Chapter 3
New Blog Entry posted 28/5/11 17:30
Feeling So Worthless.
Went to physio today. My legs aren't improving. I just feel so useless. After all of the excitement of getting feeling back, It's like..well its like they've given up on me.
I just feel like I'm never going to get there, feel like i've hit the wall and this is it for me. I'm destined to spend the rest of my life in this wheelchair.
I'm going nowhere and i'm getting there fast. Thought everything was gonna be ok. Serves me right i suppose for getting my hopes up. Everyone's telling me that they're so proud of me, they're happy for me... WHY? Why are you happy for me? This is just so hard.
Am I ever going to get out of this horrible mess? I just feel like giving up. It'd be a hell of a lot quicker and a hell of a lot easier.
J x
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Comments:
GreaseMonkey: Babe No! Don't talk like that. I love you, you're doing so well babes, please don't give up. You can do this Jackson, you know you can! xxx
JLovesA: No, I can't. You don't know what you're talking about. You have no idea what I'm going through.
GreaseMonkey: Jay, please
JLovesA: Just shut up alright? This is all your fault anyway so don't you dare tell me you're proud of me!
GreaseMonkey: Thanks for reminding me.
JLovesA: Babe, I'm sorry. I shouldn't of said that. I'm really sorry.
GreaseMonkey: Why? It's true isn't it?
JLovesA: Aaron, please, I'm sorry.
HazelNuts: Well done, Jackson. I know you're hurting, and I wish I could do something to help, but there was no need for you to say that to Aaron.
JLovesA: I know! Aaron, If you're still reading, please come over. I really need you right now. I'm really sorry.
JLovesA: Great. Something else I've ruined.
Farmboy: Jackson, mate, Just keep up the physio, I know it feels like you're not getting anywhere, but you will, and it'll be worth it. You'll be on the dancefloor of Bar West before you know it!
JLovesA: Thanks Adam. Hey listen, If Aaron comes to you, Just tell him I'm sorry, ok?
FarmBoy: Doubt he would mate. Last time he came round when it was raining his crutches started sinking into the Field..
JLovesA: Bless him. Still, if he does...
Farmboy: I'll tell him, mate. :)
FudgeQueen: Aaron's here. He's really upset Jackson. I think you better come round and apologise to him, not your computer screen.
