Chapter three

Harry finished showering and had to admit he felt a lot better even if he was tired. He pulled on the robe then went out into the kitchen.

'You look better Harry, a bit drawn. Sit down and eat, would you like a cup of tea or some juice?'

'Juice would be great Tonks, thanks,' Harry sat down and started eating, 'You're a good cook.'

Tonks smiled, 'Thanks, mum taught me, dad did a bit as well. So you really killed him Harry?'

'Yeah,' Harry sighed, 'you'll hear all about it later, I think we both need some time.'

'Remus loved you Harry, thought of you as a son.'

Harry nodded and felt the tears come to his eyes. He didn't want them to fall, he didn't want Tonks to see that. So he kept blinking, but kept his head lowered, then felt Tonks's arms around him and they both ended up crying, one for the loss of a husband, one for the loss of a friend and father figure. When they had both cried a lot of tears, Tonks sat back.

'Thanks, I needed that, so did you,' Tonks squeezed Harry's hand.

'Yeah,' Harry nodded, finished eating, then took a drink of his juice, 'Thanks, that was great Tonks.'

'Okay, come on and I'll show you where you're going to be sleeping. And I meant what I said Harry, you stay as long as you want. I know I like having you here and Teddy will too.'

'I will, but if you want some space, let me know okay,' Harry followed Tonks down the hall and into another room.

'See you in the morning Harry,' Tonks hugged him then left.

Harry sighed, then closed the door behind him. He took the robe off and climbed into bed and that was all he knew as he fell into a deep sleep.

Harry woke, put his glasses on and looked around. At first he couldn't remember where he was, then last night came to him and what happened, Tonks. Harry got up and pulled the robe on and walked out into the living room and saw Tonks sitting on the couch feeding Teddy.

'Sorry, didn't mean to see that,' Harry turned around and was about to leave when Tonks spoke.

'Harry, come here, I'm just feeding Teddy, it's a natural and beautiful thing. Remus used to love watching me feed our son.'

'Well, yeah, he was you're husband Tonks.'

'You're family, so it's fine and I'm not shy about this. As soon as his feed, I'll make us something to eat. But do you realise how long you slept?'

'No, but I feel rested, so it must have been a while.' said Harry as he sat down on the other couch.

'Sixteen hours, I'm usually up every few hours to feed Teddy. After ten hours hit, I actually went in to check on you, to make sure you were alright.'

Harry smiled, 'You're going to make a great mother Tonks, but I'm not a kid you know, you're not going to play mother with me are you, like Mrs. Weasley does?'

'Don't be a prat Harry, I was just worried about you. I'm not much older than you, so no, I will not be playing a mother, maybe a big sister. You still look very drawn and sore.'

'I'm a little sore, but I'll be fine.'

'So he hit you with the killing curse again and you survived again, then you killed him. Did you use the killing curse on him?'

Harry shook his head, 'No, I could never use that curse, even on him. But our wands connected, my disarming charm hit his killing curse and basically rebounded onto him. He never knew the wand he was using also belonged to me.'

'Why would he have you're wand?'

'Not my phoenix feather wand, another wand I won in a duel,' Harry sighed, 'It's a long story, but Draco Malfoy disarmed Dumbledore the night he died, I disarmed Malfoy another time. According to Ollivander, the wand belonged to me after that. Voldemort broke open Dumbledore's tomb and took his wand, but never knew it was mine. It's like what Ollivander used to say, the wand choses the wizard, it's the same, but instead of choosing me, I won it.'

'Okay, I get that as I do know you can use anyone else's wand, but if you win the wand, it does work better for you. So are you going to tell me why Voldemort wanted Dumbledore's wand, I know yours and his shared cores, so I can see him wanting another one if he was going to try and kill you again, but why Dumbledore's?'

'I'll tell you Tonks, I've always trusted you. But let's wait till later, I'm trying not to think about anything right now.'

'Alright and I understand,' Tonks saw Teddy had finished feeding, so she fixed herself up and noticed Harry looked away, but was also blushing. She smiled as she got up, 'Why don't you get you're godson to bring up his wind and I'll get started on something to eat for us.'

'Tonks, I know nothing about babies,' Harry said as he took the baby in his arms.

'Just put him up against you're shoulder and gently pat his back,' Tonks watched as Harry carefully put her son on his shoulder, 'See, just keep your hand on him so he doesn't fall back, then pat his back with your other hand, it's easy.'

Harry gently started to pat the little boy's back and instantly he heard Teddy let out a loud belch making Harry laugh.

'Sounds like most blokes I know, so do I keep him there or move him?'

'Lay him in your arms, but that was quicker than I can usually get him to do that. Get to know him Harry while I make us something to eat,' she smiled and walked into the kitchen.

Harry stared at the baby in his arms and noticed he was looking at Harry. 'He looks like you Tonks.'

'Yeah, he does, but babies will change a lot as they grow, so maybe he might look like his father as he gets older. You know why both Remus and I wanted you as his godfather? Not counting how much we both care about you.'

'No, I was shocked when Remus told me.'

'We knew you would be a great influence on him, but will also be there for him whenever he needs a man to talk to. Most boys won't talk to their father's about personal things, with girls, well some will talk to their mother's, some won't. You know what it's like not to have a close older male that you could talk to about things boys need to know. Even when you did see Sirius, you never got to talk about personal things. It was all Voldemort or what he was up to, when he might try to get you again, how do you move you safely.'

'Yeah, it was and I really wished I had been able to talk to him about things, well girls, and stuff.'

Tonks smiled and put some food on the table, 'Put Teddy in his cot there and come eat.' Tonks watched as Harry stood up slowly and gently placed Teddy in the cot, covered him up and kissed his forehead, 'So you wanted to talk to him about girls and sex?'

Harry blushed but nodded, 'I didn't feel comfortable talking to Mr. Weasley about all that. Ron used to get so uncomfortable about that when the other blokes brought it up, so I knew I couldn't talk to him either. I almost spoke to Hermione, but I just couldn't bring myself to discuss that type of stuff with a girl, especially my best friend and as she wouldn't really know what I was talking about as she hadn't done anything either.'

'Remus said that you know, he was going to try and talk to you in private one day. See if there was anything you wanted to know. The time was never right though, now it's too late,' Tonks looked down as tears fell from her eyes again, 'I miss him already.'

'You will always miss him Tonks, but it does get easier. I still miss Sirius, a lot,' Harry wanted to take Tonks's mind off what she was feeling, 'Can I ask you something Tonks?'

'Anything Harry,' she sniffed and wiped her face.

'Did Remus ever say if I had a godmother or anything about my grandparents, the Potters, I mean. I don't know anything about my family.'

'He never mentioned if you had a godmother Harry, but I know you're grandparents died not long after you're parents got married. They did go to your parents wedding, it was quiet, held at the house, with just you're grandparents, Sirius, Remus, Peter, and Dumbledore, they were the only ones there. Do you really not know anything Harry?'

'Well a couple of things, dad and mum got together in seventh year, dad played on the Gryffindor quidditch team, like me, mum was a prefect, dad and mum became head boy and girl. Um,' Harry thought for a minute, 'Oh, dad changed into a stag that was to keep Remus company on the three nights of the change. I know mum hated dad before seventh year, and they were members of the order of the phoenix, that's it.'

'That's not a lot is it,' said Tonks sadly, 'But we never spoke a lot about your parents, we spoke about you a lot. Remus did say he couldn't have found better friends than James and Sirius. He said you're mum put up with a lot from those two, but she loved them.' Tonks stared at Harry for a minute, 'Harry, can you tell me if the prophecy was true?'

Harry looked up, 'Yeah, it was true, either him or me had to die at the hand of the other. So it was always going to come down to me in the end. I think I always knew that, even when Dumbledore was still alive. I used to hope he could finish Voldemort and I think he really tried so I wouldn't have to, but he knew it was going to be me as the prophecy was told to him. When I first heard it, I was so scared and I thought instantly, I'm dead.'

'Well you're not and he is, shows that good can overcome evil especially if you believe that good will always win. I've never seen a person that is so good until I met you Harry. It's there in everything you do and everything you say, so I know my son will turn out alright,' Tonks smiled over at Harry and he smiled at her, then they both sat quietly and ate, comfortable with the silence, comfortable with each other.