For a minute I felt bad for everyone that would have to deal with all my hormones.
Edward opened his mouth and his breath covered my face and filled my nose. I felt a strong kick in my stomach, the baby liked it too. The kick was pretty hard, but I wouldn't show any pain to Edward. "You will not die on me, do you hear me?" he said grabbing my head in between both of his hands.
"I would never leave a world where you were," I whispered.
He contemplated that for a minute. I felt my heart rate increase with anticipation. I felt the baby kick one more time. Ow. That one hurt, but it was a good pain, it made me happy that he was kicking.
"As soon as your life is in danger, I will get rid of your pain—do you understand?" he demanded.
Not really quite sure what the entailed I spoke, "Yes."
"Then we will see Carlisle in the morning and he will make sure you stay healthy," he gave up in defeat.
I felt the tears welling in my eyes and my heart swell. I loved Edward so much it hurt more than the kicks of our son. OUR son. That would be funny if it was actually a girl, but I would just call him a boy. Edward encircled me into arms and sang to me until I felt sleep dawning on me. Even though I was so happy, I could feel the fear and disappointment in Edward. The one thing I didn't want was for him to be unhappy, now I was the cause of it.
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