Deeks locked the door to the house and headed to the room, Karina was asleep so instead of waking her up he set his alarm for a few hours later and he would deal with the fallout of not heading straight to NCIS. Karina woke to the alarm going off and rolled over and started to wake Deeks up. Karina gently nudged him and said his name when that didn't work she shook him a little and he woke with a start "Whats wrong?" "Your alarm is going off. What time did you get home?" She told him as she started to get up. Deeks rolled over and shut the alarm off and sat up in bed "I don't know about 3 I think." He noticed he had several text messages one was from Jameson and the others were from the NCIS team.

Karina turned to look at Deeks and noticed he was looking at his phone "what did bates want last night?" Deeks looked up at her and she knew whatever it was wasn't good. "I'm being sent undercover and it's a joint operation with NCIS." He lets Karina process what he said "so you'll be working with her?" he hates that this op is going to hurt her more than anything else "to an extent yes, but after what she told me when I talked to her here I hope they don't allow her in the field." Karina's head snapped up to him and she was about to ask him to clarify what he meant when he beat her to it "I called her last night after I got done talking to bates and told her I was the one they were sending undercover and that I wasn't going to report straight there. I told her to tell the others I would be there in 2hrs and I hung up." Karina just nodded not sure how she felt about the whole thing but knew there was nothing she could do. "I'll start you a cup of coffee and make you breakfast while you shower and get ready to leave."

Karina was just finishing up deeks breakfast when he entered the kitchen. He watched her for a minute before he approached her and wrapped his arms around her "I'm sorry that I haven't been fair to you." Karina turned the stove off and grabbed both their plates, she wasn't sure what to say in response to his apology. She handed him his plate and turned to get his coffee when his phone went off. Deeks looked down at his phone and relaxed slightly "deeks" he was quiet for a second before he said anything else "No I got home and fell asleep, I'm eating now and I'll be on my way soon." He hung up and answered Karina's question before she could ask "that was NCIS asking why I wasn't there yet." "NCIS or Kensi?" "The tech guy." He answered after swallowing a bite of food. He finished eating and drank the last of his coffee. He didn't want to leave not now, not under these circumstances. He wrapped his arms around Karina hoping this wasn't the last time they saw each other, "I'll be back don't worry." He knew the moment she finally broke down in his arms "I have a hard time believing you after the conversation last night, you basically gave up on us and on everything last night." Deeks hugged her tighter and said "NCIS won't let anything happen to me ok I trust them more than half the people at LAPD cause they have never left me to figure out how to get out of an op alive." He pulled away from her "I need to get going before they get really mad that I'm not there yet." They said their final goodbye and he walked out the door.

He arrives at the mission and walked in. "Took you long enough, didn't bates tell you we need you to start tonight." Before deeks could respond he heard kensi "give him a break guys, when he called early this morning to let us know that he was going to go home and tell his girlfriend that he had to go undercover he sounded exhausted." Deeks turned to her and gave her a grateful smile. "Yup I didn't actually get any sleep until I went back home to tell Karina I was going undercover. She was asleep and I figured I would get a couple hours before I told her and came here. I should have texted and said I would be longer than I originally said."

Eric whistled to get everyone's attention, if we want to get the background completed for him to go under tonight we need to get to work now. "Deeks you'll be going under as Eric Donovan, your brother was killed in action and you want to get revenge on those you think are responsible. You have a plan in motion but you don't have the weapons to carry out the plan. We were going to send Kensi in as your girlfriend but she said that wasn't a good idea." Deeks let what Eric said about his alias sink in then his head snapped up "no sending her in as Eric Donovan's girlfriend is a bad idea. Does Donovan really need a girlfriend anyway?" Everyone looked at Deeks at that point except Kensi, Hetty spoke up "it will help to sell your cover better. " Deeks shook his head " no sending someone in as a girlfriend with me will only be a distraction in the end." Kensi stayed quiet when everyone asked at the same time "what have they done to you over there? You use to be able to do this kind op with someone else under with you without a problem." Deeks just turned to them "a lot has gone in my life since I cut ties and went back to LAPD. Only the thing that had the biggest impact wasn't work related." He didn't think he had voiced that last part out loud.

Kensi just looked at him "is that why you called me the first time last night?" "It's why I drank a little more than I should have last night. Which led to me calling you." Eric was quiet for a minute before he spoke "is it the reason you stopped surfing with me when you had the weekends off?" They almost didn't hear Deeks when he mumbled "it's the reason my demons have gotten to me a little more than they use to." Sam spoke changing the subject back to the case "we will address sending someone under with you at a later time right now lets just complete the background and get you set up in your apartment." Deeks nodded "are y'all providing that for me to or did you let Bates have a say in something other than which detective he sent in?" Hetty looked at him "what do you think?" Deeks shook his head and smiled.

Deeks started to head out when Kensi spoke up "stop overthinking it, it's not your fault." He was quiet and looked at her "you don't even know.." Sam cut him off "we've all seen the same haunted look that is in your eyes, only the other person started acting reckless before we cornered them and had the same talk." He turned back to Kensi and she nodded "about a year ago I found out Nick and I were expecting, I pulled myself from the field and Nell took my place in the field. I woke up in the middle of the night and went to the bathroom and well I'm sure you can figure out the rest." Deeks looked at everyone and they all nodded "it was a few months ago that Karina miscarried and umm I don't know everything started to spiral from there for me. I obviously started to drink more and went to a dark place." Callen spoke up "don't shut people out, doing that only makes it worse." Deeks response was "easier said than done" as he turned to leave and head to what would be his new home for the next undetermined number of days.