3. After All These Years, Edogawa Conan Can Still Remember the Memory of Pain.

What is like?

A long time after, when Edogawa Conan thought of this question, he still thinks that he did not understand it clearly.

In the society today, the words like and love are everywhere, in order to respond to the speed of life nowadays, relationship became stuff like fast food, there was a famous saying, I don't want everlasting love, I just wish to have you for once.

But, still, even though that fast food relationships already became some kind of "trend", long relationships still exist.

And that, is love.

And, it's also why Edogawa Conan believes that, he loves Mouri Ran, Kudou Shinichi loves Mouri Ran.

Even if he once cut the red thread that connects himself.

After he left Teitan High School, he went straight to Professor Agasa's house.

The weather in summer, is as unpredictable as can be. The last minute the sun was still shining in the sky, and now, clouds had covered up the sky completely. When the raven coloured clouds lined up side by side in the sky, the angry voice of the god came out as roaring thunder, shaking the ground like there's an earthquake, making people on the street shiver with fear.

Because of the need to finish off the work after they took down the Black Organisation, Hattori Heiji didn't go back to Osaka just yet, and instead, stayed back in Beika.

And just for convenience, he stayed at Professor Agasa's house.

As the rain poured down from the sky, the rain drops smashed onto the ground, making splashing sounds of infinity.

When Prof Agasa heard the doorbell of his very own house ran, it was when the storm was the biggest. The moment he opened the door, he saw a person, dripping rain water, and was wet from the inside to the outside because of the rain.

"Shinichi?" The professor almost froze, when he saw Conan standing in the rain, then he realised, "Why did you go into the rain? I have to get you dried up quickly…" And he hurriedly went to find a towel.

Conan kept silent, and walked in.

"Skueeeeeaaak…" Hattori Heiji looked up from the computer as he heard the sound of the door open.

"Kudou…you…" Heiji stood up, wanting to ask him about something.

Then, suddenly, a strike of lightning slashed through the sky, the frightening light brightened the whole room, and for the step Hattori Heiji was about to make, stop as soon as that happened. Because, through the white lightning, he could see that, Conan's sapphire blue orbs, is now filled with lots of mixed emotions.

What kind of emotion is that? Hattori Heiji doesn't know, but, even after a long time, when he thought of the look in his eyes, just for a moment, he felt like he couldn't breathe.

He stood silently at the door, not saying anything, not moving in any ways. His eyes, were locked onto Heiji, through his emerald orbs, he can see his reflection, which is dripping wet from the storm.

Outside the window, the rain smashed onto the window sill, making millions and trillions of "pitter patter" sounds, compared to the pregnant silence in the room, it sounded especially loud.

Even after a long time, Edogawa Conan can still remember the sounds of the rain.

Even after a long time, Edogawa Conan can still remember the memory of pain.

Being the first one to break the tense atmosphere between them, Hattori Heiji sighed, and said, "Have you decided yet, Kudou?"

"Yeah," He looked up, "I have."

As the clouds in the sky got darker and darker, in the room without any lights on, was filled up with air full of tension.

Hattori Heiji, who is now standing next to the desk, thought for a bit, and said, "Don't worry, Kudou, I'm sure we can…"

Kudou, I'm sure we can find a perfect solution.

But, when he was half way through the sentence, he stopped, and never continued.

When Kudou Shinichi decides on something, he does not change it, Heiji knows that better than anyone. Also, "a perfect solution"? Even he himself feels ridiculous saying that word.

Nothing in this world is perfect, which means, you can't get a perfect solution for everything. For example, Mouri Ran waiting for Kudou Shinichi to come back endlessly; for example, the death of Kudou Shinichi; for example, how their love towards each other were never shown to each other.

If not because of how well he knows, Kudou Shinichi, Hattori Heiji would not be able to see, that, behind those calm, blue sapphire eyes, were waves of rage, sadness, and loneliness.

His height was no taller than any other first grade student, but, on top of his shoulders, he's carrying far more than he could and he should, and yet he still has to.

Receiving a sudden weight on his shoulder, Conan looked up, and saw Heiji's sophisticated eyes staring down at him.

"I know," He pulled out the best smile he could, "I'll manage everything, including 'Kudou Shinichi's' funeral."

"Thanks." He said, when the words came out of his mouth, he looked like he used every bit of his energy to do that. He looked down, letting his glasses slid over his eyes and block his vision, not letting Heiji see his face.

He doesn't need to. He knows, what it feels like, when you gave up everything with your own hands.

"Won't you regret this?" A voice came from behind.

He knew clearly who it is, without turning around.

The rain had stopped; the storm earlier had already turned into pretty sunshines.

"I don't know, Haibara," The sunlight shone on him, stretching out his shadow, "but, I want her to be happy."

I want her to be happy.

Even if the person that'll be standing by her side, won't be me anymore.