'Cause I was there
When they dropped the bomb
You know I remember the bomb
And I still hear the bomb
And I still fight the bomb
You know I still fear the bomb
You know I still hate the bomb
Sometimes I still get the call
So don't you lose sight of me now
Don't you lose sight of me now
You know you're all around me,you're all around me
I'm surrounded
You know you're all around me,you're all around me
You surround me like a circle
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Dearest Van,
Sometimes I think about war. I think war is the same no matter where you are. Just as horrific, just as destructive. So many lives changed forever. Every time you went into battle I was so afraid I would never see you again. At night I sometimes wake up with tears in my eyes and the sound of bombs ringing in my ears. That awful war is what sometimes makes me wish I had never gone to your world at all. But then I remember you. You make me think that maybe it was worth it after all.
There are wars here, too. Many wars in my world. There are many people that fight in the wars and still others that fight against them. I have chosen to fight against them. I suppose I could thank you for deciding this path for me. Having lived through one war with you I know that it's something I never want to experience again. I wish that no one would ever have to experience such a thing. And sometimes, when I am wishing, I hear you whispering in my ear. I hear you calling me. Is it real? Are you really calling me? I wish you would come for me.
I saw you that one day near the train station. Do you remember? But I quickly lost sight of you. I wish that I would see you again sometime. Maybe next time, if I keep my eyes on you long enough you might not disappear. But here I go again, torturing myself with things that might never happen.
Maybe someday you will come for me. I desperately hope you will. I dream of a day when you will enfold me in your arms and the light will surround us both and carry us to where we can be happy together. Hoping is all I can do for now. And so I hope. Here I wait, surrounded in my memories of you.
Your truest love always,
Hitomi
