aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa somtething last minute for kyoutaku day! haha since the previous two were from a long time ago. its more of a ficlet, and probably long enough to be a separate fic, but i decided to put it here instead. idk, maybe ill change my mind and put it up separately tomorrow!
anyway its based off of this song ( watch?v=Fb0Wbc_dB4o) give it a listen!
You are both waiting by the bus station near Raimon Junior High.
Shindou is standing less than a meter away from you, and even though the silence hanging above you two wasn't awkward, you can't help but feel strangely nervous. Your eyes linger on that delightful boy for exactly two seconds before you avert your gaze, your cheeks heating up just a bit. It has already been nearly a month since you and him started...going out, but that didn't keep you from feeling any less nervous and lovestruck than the first time you realized you had it really bad for him, or the time you got the courage to confess.
Before you know it, Shindou's bus arrives and he flashes you a smile – that lovely smile - and tells you that 'he'll see you tomorrow'.
Tomorrow?
You don't want to wait that long; you think to yourself.
.
In a few heartbeats, you see Shindou blinking confusedly at you, and for a moment you're confused yourself when your eyes sweep over rows of seats and windows and –
Oh.
You've just followed Shindou onto his bus.
You clear your throat, stuff both of your hands deep inside your pockets and avert your gaze, suddenly finding the bus' surroundings very interesting to look at. Shindou can obviously tell you're off, and after a second or two he lets out a lighthearted laugh.
"That was sudden. What has gotten into you, Tsurugi?"
He asks, and you feel hot all of a sudden. Your cheeks were probably very visibly red from embarrassment right now. What has gotten into you, exactly? Even you didn't know that much. It's like your body acted on its own and hastily followed the other boy before the door could close on him without your consent.
You glance at Shindou again, and his smile hasn't wavered. The smile that you love, love seeing so much.
You shake your head and make up some farfetched excuse that Shindou would without a doubt just roll his eyes at to cover how flustered you were.
"You know you can get off at the stop after this one to catch a bus to your neighborhood, right?"
"Yeah, jeez, I know."
Shindou approaches the bus exit and waits patiently for his stop. And ah, that feeling arises again. That uncomfortable pang that tugs at your heart when you think about not seeing Shindou again. This was weird. You don't usually get like this after all, and if you did, it wasn't this extreme and you had control over your emotions. You had all sorts of worries and thoughts flashing madly through your mind, and you don't know how to take them.
The bus screeches to a halt. You have arrived at Shindou's stop.
Shindou's stop.
.
No.
This time, you've full conscience of what you're doing, and you get off the bus after Shindou. What you don't realize until a few seconds too late is that you're grasping the brunet's wrist firmly in your hand, as if you thought something horrifying was going to happen if you so much as loosened the grip. Shindou is staring at you with piercing brown eyes, confusion clearly present on his face. And you just stare back, without anything to say.
"Ah." You begin intelligently. Shindou quirks his eyebrow.
You slowly let go of Shindou's wrist, and scratch the back of your head awkwardly. Well, nice going there, Tsurugi. If this turns into a reflex, you'll be following him into the bathroom in no time.
Shindou laughs again. "Jeez, Tsurugi, are you feeling alright today?"
You turn your eyes away and scoff. "What's that supposed to mean? I'm perfectly fine."
"You sure? You've been daydreaming since the beginning of the bus ride, and you just keep following me." Shindou then grins teasingly. "Scared of leaving me? There's no need to be embarrassed about that."
"Why you—" You reach out your hands towards him, but he dodges and starts laughing again.
"You can follow me, if you want to, you know?" Before you get the chance to protest about the 'following' part, Shindou adds, "Or we could just hold hands, which one do you prefer?"
.
You grumble something under your breath that might have sounded something like 'shut up', but you slowly slip your fingers in between Shindou's and lace them together. Shindou rolls his eyes but says nothing, and the two of you begin walking to Shindou's cram school.
"Hey, Shindou."
"Hm?"
You open your mouth to speak, but it hangs open uselessly for a few seconds, no word coming out. So you close it again and think your questions through. What is it you wanted to ask him? They were all nonsensical, silly things, but you didn't want to just leave it be with a 'nevermind'.
In the end, you manage to blurt out something.
"Do…do you love me?"
You expect Shindou to tease you for asking such a stupid question, but he smiles at you instead. Then he laughs, and tightens his grip on your hand just the slightest bit before answering.
"Of course I love you."
That was enough to make your heart skip a beat.
"Well, here we are." Shindou looks up at his cram school's building and turns towards you. "I guess I'll see you?"
He slips his fingers away from yours, and you already miss the contact. You refrain from reaching out to hold his hand again, and you smile at him to cover your growing sadness. "Yeah, see you tomorrow."
Shindou turns around, and you hate it. You hate this growing pain in your chest that just seems to grow every time Shindou takes one more step towards the school building. You don't want to feel this way, love was supposed to be a good thing right?
So why did it hurt?
.
.
You don't stop to think about it, and just run towards Shindou and you wrap your arms around him from behind tightly before he even had the chance to reach for the door. You feel him tensing up, but he soon relaxes into the embrace. You feel his hands on your arms.
"Tsurugi—"
You don't let him say anything. You pull away only to make him turn around and you grip his shoulders, staring at him. He seemed at loss of words, and to be honest, so were you. You let your emotions go rampant again, something that Tsurugi Kyousuke didn't and shouldn't do. You don't lose your cool, not like this, not so easily.
Shindou lets out an exasperated sigh. "Jeez…"
.
You're pretty sure you're the first one to make a move, but Shindou leans up and you two meet halfway. It's gentle, chaste, fleeting, just a gentle brush of lips, but it's nearly enough to make your heart explode. Shindou's the first one to pull away, and he looks at you, then cracks a smile.
"I love you too."
You smile back.
"Now let me go, you big baby, I'm late for cram."
"Oh, sorry." You let go of him, but you're still smiling like an idiot. Shindou turns around, but before he enters the building he says.
"You know, there's a Starbucks near here. Let's go there after I'm done, okay?"
You grin, then nod at him.
