NEVER ALONE

A/N so this chapter is based off the song Never Alone by Barlow Girl. It just really hit my heart this morning, & it just seemed like a perfect song for this chapter ((the mood)). So yea, just a little recap on last time: MRs. Lovett tried to commit suicide, but Sweeney saved her, ALMOST DYING IN THE PROCESS (don't forget that part), & he actually showed in his own way, that does care for Nellie. Unfortunately, I have to ruin that little intervention. This chapter should be pretty graphic (not sexual, but more "emo" standards, if you get my drift.)

Well, enjoy :

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Mrs. Lovett woke up in Sweeney's barber chair, not knowing where she was, or how she got there. Her head was killing her, & the dusty smell of the barber shop wasn't helping much. She leaned back & rested her head on the chair again, staring at the ceiling. A million thoughts were flying through her mind. Amidst them one seemed to stand out far greater than the rest. The bridge.

I waited for you today
But You didn't show
No.No.No.

Before Sweeney could say anything else, he watched as she let go of the bars. It all seemed to go in slow motion. He reached for her hand, to no avail, watching it slip, her thin silhouette moving farther & farther forward, towards her death. Her feet were no longer touching the platform of the bridge. Panicking, Sweeney leapt forward, almost falling over himself.

Before she was completely out of arms reach, he caught hold of her arm. Screaming & wailing her arms around, Nellie held onto Sweeney's arm for dear life. Tears were streaming down her contorted face, her cheeks & eyes were a deep red. Sweeney strained to pull her up, his old muscles not being what they once were.

Replaying the latter night in her mind, tears began to well up in her eyes. He actually saved her life. He had kept her from dying, grabbed ahold of her soul before it was too late, keeping it safe from the tormentous waters below.

Maybe he does care…

I needed You today
So where did you go?



The tears fell freely from her eyes, still staring at the ceiling above her. A small smile danced about her lips. It was all too precious a memory to let go of, she couldn't stop replaying his arms reaching out, grabbing ahold of her own, dangling like a thread from his firm grip, his panic stricken eyes.

Suddenly she heard a sound from the dark corner of the room. There was Mr. Todd, sitting stiffly on his cot, a look of grim dissatisfaction lining his pale face. He looked Nellie straight in the eye, showing no emotion, not like the night before. He stood up, walking slowly over to the door of his shop.

You told me to call
you said You'd be there

"Wipe that stupid smile off your face, Mrs. Lovett," he spat out, venom dripping in his voice as always. Not waiting for a reply, Sweeney left the room, slamming the door behind him.

And though I haven't seen You
Are You still there?

A new batch of tears escaped her eyes as she watched him stomp down the stairs, cursing herself for being so foolish. How could she have really believed he cared?? He hadn't changed, he still treated her as some old beggar woman, not even willing to give her the time of day.

But why else would he have saved me from the fates? Why would he have grabbed my arm at the last minute?? He must care, there has to be a reason for—

I cried out with no reply and
I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone.

Then it hit her. She was the baker. She was the one who stripped the bodies of their meat. She was the one who baked men into her pies. She was the one hiding the evidence of their crimes from the public. Sweeney didn't care about her, he only needed her for his own cruel greedy needs. He couldn't get caught til he killed the judge, so he had to have Mrs. Lovett til then.

So that's it? No real feelings? Nothing? WTF?? He really doesn't care about me, he's just still that depressed demon with no true emotions or feelings. Nothing…

And though I can not see You
and I can't explain why.


Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life oh

Nellie slowly got up out of the barber's chair, & walked over to the mirror. Staring into it, trying to remember how she ever could have loved that man. How did she ever see anything in Sweeney Todd?

A moment passed before her thoughts became clear again. She didn't love Sweeney, she loved Benjamin. The man he was before he was shipped off to the Aussies. Before he became this man, this demon, this…. monster.

We cannot separate
'Cause You're part of me
and though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

He'd changed. He wasn't the same loving man he was before, but a violent, dangerous crook, who took advantage of Mrs. Lovett & her adopted son, just to get away with the viscous crimes he'd committed. He was greedy son of a bitch. Using people for his own murderous reasons. No ounce of feeling in his rotting corpse of a man. Ha, he was the rotting corpse of Benjamin Barker. What a pathetic life he was living now.

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

The tears in Nellie's eyes turned to ones of anger, once again, feeling that wave of suicide coming over her. She looked down at the table in front of her, seeing Sweeney's box of razors. She opened the box carefully, slightly frightened at the fact she was trespassing in his personal stuff. Running her fingers along the gleaming silver, she took a razor out of the box & held it up in from of her face, watching the sun reflect a bright sparkle on the mirror.

Without even thinking, she placed the razor on her wrist, dragging it ever so slowly across her skin, watching the blood run down her arm. Surprisingly, it didn't hurt, but seemingly helped with the pain of living. It wasn't a deep cut, but it was enough to draw blood. She cut again, the rubies dripping onto the floor, making a small puddle around her bare feet. She cut once more, making her pale skin a deep red around her arm.

And though I can not see You
and I can't explain why.


Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life oh

After the last bit of blood dripped from her cuts, she raised the razir into the sunlight, watching the red blood flicker in the reflection of the mirror. It was beautiful, she thought, subconsciously noting that this must be what Mr. Todd feels after he's brutally taken the life from another of his customers.

We cannot separate
'Cause You're part of me
and though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

A loud thumping noise was heard outside the shop, obviously boots coming up the stairs. Quickly, Nellie placed the razor back in its spot, & ran to the stairs on the other side of the room leading down the living room.

Sweeney threw the door open, expecting to see Mrs. Lovett still in his chair crying her eyes out. Instead, he saw an empty chair. Shrugging, he slipped over to the vanity to look at his picture frame, walking in the puddle of blood as he went. He stopped, hearing the sound. He looked down, & his eyes made contact with the rubies on the ground. His first thought was he had been messy with his last customer this morning. But hten again, he hadn't had any customers this morning. He grabbed for his razor box, seeing the blood on the razor still.

I waited for you today
But You didn't show
No.No.No.
I needed You today
So where did you go?

Wracking his brain for another explanation, he sat in his barber chair. Who else had access to his razors, his shop? Who else had been in the room while he was gone?

Then it hit him. There'd only been one other person in the room this morning, & there was no doubt in his mind that she's done it.

Nellie.

I cried out with no reply and
I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone.



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Thank you for reading. sniffles This song makes me cry. Lol. Well, hoped you liked it ((don't worry, it's not over yet lol)) Reveiws are very nice. They make me happy! :D

Oh, that reminds me: thnx to grapenut01, Bellatrix5982, ErisRocks, & heartbreakxxvampire for the reviews last time : makes me feel all happy lol