Disclaimer: I don't own VD neither the books nor the TV version. I don't gain any profits from it. This writing is just for fun. The amazing characters are from L.J. Smith and CW.
A/N: This is based on TV VD characters. Some bits and pieces of the show storyline will be used, but this story is mainly AU. Of course at certain time the characters could be totally OOC.
I want to say thank you so much to Lily CullenSalvatore and bookwormgrl101. Thanks for all your help and feedback. XOXO
One week later...
The last seven days were so intense. I got the opportunity to learn from Lucy so much. Not only about magic, I'd learned about my family too. It felt so good to be able to perform magic without the worries of overexerting myself. I still believe that I have so much to learn. This week has been like a boot camp for me.
The irony of all this was that I have to be grateful to the same person I had been despising for almost a year. According to Lucy we were staying at his cabin, but he didn't make any appearances. At least not in front of me. He was the one who brought me here. He was the one who orchestrated all this. All of his actions puzzled me. Why would he do all this? It was true that we made a truce but that was for the sake of Elena.
Both of us are just trying to protect her. I felt it was my duty to protect Mystic Falls but; protecting my friends was something I would do without hesitation. No one had to ask me anything about it. Even if that meant to make a deal with the vampire I hated the most. I knew he was protecting her because with his strange and not common logic he thinks or feels that he loves her.
That was the only explanation I could come up in order to understand why he decided to help me. He thinks I am an important part to perform the ritual to break the curse. I could understand that myself, but he didn't want to break it. No one wants it to be broken; it would mean the death of Elena. If he cares for her so much; it would be logical for him just to kill me. It was true that any other witch or warlock could come and try to perform what Klaus needs.
I let out a weary sigh; all these musings were killing me. I was just confusing myself more and more. The same conclusion came every time I try to rationalize everything. I just don't understand him. I don't understand his motives. The only thing I was sure is that he always had a plan. Damon always had a plan.
Every time that I rewound my memories since our little deal of peace between us he consistently had done things for me. I couldn't reconcile all his actions with what I thought who Damon was. Sometime I hated myself because I started to care about him. That fact I would never admit it out loud but yes... I cared about him. My heart flinched when he arrives and constricted when he left the room.
I'd already broken my promise letting Jeremy to get somewhat close to me... but Damon; he was getting under my skin without me even noticing it...
Lucy's voice woke me up from my confusion. She sat down beside me and offered me a cup of hot cocoa. It was raining and it was getting cold.
"Bonnie, are you ok?"
I nodded at her while I sipped some of the hot chocolate. It felt so good; the warm drink. I needed to warm myself a little. I needed to make my mind stop thinking. I wanted to enjoy the nature surrounding the cabin.
"Bonnie, I've already told you that your powers are entwined with your emotions. That you need to control yourself a little."
"I know Lucy, I am sorry but I just have a lot to think about I..."
"Bonnie, sometimes it is better not to rationalize everything. Yes, you need to control your emotions but if you try to rationalize and over control everything you will get equally weak. You need to find your balance Bonnie. You need to find your perfect mix of your heart with your head."
I pondered her words. It was difficult to control my emotions. Now I was over controlling everything. I wondered... How would I be able to attain such balance? So much to learn and so little amount of time.
"Lucy"
"Huh?"
"Where is Damon?"
She let out a strange smile.
"He is near, he never left. I will go tonight."
"Why tonight?"
"I need to go back. You need a couple of additional days Bonnie. I'll prepare everything."
I let out a chuckle.
"You are leaving me homework?"
"Yes"
Soon enough it hit me.
"You are leaving me alone with him!"
"You will be safe Bonnie. You can handle yourself and you need to sort out some of your confusion. I can fairly guess that he has the answers of some of your questions; no one else can help you with that."
I lowered my eyes. She was telling the truth. I just didn't want to confront the possibility that I was wrong since the beginning. That my hating of him was out of grief. I knew that there was a chance that Grams already felt that her time was coming. That she decided to used it to try to protect me. Because I was the important person to her; no one else mattered to her. She knew I was barely discovering my gifts. I had thought thousands of times that possibility. I didn't want to confront it. I was easier to hate him.
"I will miss you Lucy"
"You'd better miss me!"
I smiled at her and hugged her. I already felt alone again. It was so long ago that I'd felt this sense of family. I would miss her a lot.
"I have something for you Bonnie."
"Really?"
"Yes"
She gave me an envelop. I opened it and I saw two old photos. One of those photos looked like a wedding celebration and the other was of a young couple. I watched them carefully.
"Oh my God!, Thank you so much!"
"I knew you would like to have them. That's your parents wedding, the other one was the last time I saw your father so happy. Your mother was so beautiful. They were already expecting you."
I didn't have any memories of my mother. I only had what Grams told me about her. Dad didn't like to talk about her. I felt how some tears began to form in my eyes. I whispered a low "Thank you" to Lucy.
"He looks so happy."
"Yes, they were perfect for each other. Bonnie, you are exactly like your mother."
"It must be painful for him, but still I miss his presence."
"I know, you must keep the faith Bonnie."
She stood up and let me alone. My tears began to fall. I really loved those photos; but they opened again an old wound. I began to looked at them carefully, especially the wedding photo. I gasped when I detected a familiar face. Damon was in the photo.
"Interesting photo..."
I jumped a little from his voice. I even spilled some of the hot chocolate onto my lap and it hurt a little. I began to clean myself up. He took the photos in his hands and watched them. I continued cleaning when I asked him.
"You were there. How? Why?"
He shrugged a little and gave me back my photos.
"I gave my word I would protect the Bennett witches. From time to time I would appear and get near to them, just to check everything was ok."
"You never stayed long enough."
"Yes, I'd never stayed long enough."
"I sometimes wish I... forget it I'm going to bed."
I stood up and began to walk toward my room.
"You know Bennett, you look like her."
I turned around and keep looking at him. What was he is trying to say? He continued talking, like he knew I would stop and listen to him.
"You really look like her, but you are stronger than her. That part I think comes from your father."
How it was possible? The irony of this scene? Why did he know them better than me?
"Damon... forget it..."
"No, you should ask or say what you had in mind. You could regret it later, Bonnie."
I walked towards the window and began to watch the steady flow of the rain. It was soothing to see the water falling down.
"Bonnie?"
I pressed my forehead against the cold window pane. I whispered my next words; but I was certain that he could hear me clearly.
"I just wish I could love her Damon. I wish I could love my mother. I didn't know her. My Grams told me wonderful things about her; but my heart always felt hollow. I still feel hollow... I... felt so guilty. I don't know what to feel anymore."
He kept silent. I was grateful for that, because I didn't know why I told him that. I only knew that I needed to say it. I'd held those words for so long inside of me. I held that pain... no I still hold that pain inside of me. I knew that one of my Grams' regrets was that she couldn't ease my pain at all. She knew what and how I felt regarding my parents. I was getting crazy; that must be the reason; because I told that to him about my pain. He walked towards me and stood beside me.
"Bennett, probably I will regret this."
I looked at him curiously. What is he trying to say? He stared at me directly into my eyes.
"I want you to channel your powers through me, but this time instead of giving me I will give you. Is that ok with you?"
I blinked, surprised at him. I didn't expect this offer at all. I nodded yes. He took my hand and placed it on his chest.
"Go ahead, witch."
I closed my eyes and began to channel him. I opened myself to receive what I could take from him. I gasped when the first images came directly to my mind. I tried to stop touching him but he strengthened his hold on me. I heard his voice beside me.
"Don't fight it, Bonnie. Let me show you your mother."
We were at my parents wedding. I saw everything; he even made me dance with him. It was so vivid, so real, so overwhelming. He was the one that broke our contact.
"Why?"
"Everyone deserves to know their mother."
After that he disappeared at his vampire speed. He left before I uttered my next words.
"Thank you Damon... thank you"
I said that while crying. I couldn't control it, the rain got stronger and I kept crying for a long time. I guess it was me; the one responsible for the rainy night. I kept remembering what I saw thanks to him.
I hate him!... I must hate him!
That was the moment that I began to fall...for... him.
A/N: Well tell me what do you think about this chapter? I know it is kind of short... sorry about that. Leave me some love and write me something... any ideas or guesses of what will happen next? It is obvious that all the first three chapters are from Bonnie POV. Do you want me to keep it like that or you want me to write from another character POV... maybe Damon?
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