I'm back ! So sorry I didn't write sooner I've got tons of work plus I try to update my major fiction more often (it's called Unexpected, BTW). So hopefully you'll enjoy this chapter. It was requested by a few people -very few- but requested nonetheless. Thanks to Lullaby baby rock a by bye, my greatest and best supporter !
Chapter 3
Announcing
the birth
of
Apple Primrose Mellark
Born : 11th May
Weight : 7.4 pounds
Mrs. Everdeen looked at the card in her hand. she had gotten it from Sae. She was sitting in her kitchen, drinking a cup of coffee, the sunlight falling on the table. When she had received the news she had been delighted, she was a grandma ! Now, she felt a pinch in her chest, where her heart was. Outside a bird chirped, she frowned. She shouldn't be feeling like this. She should be happy. So why did she feel so bad ? She rose to her feet, carrying her mug to the sink. And froze. She gasped, no. It couldn't be ! Tears blurred her sight and rolled down her cheeks. She slowly sank to the ground, holding herself with her arms. No ! She shouldn't. Not remember ! Please ! She wanted the memories to leave her, to make her forget but she would never. She choked on her grief, so strong she felt she was drowning. She remembered. She remembered two thick blond braids. She remembered clear blue eyes and most of all she remembered an explosion that killed her. Killed her child. Took her away from her. Took Prim away. Mrs. Everdeen shook, tears streaming down her face as she realised the connection. The horrible truth. 11th May. The day Primrose got killed.
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Katniss screamed and bolted awake. She could still see the horrible images in her mind. The Hunger Games, Finnick dying trying to save her, a hospital destroyed and a little girl with blonde hair and blue eyes in an explosion... Peeta who had awaken took her in his arms.
''It's all right, love,'' he murmured. ''Everything's all right.''
Out of nowhere the tears came. She didn't understand what made her so sad and why she kept on thinking it was somehow connected to Prim. Prim, Prim, Prim. Her little sister. She choked and gasped as the pain came crashing back in.
Peeta's eyes widened. He didn't understand why Katniss was so sad.
''What's wrong ? Please tell me,'' he asked her, rubbing her back slowly.
She gulped, tears streaming down her face.''May 11th -'' She choked.
''What May 11th ?'' Peeta was worried now.''It was yesterday. The day Apple was born.''
''It was the day they killed her...'' Katniss whispered slowly.
Peeta froze completely shocked. Of course ! He should have thought about it. He felt a deep ache for the sister he never had.
''She would have liked it being an aunt. Remember how she liked to take care of children ?'' he whispered back to her. Katniss nodded, the tears had stopped falling now.
''She told me once that if I ever had children, I'd better name them after her,'' she said. She remembered everything. The happy things and the sad ones and for some reason she was happy. She knew, she felt that Prim was here somewhere as happy as she was.
But still doubt flickered in her.
''I can't believe I agreed to this,'' she said not meeting Peeta's eyes.
''What ?''
''I will never be a good mother !'' she cried again. How did she think it could work for even one second ?
''What are you talking about ?'' Peeta looked really confused.
''You know I'll never be one. A good mother.'' she hugged her sides. It felt weird not feeling the huge bump where her stomach was.
''You can't be saying that. Why do think you can't be a great mother ?'' Peeta took her chin in his hand.
''Everyday, I wake up with nightmares. One day she'll ask and I don't think I can live knowing that my daughter knows that I'm a-I'm a killer..''
Peeta kissed her lips slowly.''Hey. We're all killers somehow. You just happened to do something that probably mad our life a lot better than it was gonna be. And 'everyone is a little broken inside, that's how the light gets in'. Our daughter is going to learn that no one has a perfect story. But everyone can move on and make their future a happily ever after.''
Katniss stared at him. She couldn't believe that she had one day disliked him. She put her arms around his neck and leaned against his chest. He quickly put his arms around her and started kissing her. The kiss grew intense pretty quickly and deepened...
They were a tangle of arms, legs and bodies. Peeta pressed himslef against Katniss. It had been months since they had sex together and now, he felt like exhaling a breath he didn't realise he was holding. They were so engrossed they didn't realise that the sun was rising until a wail interrupted them.
''Oh no,'' Katniss groaned.''Seriously ? That baby's more on time than an alarm o'clock.''
Peeta chuckled.''You better get going then.'' He watched as she dressed up quickly and she bolted out of the room. Sure he loved his baby but seriously, couldn't have Apple waited an hour or two later to wake up ?
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