Josie Hill The Knight of Light and Dark ch 3

I heard the growls of the monster I opened my eyes to see what was going on. Var and Null were carefully backing away from it looking for an opening to run. Fenrir yelled for them to run they turned running to us. The monster seemed to decide we weren't worth the effort and settled with eating Lyra's body. It was a gruesome sight. I was horrified and started screaming. I struggled in Fenrir's strong, firm grasp. I couldn't let Lyra be eaten; I had to at least give her a proper burial. I managed out of Fenrir's grasp. I ran toward Lyra yelling her name. I didn't get very far before Fenrir grabbed me picking me back up telling me she wasn't worth it. I couldn't stand the sight any longer; I buried my face into Fenrir's shoulder and cried.

I guess I must've passed out because when I came to I was on the beach again, being warmed by the sun. I took a moment to register what had happened. When the image of Lyra's mutilated body being eaten by that monster appeared I sat up straight yelling her name. I started to cry. The others saw I was awake and ran over to comfort me.

My body shook and shuddered with each breath. I let out loud sobbing sound. I could feel my heart shatter at the thought of losing the one who raised me, the only one who knew me and understood. What will happen to me now? I don't know how to live on my own. I was scared of what would happen to me and the thought of being alone. My body shook as I took shuddering sobs. I barely registered the others around me trying to comfort me. I felt absolutely helpless and alone in the world.

I laid back in the sand staring at the sky. Something soon blocked my view of the sky. I blinked a few times and as my eyes adjusted I saw Fenrir hovering over me. He held out a hand and started to gently, soothingly stroke my hair. I flinched at the touch at first, but soon relaxed into it. It had an odd, calming effect. I stopped crying and I curled up leaning into the touch. I rested my head in his lap. He didn't seem to mind it. I suddenly realized how tired I really was. I looked up at Fenrir. He had a gentle smile on his face. I smiled in return and closed my eyes drifting off into a deep slumber.

For the first time ever I actually had a nice, long, much-needed rest. No dreams, no nightmares just sleep. It was nice and relaxing. I slept clinging to Fenrir. He was still stroking my hair. It was nice. When I woke I kept my eyes closed just lying there in thought. This is the first time I slept so well. I wish I could sleep like this more often. I really wish I could.

I wonder what made my sleep so peaceful. Maybe it was the sun warmed sand. Maybe it's the sound of the water. Perhaps it's Fenrir.

Maybe just him being there helps. I don't know why, but he makes me feel safe and happy. He's really nice. He's gentle and so perfect. He was the first person I met and he was so careful about trying to make me feel safe. He even saved me from that monster.

Now that I take the time to think about him my heart is pounding. He makes my stomach turn. Why do I feel like this? What is this feeling? It's weird and different. I can't describe it. Is there something wrong with me? I don't know.

Wait, in some of the old books Lyra got me the characters described a similar feeling to mine. It's called love. Is that it? Am I in love? I don't know. I'm kind of scared of all this. I read that love is so complicated and confusing. I think the books were right. I am confused. I don't know what to do or how to do it. I want Lyra. My chest feels weird. Am I really in love? I need help.