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AN: Sorry for taking so long to update! Your friend Panic at-the Edward has been Über busy! Über . . . I like that word! RANDOM On with Alice's bad timing and Bella's perfect disaster!
As much as I loved Alice, she really should have better timing, being a psychic and all.
"Knock, knock!" Alice chanted as she rapped on the car door. I hadn't even seen her coming, but that was vampire speed for you. I rolled into the passenger's seat, and tried to regulate my breathing.
"Hello Edward, hi Bella." Alice smirked as she said my name. This was not a good sign. When Alice smirked, it meant that she had a plan, an evil plan, to be more specific. For all I knew she would be driving me down to L.A. so that I could get a certain kind of ridiculously expensive eye shadow. I wouldn't put it past her. I groaned and turned to Edward, he would tell me what my torture would be quickly. He usually found this pretty funny, but when I looked at him, he wasn't smirking. His dark eyes were narrowed, and his lip was curled up into a semi-menacing snarl.
"Oh yes, you will!" Alice chirped cheerfully.
"No." Edward replied, glaring. I, of course, had no idea what they were talking about. Their mind arguments could be really frustrating.
"She wouldn't." Edward was a little shocked now, Alice must have said something bad, but I had no idea who or what they were talking about. Alice just smirked in response.
"What are you two talking about?" I finally asked.
"You, of course, and what you're going to make Edward do." Alice's smirk widened as she said the last part.
"I won't make him do anything that he doesn't want to do, not that I could anyway." I was just stating the obvious.
"Oh, but you will, I can see it. You've already made up your mind, you just don't know it yet." Alice was practically jumping with joy.
"Alice, I won't do whatever it is, really. And you still owe me for a century, remember?"
"Silly Bella, it's nothing bad. I just thought that since getting married was Edward's idea after all, maybe you should let him help me with the wedding."Alice looked too innocent, that couldn't be all.
"Which constitutes?"
"Putting me in control of Edward." Knowing Alice, this would be cruel and unusual punishment.
"Nope" I turned to open my door, but Edward was already there, taking my hand and lifting me from my seat.
"Forget it. I'm not going to-" The look on her face made me stop what I was saying mid-sentence. Alice's face had completely smoothed over, her eyelids closed peacefully, and her perfect marble features were still as stone.
"Wanna bet?" she asked slyly, coming out of her vision. No, I most certainly did not want to bet against Alice, but it was still my decision, and I knew that I wouldn't make Edward Alice's personal slave.
"Alice, please leave me alone." She just nodded and winked in response. Alice was beginning to be really annoying.
Edward spoke for the first time since he had been arguing with Alice. "She's had a rough day, let it go." He gave her a meaningful look and comprehension dawned on Alice's face.
"You told Charlie." She said softly. I nodded and she wrapped her cold arms around me in a hug. It's okay, Bella. Whatever happened, it could have been worse. She was right of course, the worst was yet to come. I still needed to tell Renee.
"I'm fine, Alice. Really. There's no need to worry about me." I meant it, but my voice caught at the end. I was sick of people worrying about me and how I felt. Why couldn't people just be selfish anymore? I hated the pity, it was starting to make me sick. I was to blame for everyone's pain, including my own, so why were people sympathizing with me every other second?
Alice released me from her hug but grabbed me by my forearms, examining my face. The guilt and fear mingled on my every feature. I could feel the tears of anger at myself starting to well up.
"Bella," Alice said comfortingly "there's no need to worry, Charlie was expecting something like this. Don't cry, Bella, don't cry."
"Bella, love, what's the matter?" Edward took me gently from Alice's grip and wrapped his comforting arms around me.
"I'm fine." I lied into his shirt. I wondered how many of his shirts had been soiled with my salty tears. I guessed it was a lot.
"Bella, you are a horrid liar. Tell me what's wrong, it's okay, whatever it is." His voice was tight as he said the last sentence, restrained, like he was holding back pain.
"What's wrong, Edward?" I asked in response to his odd voice.
"Well, I was asking you that very same question." His voice was light as he looked down at me with confusion.
I smiled. "Yeah," I said as I rose up to kiss him softly on his lips "I guess you were." I smiled again at the thoroughly confused, though now relieved look on his perfect face.
"Why were you crying, Bella?" he asked as he gently wiped my tears away from my cheeks.
"Because no matter how much you deny it, I am an awful person. I hurt too many people. And now I have to hurt Renee too." I tried to make him understand how terrible I truly was.
"You can't help yourself, Bella." Alice said perkily. I had almost forgotten that she was there. "Really, it isn't as though you meant to hurt anyone, in fact, it's quite the opposite! You are trying not to hurt anyone, and therefore end up hurting people anyways. You should try being selfish, it works better."
"Trust me, Alice, I've tried selfish. I am a very, incredibly, overly selfish person. Just ask around, I'm notorious for it." I buried my guilty face in soiled shirt #46.
"Aww . . . Bella, that just shows how unselfish you really are, a selfish person would have pretended that they weren't selfish, but you said you were, which really means that you weren't."
"Alice! Don't do that to me, I can hardly think straight, much less keep up with your twisted mind games."
"I wasn-" Alice began.
"Hang on, Alice, I didn't get my question answered." I turned from one Cullen to the other. "What was wrong Edward?"
"What do you mean, Bella?" He asked innocently.
"When you asked me what was wrong, what were you thinking about?"
He looked at me, searching my face, debating whether or not to tell me.
"Whatever it is, just say it." Alice interjected, looking like she was watching her favorite T.V. show.
"I thought that it might have had to do with . . . him." Edward didn't need to say Jacob's name for me to know who he was talking about.
"Oh." I really didn't know what to say to that. Jacob was, and always would be a part of me. Even though I had told Charlie that he meant nothing, it was a terrible lie. He did mean something, and he always would. Edward meant more, and he always would. I would not ever hurt him anymore, I had promised myself that. Jacob's Bella had left and only her ghost remained, haunting me for eternity.
"Well that was anti-climatic!" Alice chirped from the top of Edward's car, where she was happily perched.
"Alice!"
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