I do not own inuyasha
Lonely souls
Sesshomaru's new company displeased him. She was the most beautiful yet. She was different from the others but in the end, she too was after his status like the rest. He was starting to feel something for Kagura. She had an air around her. She did not fall immediately to his seduction. He saw her restraint as strength. But soon, he found her seducing his chief of staff in his chambers when he was return early from his visit with the neighboring northern palace with the union of Princess Ayame and her beloved Koga.
Four months forever lost in his life. "Get out! And to think I was getting use to having you by my side. My eyes were blind to not see the vileness weeping from your intent. Your company will no longer be necessary." He turned and left he castle. At least she would be gone by the time he returned.
Toga sighed. He thought that Kagura truly cared for his son and not the throne. She was the niece of the king of the south, Naraku. She seemed so genuine but alas the apple does not fall far from the tree. Her uncle was a conniving, calculated king. Sesshomaru should be back by the time Kagome's sister arrives and the ball in her name. Toga was sadden with his son's demeaner. Will he ever find happiness? A calming hand rested on his shoulder with a soothing voice calling to him. "Beloved."
Izayoi called out to her husband. Yes, she was his reason to become a better man. He prayed everyday that Sesshomaru would find happiness as he and Inuyasha had.
Sesshomaru rode his black stallion Ah-un into the forest towards the east. He needed to hunt his pain away, kill something. He may not have shown it but Kagura had been the first one to get to his barrier after sixteen years. 'To think I considered her as my equal'. But in reality she was. She was exactly what he was, someone who lived for his or her own personal gain. The fates are cruel. Never had he been so amuse at his own shortcomings. Perhaps he was wrong...
Just then he noticed a boar. He shot his arrow right through the boar's head killing it in an instant. He was right at the border of his land and the east. For most, this would have been a two-day ride. But for him and his steed, sixteen hours was easily done. He would set up camp for the night. For some reason, the open skies gave him more comfort than the arms of any women he bedded.
"My lady, there is a small town coming up in an hour, we shall rest there for the night." Kohaku said.
Kohaku was born in a village of ninjas and taken into Rin's father's home as a guard from since he was ten. Rin was eight at the time. He adored his mistress instantly. She was warm and kind and sang songs of nonsense bringing a smile to everyone around her.
Then, darkness took over her heart when she witnessed her mother's and brother's death. She had changed. Forever lost was the carefree child of those days.
When she turned twelve, she approached Kohaku to teach her some defensive moves. He complied. Eventually she wanted to learn offensive move as well. He taught her but asked if she would restrain from fighting unless absolutely necessary. He would always be there to protect her. She knew it.
Rin never let the turmoil of her soul out where other could see. When faced with such terrorizing events, she had yet to shed a single tear. People compliment her for being strong in the face of death, but truth be told, she was scared. So scared that if she cried, she would inevitably break forever. She will live on. She will hold on to this pain to remind her how cruel men are.
The bandits that killed her mother was none other than the man in love with her mother. Her so called childhood friend. He could not have her, so he killed her. Rin knew she should have died that day. He stabbed her brother, then her. He wanted to hear her mother scream in pain. "You will feel the pain you have caused me, beloved." She laid in her pool of blood watching the horror and pain in her mother's eyes as she scream Rin's and her brother's name. Then all was silent. She woke up numb from the pain. She was on the brink of death and brought back to life as a miracle. She should have died though because she was dead inside. Lost forever in turmoil. No one knew though, she kept the act up well enough. In company, she was still the happy child.
She started to cut herself. The pain reminded her that she was still alive. But being alive and living are two different things. Her sister was the anchor that kept her going. Then one day it was all gone. Kagome was leaving and there was only her and father left. Father was going through what she was, he was dying a bit everyday. Then two years after Kagome's wedding, he fell sick and never recovered. Rin was truly alone. Despite the love and warmth of the estate, she felt nothing. So cold in this world she wanted to lose herself. Kagome insisted that Rin come live with her. 'Maybe, there is a place for me after all'. Perhaps, she could try but the real question was would she?
The carriage stopped, pulling Rin out of her thoughts. A moment later Kohaku went into the village leader's house and came back out. "My Lady, you room is being prepared. They will have a meal ready in a bit. Please come in and sit by the fire. The northern winds have started howling so the weather may be unstable these next few days." Kohaku held out his hand for his mistress. She nodded and took his lead. Kohaku and Ginta have been her personal guards since that fateful day. They were almost family to her but she did not want to get close to anyone fearing the pain to come when they are lost. Her true smiles were hidden behind her subconscious for eight years now.
The family was warm and inviting. She watched as the little boy and girl played with their mother by the fire while their father told stories of his journey. The family's laughter echoed throughout the hut. Then the mother held her children close and kissed them. She felt a pang in her heart. She sat up, bowed her head, and excused herself for the night. As she was escorted to her room, she could not help but hear the laughter in the children's voices as their mother said ' I love you' to them. She felt her heart sink. It had been a while since she felt this pain. Eight years exactly. She retreated into the room of darkness for the night.
