daisukezgirl13: Hey guys! I took time from my busy schedule to write the third chapter! I do kind of feel sad that I put all this effort into my stories and I only get a few reviews. I need to know that you all love me! Please review! Oh, and I kept forgetting to put this in…
DISCLAIMER: I own Matsuru, Saki, Saka, Ayame, Kaori, Cole, Kyle, Sam, and the Tokyo Mew Mew characters belong to Mia Ikumi
Chapter 3: Sunset Truth
When Matsuru got to the dining hall, there were only a few students eating. She assumed that most kids were enjoying their first chance to sleep-in. She grabbed her tray, some food, and sat down quietly by herself. Many thoughts whirled around in her overcrowded mind.
She quietly finished her breakfast and threw away her trash. She stretched and walked out into the hallway. She turned toward the foyer and thought, What now? No one that I hang out with is awake now…So…I guess it's back to roaming the halls…like normal…She put her hands in her pockets and turned away from the foyer and began to walk down the long hall. During her long walks, she didn't know where her feet were taking her…they seemed to have a mind of their own.
She walked slowly and laid her many thoughts in front of her. Her dream last night had made her a little freaked out. Why did all of those people look just like the people she had drawn? Why was the green haired and pink haired stood out so familiar to her? She felt so weird when she looked at their eyes.
She walked by a picture that said, "We All Love You!" She sighed and walked up a flight of stairs. She sat on a window sill and sighed as she thought about the picture.
Love…That makes me think of my parents…What did I do wrong? Why did they give me up? To think, my own parents didn't even love me…I've never really had parental influence of love…Will that affect my life later? Maybe…maybe they will never come to claim me after all…No one cares about me like they could…they are probably dead…or, maybe I was just not good enough for them…I mean, I have Sam, Kyle and now Cole…but none of them really understand how I truly feel…I can't think about this anymore…
She stood up and began to walk down the hall again, submersed in thoughts.
Maybe I did something to drive them away. Maybe…I was not-
Her thoughts were interrupted when she bumped into someone. "Oh, I'm sorry." She apologized airily.
"De ja vu, huh Matsuru?" She looked up and saw Cole smiling down at her as he stood in front of her. "It's just like when we first met yesterday." She pushed past him and absentmindedly began to walk away.
"Wait Matsuru!" He called out with a tone of pleading in his voice. She still continued to walk away, but he ran behind her and grabbed her wrist. She stopped and he spoke.
"Hey, I just want to know if you are-"
"Leave me alone Cole. I'm trying to think." She tried to break free, but he still kept a firm grip.
"Let go of me Cole."
"No," he retorted. "Not until you tell me what's bothering you." She turned around and slapped him before she ran down the hall. He stood still for a second and then ran after her and called to her.
"Matsuru, just talk to me!"
"No! You won't understand…No one can and no one does! No one cares!" Her voice was shaky and it sounded like she was crying. Her words dripped with remorse and sadness.
Finally, one floor up, Cole caught up with Matsuru. He grabbed one of her wrists and as she turned to slap him, he grabbed the other one.
"Just let me go!" she protested as she looked downward.
"No! Look at me Matsuru!"
She shook her head and said, "I…I can't!"
He struggled with her for a minute before she looked up at him and screamed, "Let me be! I want to be alone!" He looked down at her wet cheeks which were blotchy, but mostly, he saw past that and saw her eyes. In her eyes was so much pent up anger and pain…pain that had been inside her for years…It shone past her sadness and overtook her. He released his grip a bit as he said cryptically, "…do you really want to be alone right now?"
Her eyes flickered with surprise. She looked into his kind and forgiving eyes and the sadness took over as she shook and replied very shakily, "No…no…I don't want to be…alone…I need someone…now…more than ever…" He let go of her wrists and she hugged him as she cried. He comforted her and quietly led her over to a spot on the floor. She sat there and just let her tears that had been held in for do long finally make their way out and with those tears came a few inner thoughts.
"Why did my parents give me up? What was so wrong with me?" she sobbed and he pulled out his handkerchief. She thanked him as she dried her tears and she turned toward him and asked, "I must look awful and sound so stupid right now, huh?" He smiled and said in reply, "You're opening up to me…that's not stupid or awful, that's a miracle!" She had a small smile break onto her face and he looked serious as he asked, "Now, what's the problem?" She took a big breath and began.
She explained to him in full all about her doubts with her parents and all of her thoughts of insecurities and how awful she was that her parents had to give her away.
"I've been thinking a lot about this stuff and I can't help but wonder what I did wrong…why didn't they love me enough to keep me?" She sat back and looked at him as she pondered and after a minute, he looked into her eyes as he responded.
"It's not that they didn't love you…They probably had a very good reason that they had to give you up. It could have been financial or maybe they were really down on their luck in their health. But, whatever the reason, you should never give up the hope that they might come back for you." She looked at him in wonder and softly thanked him.
"I've never even thought of it like that. Thanks a lot Cole." He smiled and tipped his head as he responded with, "You are so welcome!" They smiled and she had a quick thought run through her, for once, empty mind.
…I trust him…
He stood up and helped her stand up. He waved and began to walk down the hall. It's the first time I've ever truly trusted someone, and I'm letting him walk away…No, I won't let that happen…I won't be alone anymore…I won't hide from my pain or fear…I'll face it…
She took a breath and stepped of the ledge of comfort. "Wait Cole…"He turned around to face her and she said, "Um…I…I want to show you something because…I trust you…"She held out her hand and asked, "Do you trust me?" He smiled and grabbed her hand as he softly said, "I trust you the most Matsuru." They both smiled at each other and she led him down the hall.
I know I must be doing the right thing…because I'm not afraid to be with him…
She led him to a door which had a big sign on it which read, "ROOF NO ENTER!" She pushed the door open and they walked a smaller staircase. He smiled slyly as he asked, "We're not supposed to be up here…are we?" She smiled back at him and said nothing.
She went to turn the knob on the door, but it was locked.
"Darn, I didn't think that it would be locked…However, I can fix that…"She reached up and felt along the upper door frame. "Where is that darn key? Ah, found it!" She brought down a golden key and inserted it into the lock. The lock clicked, she placed the key back, and she led Cole out onto the roof.
"And why may I ask do you know about this place, and you know where the key is?" He asked. She turned around and said, "Well, I would tell you, but then I would have to kill you." She smiled and they laughed. She led him over to the ledge of the roof and sat down with him. Together, they talked about simple things as the complicatedness of the people passed by down on the street. Time trickled by and the two of them felt as if time was standing still, just for them. The sunset cast such mesmerizing shadows on every exposed surface. Cole looked over at Matsuru and his breath was taken away.
The golden sun's rays made Matsuru's eyes really come alive. They were electrified and bearing into his very soul. Every red hair was accented against her pale skin. Her lips were so lush and perfect and her smile just made everything inside Cole just want to hug her and never let her go.
"Cole? You in there? Hello?" She tapped on his forehead and he was brought back to the present moment. "Yeah, I was just thinking." He said in response. "Hey, that's my line!" She teased. He smiled and his insides turned as she laughed. Her eyes, which before had been drowned in remorse and sadness, now shone with joy and calmness. She looked at him and prepared what she said next.
"You know Cole, you are the only person I have ever truly trusted. Even only knowing you a day or two, I feel like I have known you for a lifetime. I've never shared my past or opened up to anyone in the past. The first time I saw you, I was drawn to you by-"
"By my charm and good looks?" He interrupted as he posed and smiled.
"No…It was your eyes which attracted me to you…They were the first eyes that I had looked into and could see the true you, no lies or covering who you truly were. The trueness in them was like water in the desert. I want to thank you for so much, but especially for being so true and kind to me when I had always been labeled a freak."
"You are no freak." He said this with such seriousness, it took Matsuru by surprise. "You are honest and you don't even see how kind you are yourself. The first time I saw you, you want to know what I thought?"
"'Who is this girl, and why did she bump into me'? That would've been my reaction." She teased.
"No, I thought, 'Wow…She's beautiful…' And once I looked into those amazing golden eyes, I saw everything you were. I knew that, at that moment, we would be really good friends."
She began to blush and she said, "Thank you…again…" He smiled and sighed before he spoke again.
"The last time I felt this safe, I was in my mother's arms…And now, years later, I'm digging this feeling from deep inside…And I have you to thank for that Matsuru…"
She smiled and he looked down at his watch. "Oh my gosh, it's later than I thought…I have to go…Kyle wanted to show me something…" He slid off the edge and onto the roof top. "Oh, okay." She said.
I'll admit it, I'm very sad to see him go. I was really beginning to enjoy our time together…Maybe the reason I don't want him to leave is because I'm afraid he won't come back.
He saw the look on her face and he lifted her chin with his finger. He looked into her eyes and she saw the true in them shine at their fullest as he said, "I will be back…I promise…" She smiled and said, "I know…I trust you…" And without warning, he leaned down and planted a kiss on her unsuspecting lips. He smiled and walked through the door.
She was stunned. She felt a tingling sensation in her lips and she lightly touched them.
That…that was my very first kiss! But…the weirder thing yet is that…I'm glad it was him who took it… She sat on the ledge for a few minutes more thinking of Cole and the look in his eyes when he looked at her.
I…I think I really like him…I'm sure of it…I like Cole Sanders!
She smiled and jumped down to the rooftop. She was so bubbly as she walked down the stairs. Nothing could ruin my day…Nothing!
She walked back to the ground floor and pondered many things in her mind.
She walked by Ms. Karsen's classroom and Matsuru saw Ms. Karsen inside. She saw Matsuru and smiled kindly as she took off her reading glasses. "Hello Matsuru."
"Hello Ms. Karsen. Still working on vacation, huh?"
"Yes, sadly…Hey, Mr. Hobbs wanted to see you about something. Just pop by his office, okay?"
"I will…Thanks Ms. Karsen." They smiled at each other and Matsuru walked down toward ' office, wondering what he could possibly want with her. Maybe he found out that Cole kissed me…But how could he have found out so soon?
Dread and fear ran through her as she opened the door to the secretary's office, which was connected to Mr. Hobb's office. The secretary, Mrs. Grover, looked up when she heard the door open. When she saw Matsuru, she said, "Oh good, you're here. He's still in his prior meeting, so you'll have to wait." She pointed to a line of chairs against the opposite wall and Matsuru walked over to them. She selected one and sat down.
The minutes ticked by and Matsuru began to get very nervous. She looked at the blurry outlines of two people from the blurry glass in Mr. Hobbs' office. One let out a very creepy laugh and spoke obnoxiously, but not loud enough for Matsuru to hear what was being said. That was alright, but who was the other person?
At this point, I don't care who it is, I just wish they would hurry up so I can get in there and get it over and done with!
It was at that moment that the office door creaked and Matsuru saw walk out. He spotted her and smiled as his pompous voice rang through the somewhat silent office.
"Ah, good! Matsuru my friend, there is someone that I want you to meet!" Matsuru looked at the doorway and was stunned at what she saw.
A red-headed woman was standing in the door way. Her hair was tied up into two pigtails by two red ribbons. On her neck was a red ribbon with a bell on it. The woman was what looked like to Matsuru, an older version of herself, except her eyes, which were brown.
Matsuru's next word was barely audible as it came with tears. In a whisper, she said one word with such emotion that she had not used in years.
"Mom?"
Well, I hope everyone is ready because I'm going to not be able to update for quite some time because I have mid-terms to study for…Plus, I have a review quota, and if it's not reached, I'm gonna cry for one, and two, I won't review until the quota is don't get mad or upset, it's just, I put a lot into this fanfiction, as well as my other one, and only like, three reviews arrive...I just wanna know if people really like my stories...
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