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Chapter 3

The Choice is Yours

As I drove away I glanced in the rearview mirror just once and what I saw was enough to break my heart. The pained look on Edward's face as I drove down the driveway took my breath away. As I rounded the corner, just before Edward was out of my sight, I saw Tanya descend upon him. I didn't have to be an empath to know what she was feeling and I was sure Edward knew exactly what she was thinking.

The thought of Tanya's hands on Edward sent a shiver of jealousy through me and it took all of my strength not to go back and rip them off her body. I didn't know where this sudden surge of jealousy came from and it was starting to unnerved me. I knew Edward was important to me, but I guess the question was just how important was he? Why did the thought of him being with Tanya turn my stomach? Why did the thought of anyone but me touching him make my heart ache? What the hell did all of this mean and what the hell was I going to do about it?

I knew now that I would have to stay away from him. I needed this to go away. He wasn't feeling the same way and if I couldn't get rid of these feelings then I needed to stay away. It was good that he was with the Denali's, maybe he could find the right girl for him with their help. Because I knew that I wasn't the right person for him. He needed someone kind and caring, a gentle soul like himself. He did not need a monster. A ruthless, heartless, soulless bastard like me. If there was a heaven and hell and creatures like us had an afterlife, I would find my ass right next to the devil himself while Edward would be up in the clouds with wings talking to the big guy himself. He didn't need me in his life, no one does. I brought nothing but pain to the family. They all had to look out for me because I couldn't control my bloodlust, I brought down the whole family, making them leave when they didn't want to and yet somehow they all forgave me. Even Edward. Now that one surprised me, I tried to eat the love of his life and he forgave me for it. Alice was the one that wouldn't get past it. She said she was tired of trying to keep me under control, that I was a burden on her and it was stressing her out to keep track of whether or not I would attack a human. That was really the beginning of the end of Alice and me. I couldn't take the look in her eyes and the feel of her emotions, so I left for a while.

I had thought that leaving then, when I still had all of my family around and for the most part being supportive of me was hard, that there would never be anything I would do that would be harder for me, but I was wrong. Leaving Edward behind was much harder then leaving Alice and the rest of the family. Maybe it was because Edward was the only one I still really had contact with. Maybe I was finding it easy to leave all of the others behind because they were already gone. Sure I missed Emmett and, to a lesser extent, Rosalie. I missed Carlisle and Esme like crazy, they were the parents I never had. But they had been gone for a while now so it wasn't like I was really missing anything. Alice could go jump in a fire for all I cared and preferably take Bella with her. I was glad to be rid of both of them and the damn wolves. They were a bigger pain in the ass then they were worth. I wasn't sure if it was Jacob that Bella had been fucking considering he imprinted shortly after she was turned, but that didn't change the fact that they were part of the reason that this family went to shit. We never should have stayed in Forks, we never should have made that treaty and we should have done away with the lot of them when they started shifting again. It would have saved us all a lot of pain, and I fucking should have drained the bitch when I had the chance.

For what she had done to this family I wanted to see her burn. I would love to be the one to set the fire and watch as that stupid head of hers was engulfed in flames. She's not even that pretty, I never understood what Edward saw in her other than her scent and now that there is no blood flowing through her I couldn't see the appeal.

I wished I knew what I was going to be walking into once I got to Peter. Peter always ran so hot and cold. I never knew what kind of mood he would be in once I saw him. His emotions were always so hard for me to read as well. After what felt like days of riding in the car, I pulled up at his ranch.

He came walking out the door and smiled when he saw me. He was happy to see me, he wouldn't be happy for long, that I was sure of. I parked my car and climbed out. He walked towards me and pulled me into a hug. I clapped him on the back and he released me. He took a step back and finally looked at me, "What the fuck happened to you Jasper? You look like shit man."

"It's nice to fucking see you too, Peter."

He shrugged, "I didn't say it wasn't nice to see you, I just said you looked like shit and I want to know what happened. Now let's go inside so we can talk."

I sighed and we walked into his house. The house was a simple one-story ranch with 3 bedrooms. Peter and Charlotte lived a simple life, unlike the Cullen's. I always seemed to fit better with Peter and Charlotte's way of living then I did with the Cullen's, but I like the diet better with the Cullen's, so I dealt with their over the top way of life and learned to indulge. I looked around and wondered where his wife was. "Where's Charlotte?"

He smiled, "She's in town getting some supplies. She wants to redecorate one of the bedrooms. You know how she is, just needs something to do." The life of a vampire could get tedious that I understood all too well.

I nodded; she had always been like that. She wasn't anywhere near as crazy as Alice, but she liked to stay busy and dabbling in decorating had made her happy. We went into the living room and sat on the couch. He turned to face me expectantly and waited for me to tell him what was wrong. Apparently he just expected me to come out with it.

I could feel his irritation, like I said he was always hard to read so the fact that I could feel the irritation meant it was really strong. He clearly already knew some of what was going on, he just wanted to fucking hear me say it. Finally he had enough, "Jasper, fucking tell me man. I know something's wrong. I can see it in your eyes. Now, I know you came here because you need me to help, but how the fuck am I supposed to help if you don't fucking tell me?"

I glared at him, he knew he was pushing my buttons and it was starting to piss me off. I didn't need to be pushed, too much shit has happened in the past two days for me to hold onto my control much longer. Sometimes he could be such a fucking dick. "What the fuck is your problem? You're right, I did come here because I needed your help, but stop being a fucking dick."

He rolled his eyes and waited, with a looks of expectance on his face and my hand twitched just wanting to smack the look off his face. However, instead of acting on impulse, I took a deep breath and started, "Alice and I are no longer together, haven't been for a while and IsleptwithEdward." I knew saying it fast wasn't going to stop him from understanding, but it was worth a try.

He narrowed his eyes, "You did what? I'm not quite sure I caught that." He said in a condescending tone, knowing full well he had heard correct. He sighed sensing I wasn't going to repeat myself and continued talking, "Isn't he with Bella?"

"Not anymore. She's been sleeping with Alice and a wolf, I just don't know which wolf."

"So what? You fuck Edward to even things up?"

"No, Peter that is not what I did."

"Really Jasper? I'm not so fucking sure. It sounds to me like that is exactly what you did."

"That is not what I fucking did. You make it sound like I just fucked him and then left."

He arched a brow at me. Fuck, why did I say that? That is exactly what I fucking did and I knew it. But he wanted me to leave didn't he? Wasn't that why he hadn't asked me to stay with him in Alaska? Wasn't that why he still went to Denali? Edward needed me gone almost as much as I need to be gone. But it didn't change the fact that I would have stayed had he asked me. Peter was pissed; I could feel his anger for me. We stared at each other for a moment before his anger doubled and he punched me right in the fucking jaw.

I jumped off the couch. "What the fuck did you punch me for?"

He jumped up and crouched down, "What do you think I punched you for? I'm fixing to kick your ass for fucking around with Edward like that. As if he didn't have enough to deal with finding out his wife is cheating on him."

"He doesn't know she cheated on him with Alice. I haven't told him yet." I didn't get to say anything else because he lunged for me. I quickly moved out of his way. I didn't want to fight with him. I couldn't make heads or tails as to why Peter was so angry. It's not like I hurt him. It's not like it was him that got screwed. It was my heart that was hurting, not his. I knew what I had done and I was trying to live with it. Kicking the shit out of me wasn't going to get him anywhere. I needed to talk to him, to have him listen. To be the ever cryptic all knowing fuck that he was. I needed that Peter right now, not attack mode Peter.

He lunged at me a few more times and I sidestepped him, finally he ended up catching me and sending me to the ground in a blur of fists. We were punching each other and rolling around on the floor. We probably looked really stupid too. I had enough; he was really pissing me off. Getting my feet tucked under me and firmly planted on his chest I threw him through the door and jumped up. Peter should know better than to let me get that kind of leverage.

I knew Charlotte would be pissed, but I didn't give a fuck about that right now. I would pay for the fucking door anyway. I went outside, grabbed him by the throat and pinned him to a tree.

"I don't want to fight. I want to talk. I need your help Peter." I said glaring at him. He nodded and I released him. He fell to the ground in a crumpled heap. "You should know better than to attack me," I said, "I was the one who trained you, or have you forgotten?" I asked with a slight sneer to my voice. "Now get your ass up, I need your advice."

Peter stood up, gave me a stupid smirk and dusted himself off. "Jasper, man, what the hell happened? And how could you be so stupid as to leave him with the Denali's? Tanya is going to eat Edward alive." I inhaled sharply; the thought of Edward with Tanya was painful. Peter stopped in his tracks. "Oh my God," He said looking at me with shock in his eyes. I didn't know what he had seen or why he was looking at me that way but I knew that look. Something big happened and I wasn't sure what it was in relation to. "This I didn't see coming. I knew you and Alice wouldn't make it, but this, this I didn't see." I rolled my eyes. He was even more cryptic and uninformative then the damned pixie. I could never get a straight answer out of him. Why did I think that this time would be any different?

"What didn't you see coming Peter?" I asked unable to keep the contempt out of my voice. He looked at me and his red eyes flashed dangerously.

He smiled widely, "Don't make me kick your ass Jasper Whitlock, because I will. And this time I won't let you win. But all kidding aside Jasper, this is big. You have some serious decisions to make." His kidding tone had disappeared and was replaced by a somber serious tone. Even his mood had shifted. It unnerved me, Peter had always been more laid back then me and hearing him speak in such a serious tone was not something that happened often. When it did I knew enough about his intuitions to shut the hell up and listen to what he has to say.

"Peter, I know I have a big decision to make, I'm just not sure what that decision is." I sighed; it was true I knew I had a decision to make I just didn't know what it was. I had to make up my mind on where I wanted this thing with Edward to go. Do I want to go back to him? To see him again, to be with him as a lover? Or do I stay away and remain long distance friends? Did I think I could actually stay away from him? Could I live without him? Did I want to live without him?

"You're right, you don't understand. The path you and Edward are on right now can only end in pain. But the question is; whose pain?" What kind of a question is that? Is he telling me that if Edward and I continue this relationship that one of us will be hurt? What the fuck was this man talking about? "Jasper, Alice and Bella are not about to sit back and watch you two be happy. Something has changed in them, I'm not sure why or what caused it. This change was not for the better, that I am sure of and they won't let what happened go. No matter what Bella promised you she wouldn't go after Edward, if given the chance, she will rip you both apart." I had already known that Alice and Bella were different. You didn't need to be a genius to see that. Alice and Bella had always been such sweet, kind, and loving people. I had watched as Alice slowly changed from her happy, peppy bubbly self to a vindictive spiteful controlling bitch. Bella had changed overnight. One minute she is madly in love with Edward, would do anything for him, including become a child of the damned and then once the transformation is complete, a crazy psychotic bitch is born. So my decision had to weigh not only the options for Edward and me but for Bella and Alice as well? That fucking sucked. I just wanted to be rid of them for good. To move on with my life and get the fuck away from the lying, cheating back stabbing pair. But no! Peter was telling me that Bella and Alice would come after us based on my decision. So did that mean that Edward had already made his decision? What decision would make them come after me? How could I stay away from them once I made my choice? Alice, the all seeing pixie bitch that she is would know instantly and you just can't get away from her visions, trust me I spent the better part of 60 years trying.

"Jasper, you need to choose who deserves to be happy. What you and Edward have could be amazing, but to get it, it's going to be tough. You and him will be put through a few fires but if you both can make it through and together, the two of you will know happiness like none other. So you need to figure out what you want Jasper. How happy do you want to be? How important is Edward's happiness and just how important to you is his life?" He said all of this with one hand on my shoulder looking deep into my eyes. And once his little speech was over, Peter was gone. How could he ask me that? Put all of that on my shoulders and just fucking walk away. Edward's life and happiness meant more to me then my own. But what choice would insure that his happiness and life remained intact?

PPOV

As I walked away from Jasper, I couldn't help but wonder if he was going to make the right decision. He needed to be careful because if he didn't choose right, I didn't know who will end up in pain, but I did know that it wouldn't be pretty.

As I was walking in the woods behind my house I couldn't help but think about when Jasper and I were together, it had never meant anything but sex. That's all it was between us. A release, nothing more. I knew he cared for me the way I care for him, we never loved each other and it was never about a relationship, I loved my wife.

I stopped by a tree and slouched down to the ground. I closed my eyes and I couldn't stop the flashback that flashed before my eyes. I saw everything like it was yesterday; it was the first time that we had been together. I think the first time was an accident, it wasn't supposed to happen, but our emotions got the better of us.

We had just finished hunting and we were on our way home. We cut through the woods to get to my house and a strange feeling wept over me, suddenly I was feeling lust and desire for Jasper. As I was watching him run all I could think about was having his legs wrapped around my waist as I thrust my dick into his tight puckered hole.

Jasper stopped running and turned to me with an arched brow. "Can you put those emotions away until you get to Charlotte?"

I smirked he just didn't realize those emotions were for him. I walked towards him and looked him in the eyes, "I wasn't thinking about Charlotte."

His brows knitted together, "Who were you thinking about then?"

I took a step closer to him and whispered, "You." I didn't wait for him to respond, I crushed my lips to his and he actually responded by kissing me back. I honestly thought he would throw me off him and kick my ass.

I pulled him closer to me and kissed him for all I was worth. I licked his lower lip and he allowed me entrance to explore his mouth. I groaned into the kiss and pulled him even closer.

I could feel he was as hard as I was. I ran my hands down his chest and when I reached the hem of his shirt, I pulled it up and we broke the kiss long enough for me to remove the offending garment. I attacked his lips again and walked him backwards to a tree.

I pressed my body as close to his as it would go and ground my hips into him. He moaned into my mouth and I broke away from the kiss only to lick and nibble on his neck and collarbone. I was so fucking hard that I thought my dick was going to explode.

I ran my fingers down his exposed chest until I reached his jeans. I quickly unbuttoned them and pushed his pants and boxers down. I had been with a man before, well a few times before, so I knew what I was doing. I dropped to my knees and licked the head of his glorious dick. It was long and thick and I knew it wouldn't all fit in my mouth.

He hissed and closed his eyes as I took as much of him as I could into my mouth. I wrapped my hand around the shaft and quickly found my rhythm. His hands grasped my hair and he began to gently fuck my mouth. I grabbed his balls with my free hand and rolled them and when I gave them a little tug he exploded in my mouth. I swallowed every bit that he offered me and he tasted so fucking delicious.

I released him from my mouth and stood back up only to be pulled in for a kiss. This kiss was so different from our first kiss. This kiss was not of passion, want and need it was more of a thank you. He was putting his appreciation into the kiss. I broke away from the kiss and made him turn so that his back was against my chest. I whispered in his ear, "I want to fuck you. Will you let me?"

I pressed my erection into his ass and he moaned. I quickly unbuttoned my jeans and pushed them, along with my boxers, down to my feet. I got my finger as wet with venom as I could and rubbed his entrance. He gasped and tried to move away, but I pulled him back and my finger slipped in. I pushed my finger in and out over and over and he began to moan. I added another finger and moved them in a scissor motion to help stretch him.

I removed my fingers and stroked my dick a few times. I pressed him up against the tree and spread his legs as wide as they would go. I licked the back of his neck, "Are you ready for me to fuck you?"

He nodded and I placed my dick at his entrance. I held him to me and slowly entered his tight hole. He grabbed onto the tree and squeezed his eyes closed. I continued to push into him until I was fully sheathed. Oh it felt unfuckingbelievable being inside Jasper. I thrust slowly at first, but it wasn't long before he was begging me to go faster.

I pulled out of him and he whimpered. I pulled him down onto the ground with me and he looked at me in question, "Lie down on your back." He quickly lay down and I moved to lie above him. I pushed my dick into him once more and began fucking him as fast and hard as I could. It was a good thing he was a vampire because if not I would have hurt him.

I grabbed his legs and wrapped them around my waist and I began hitting his prostate with each thrust. He squeezed my biceps and grunted, "Fuck Peter, that fucking feels so fucking good. Oh god, fuck."

His dick was hard again and trapped between us. I could feel my orgasm approaching so I reached between us and grabbed his cock and began stroking it in time with my thrusts. I knew I wasn't going to last much longer and I could tell that he wouldn't either. I began fucking him in earnest, going faster and deeper and we both shuddered with our release.

I collapsed onto his chest and we were both panting, trying to catch our unnecessary breath. After what seemed like forever, Jasper said, "What the fuck did we just do?"

I raised my head and looked at him, "I believe what we just did would be called fucking."

He shoved me off of him and said, "We shouldn't have done that. You're married for fucks sake. What will Charlotte say when she finds out?"

"You just let me deal with Charlotte, she won't be mad. Now are you sorry that we fucked?"

He looked at me for a moment, thinking over his answer, "No. Are you?"

I shook my head, "No and I wouldn't mind doing it again."

He smirked, "When do I get to fuck you?"

I couldn't help but give him a smirk in return, "You can fuck me whenever you are ready to. I might enjoy it."

He grinned and nodded, "I guess we should get home now." I nodded and we quickly got dressed. When I told Charlotte she wasn't mad at all in fact she was okay with it so long as she wasn't around when we had sex. That was fine by me since I didn't exactly want a fucking audience.

I'm brought back from my memories by none other than the man I was thinking about. He was standing in front of me and looking at me with a puzzled expression on his face. I arched a brow, "Why are you looking at me like that?"

"What the fuck are you out here thinking about? You got me feeling lust, desire, want, need."

I smirked, "I was just reliving some memories."

He rolled his eyes, "Whatever Peter. When are you going to stop being so fucking cryptic and tell me what I need to do?"

I stood up and looked him in the eyes, "I can't tell you what to do. You know that."

"It would be better than you're fucking cryptic answers. At least I would know what the fuck was going to happen. I don't want to make the wrong decision."

"Jasper let me explain something to you. Sometimes the wrong decision turns out to be the right decision to make. I will not tell you what to do, but I will tell you this. The Alice and Bella you thought you knew doesn't even fucking compare to the Alice and Bella you might run into. Think about what I said before about the pain that someone will endure and go from there. I'm here for you my friend, no matter what your decision."

I turned and ran back to the house. I knew I was being cryptic, but it wasn't right to tell him which way to choose. He had to figure this out on his own and I knew he would; he just needed to decide how much Edward's life meant to him.


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